Not doing well... I'm having a hard time being social right now. Maybe I'll be better in a few days.

- Thank you for pinging the group. I'm subscribed to this thread, but I don't get notifications when posts are edited... only new ones.

During my morning walk , I overheard a guy telling his friends "not all homosexuals are gay". I just started laughing while walking away. What a day. It's like the whole "it's not gay if the dick is cute".

You straight or you not, pal.

I'm here if you need to talk.

- Lol wut. XD

Thank you~ I can be on Discