FLOOFY TIDDIES YEAH! (if I could high-five this sunflower, I would) I'm soo??? happy?? and glad omg.

Meanwhile, I'm the downward and sad sunflowers /flops to the side It's sunny and kinda cool here. I guess. But too much sun still :u @ Sunflower [Edit] AMAZON IS LITERALLY SHIPPING MY WATER BOTTLE BY PUROLATOR I AM WHEEZING LAUGHING where is my computer lmaoooooo [edit] Waiting for a Customer Service Associate from Amazon.ca to arrive.. Live chat. Is this real. Oh lord. [Edit] IT'S REAL OH MY GOD. Sudden anxiety. [Edit] Welp she was a nice lady. Got my computer shipped and my sleeve more quickly. Ayeee.

(hope it was entertaining)

- Not being able to nap is no fun. :/

- Flowers! :o

Angry. The chain convenience store down the block has been bought out. This would not be a problem (I don't normally shop there, and couldn't care less if they went out of business) if my local meat market wasn't next door, and if said convenience store chain didn't own the whole gorram shopping center. The new owners have told the meat market people that they have until the end of the year to find a new location or shut down, because the convenience store space, which is half the building, is not large enough, and the only direction to expand is into the adjoining store. The only honest part is that there really is only one direction for expansion. They'd be taking chunks out of an apartment block in one other direction, or have to remove their gas pumps in the other. It's either that or move the four-lane road.

Pfft this ended up being another one of my long posts but I can't be bothered to cut it down. I guess summary: overslept, voting, internship, time usage: orgs vs. school, hearing, album art

Overslept so I missed my class today. Oh well, didn't turn out to matter this week anyway. Would be ok if it wasn't for the fact I'm going to miss next week's class as well since I'm leaving town for an event I kinda don't want to attend... oh joy. I've been late to and now missing a lot of these classes, hope my teammates don't think of me as dead weight just yet (kidding, they probably did anyway). Well, whatever. I voted today. I think it went fine, but I was still worrying all the way down the line and out if it actually WAS ok, just like that. Wish I could have double-checked and gotten confirmation, but it doesn't quite work like that in this case lol. I might have an internship lined up, it's not confirmed yet but I have a meeting with the company coming up soon. I don't dare to be too hopeful that it will just work itself out like this, but I'm cautiously optimistic.

There's also a lot of events and stuff lined up. I'm suddenly faced with a responsibility of being active in my organization, posting and hosting events and replying to people. Who'd have thought, actually doing stuff! On the one hand, I feel like there's way too much stuff happening at once, and I can't keep track of it and don't have the time and energy to deal with it. I've been lagging behind all this time, but with this kind of thing I can't exactly call it wasting time.. but I'm still procrastinating in a way. But, I don't know... it's kind of exciting to have things happen too. To not have every day be the same thing. And knowing there's some activity to look forward to beside school and whatever random other stuff I do. It's fun to make stuff happen.

Well, other than that... my hearing seems to be getting worse. Well, either that or my PC speakers are getting worse. I'm playing music at the loudest possible volume from my PC and still think some songs sound low. It's been getting steadily worse. One of my ears was kind of stuffed a few years ago, and it never got any better. I mentioned this to my mom, asking her or my grandparents pay for a doctor appointment... the response was kind of like "oh, ok, yeah we should do something about that" and nothing happened. I can't really expect them to pay for it anymore, but I was still irritated at the indifferent response. I guess I should just pay for it myself... when I can -.-". Also really minor thing, the music player I used has pulled some album data for all my unlabeled songs and I hate the album art it discovered. It's different from the previous, which I didn't like either but eventually grew not to mind. This one I really hate though. It seemingly won't let me remove the album art either. Fun!

I'm writing 3 diaries this semester so.. most of what I could post in this thread will be covered by those I guess.

Aside from being in the hospital in n' out for 2 days, being a dramatic shitty insomniac and having too much shit to do, all is good (ouo)b

My prayers are with those being in the path of Irma/Jose soon and victims of the recent earthquake in Mexico.

I strongly dislike the US care system. I cannot understand how such a nation can be unbothered by their own people. I hope you'll be able to get a check up soon (I am assuming you are American. If you are not, my apologies!)

Oh no, I'm not in the US. Thinking about the kind of money you have to shell out over there, my complaint seems kind of petty. It's nowhere near the same amount. I don't get that either, running healthcare and hospitals as a business almost seems like the kind of thing you'd read about in a dystopian fiction. As for getting an appointment soon, well... I'm not actively considering it, but I think it would be a few months away anyway. Ahh, I hope it just won't pose any problems for now.

Honestly, I'm more annoyed by my family not really caring so much about it. Since they DID pay for me to go to the doctor for something else that I hadn't ever brought up. And that was a blood test for some stuff that I didn't think I had, but they insisted I make sure. Nothing came of it, so I obviously didn't have the thing. There was no particular evidence for that either, though I can very clearly tell I can't hear what people are saying if there's even a small crowd. So, yeah.. I just think it's weird they fussed over something that wasn't ever a problem but seem not to care over something that is.

That sounds so exhausting, going in and out of the hospital over several days. I hope you're doing alright.

The US system is a draw back imo. I'd never leave the confort of Canada to move there. It's like shooting yourself in the foot. I hope you get to see one soon. Can a regular physician check for clogged ear or something?

Yeah, I see that. It seems like a huge risk to take if you're not insured, and even then.. I mean, it's not like you can just avoid getting sick or injured forever, so it has to be considered when moving what the healthcare system is like.

Ah, thank you for that. Well, right now I'm still kind of hoping it will either clear itself up or just won't be a big problem. Yes, I've had the regular doctor or a nurse clear out my ears before, but the last time I did that it didn't change much. So I don't think the problem is earwax. What's likely to happen is I'd get forwarded to an ear doctor, so I figured it's better to just go straight there. I got water in my ear a couple years back. Usually it would eventually clear out, but I don't think it did that time. So that was the start of the problem. idk, I probably made it worse too by using q-tips but it irritates me when I don't use them. (Sorry if the earwax talk was a bit gross).

Avoid q-tips, seriously. They impact the ears more than what we believe. I've used water under the shower and washcloth to clean there. Earwax is very important for your canal (trust me). I've gotten water under my eardrum once and I had to see a doctor. I couldn't hear well and it was kind of hurting. Seriously, don't neglect your health :c

yeah, I've been told they're bad.. maybe I'll try the water and cloth thing, see if that does it. My ears apparently produce an excessive amount of earwax so if I don't clear it out it feels like an itch I can't scratch. Ouch, that sounds painful. I don't know if that's the same thing I've had, I think for me it just went deep into the canal. It's true you can't hear well, and it will particularly hurt when on an airplane. I'm not very good with my health in general ^_^" I'm taking some steps, though.

My brother is in the same situation. We take him to get it removed with water at least once a year (or whenever his hearing has declined) I know that my own hearing has receeded over the years because I'm living in a noisy icty and ... I listen to my music very loudly q___q. But I can still hear pretty good haha. It's your call but consider it c:

Had my first proper day at the internship thing yesterday. It went fine. Though I'm concerned if I've got what it takes to actually complete the project. It's the sort of thing that I could probably get the hang of the skills n knowledge I need if I studied it independently, but I'm notoriously bad at studying on my own at home lol. And too lazy/find it too tiresome to go out and sit at school or something to work. But I guess I'll see how this all goes. Technically my teacher hasn't even approved the project yet since I forgot to send the info in, so.. oops.

Ahh yeah I used to have the same routine, once a year. It was a major revelation the first time. I realized there was a fan in the room I was in and hadn't heard before, and my ears actually hurt once I went outside and realized how loud the traffic was. Same kind of magic when I first got my glasses and realized I could see shit lol. Yeah listening to music w headphones loudly apparently does damage your ears... I don't do it much anymore, I just blare it out of the computer speakers now. It's good you can still hear alright. It sucks not being able to hear what people are saying and thinking they're slighted by that... hhhgh I try to emulate understanding when I don't hear but I still worry people think I don't care or aren't paying attention. : | Ahh the health thing is just how I'm living right now. Maybe it'll change when I'm ready to. Anyway I've stayed clear of q-tips. I guess I'll have to do something else with them since I have a full pack ^_^" I tried the water thing but forgot to put out a wash cloth. Used TP instead, that didn't work very well and also got paper stuck in my ear. That was my fault so I'm not ready to give my verdict on whether this would work for me yet :'P

I have SO MUCH homework due by Sunday night... it's 2 weeks of work condensed into 4 days thanks to hurricane Irma. I'm having to constantly bounce between homework and fun things so I don't lose my mind. XD

- Your post about gender things is fine here. This thread is a place to ramble about your day, and you put a spoiler as a precaution, so it's all good!

I see the vent thread as a more serious thread where you're angry and/or upset about something and want to let your emotions out.

Watched Grave of the Fireflies on Tuesday. Still trying to cheer myself up. Not sure if I have the right to be happy. 9/23: Went to the con. My Doctor costume was so good I actually had a small child walk up to me and ask for help.

big mood atm

But yeah, I'm holding on I guess ¯(ツ)/¯ [Edit] 1/10

Our neighbour broke into our car again to "scare us". They left the light open ... Seriously I'm incredibly tired of this bullshit.

How are you all? :D I've been so busy that I haven't had time to properly be active in this group. But I'm popping back and seeing a lot of new faces so I thought that, as a co-owner and founder of the group at least, I should maybe introduce myself and ask about all of you! Plus, 's event has me intrigued xD

I'm Bug and I'm 22, I'm a coder and that's basically my entire life haha. I also just really like making things in general! I write poetry, and occasionally dabble in arts and crafts, but not that often especially since my job has me SUPER busy nowadays :)

Who's all active in the group nowadays? Come throw your names at me, and idk... just like... say hello, idk how to do the social thing either so don't be afraid. I've been absent for a while so you're gonna have to fill me in a bit ^^

yo im still around sometimes uh, i'm mostly drugged to all hell because sedatives keep me from becoming psychotically violent so im sleeping a lot thus the 'sometimes' that and my memory is complete shit so i forget to check this site

i have no idea what anyone here is doing either aside from far's ball, which is cool

@ bug im still active! just that this past month has been hell so i really fell off the wagon with checking in on this thread or being as active socially on site as i wanted to be & that this week especially is proving to be a big strain on my spoons & my attention.

im very excited about it finally being spooky month though! & also about @ far's ball, & really hoping ill be able to participate.

also, got several pet names ive been eyeballing forever (along with a few being held for me for when i can earn my final millionaire slots), learned a new bit of code im really proud of that turned out to be stupidly simple as a solution in hindsight but had been eluding & thwarting me for ages on getting it correct, & got like 99% of the things id wanted for keelhauliday for myself & my friends in spite of everything going on & super slow mobile. i still need to... send those out.

i was also made a small!mod in # enby to help co-moderate one of the threads! (...which ive been kind of not on the ball for & im hoping to do good on for the upcoming birthday ahh i have a thing planned, universe dont trip me up!!)

off site & not health related: i got a phone! i never owned a phone before. im having a good time literally having everything at my fingertips. its so much lighter & easier to manage than an ipad or netbook or laptop which is important for someone who can hardly hold anything heavier than a pack of tissues & still drops eveything half the time because of body spasms. im looking forward to eventually buying a case with sunflowers on it.

also finally got out of my writers block and managed to wordbarf out some dumb things with encouragement from my roommate. im hoping to shake off the rust in time for nanowrimo which is rapidly approaching. i havent been able to complete one in years because of health but maybe this is the year!! im prepping & warming up & excited for it.

Hi! Well, I'm Atomic, apparently. I actually have a bit of an ongoing name crisis in real life; I've tried out several over the years but nothing really sticks or feels right. I hate my legal name...IRL I try to go by Squid most often but people tend to resist calling a person something goofy like that. So they insist on using my real name and making me cringe every time I hear it, yay. I haven't really been active in this group yet aside from the intro thread and an HA contest or two. I have anxiety issues, on top of being introverted, reserved and just plain weird, so I make pretty lame and off-the-mark efforts to reach out on the rare occasions when I do and thus rarely receive replies to anything. Eh. I'm really trying lately though (well, by my standards). Not sure why...I'm usually pretty content to be ignored but I guess I'd like to try making more friends. At the very least, I'm upping my post count and getting forum points lol.

A little about me: well, I'm a nerd and a geek (they're different! but I'm both); I have weird hobbies that involve collecting obscure and sometimes slightly dangerous or disturbing things; I used to be pretty artsy, but I hadn't drawn anything in a long time (I'm talking years), but just lately I've started getting back into it again (finally feeling inspired by Rick and Morty of all things...drew a kind of badass, stylized Rick yesterday and hope to color him today). I live to learn things. Anything, really. Any day I learn something new feels at least not completely wasted...although most of my days are pretty wasted, believe me. :P I have an unfulfilling but paycheck-providing job and at least it gives me time to read or draw or derp around however I please during the excessive hours I'm forced to be there...while I always envisioned myself doing something more interesting by now, I can't complain too much I guess (besides, what is the point lol). I'm currently taking an online paralegal course but that isn't a career goal for me; I'm just doing it for fun with a friend and I figure I'm learning some good information that could prove useful in the real world.

Well, I'm sure that was enough rambling. I just couldn't pass up your invitation to post yet another awkward introduction of my silly self. XD

Oh, by the way, while I'm here, I kind of wanted to mention that part of why I haven't posted much in this group (in addition to just being an awkward derp) is that I haven't felt like there's an appropriately-casual chat thread. There's a rant thread (which, oh boy, I just don't want to get started) and this "check-in" thread which somehow always felt too formal for me to post in. "Checking in" makes me feel like I'm supposed to stand in line and have a reason and buy a ticket to post haha. Ehh, I'm sure it's really just a me-problem though.

Hehe well... that's fair enough, and totally understandable. This thread really isn't meant to be formal, but I totally get how sometimes the way things are worded can just like... make them feel a certain way? Anyway, I'll respond to everything else (and everyone else) asap! But first, this topic is dedicated to you: ENBY Chat Casual!

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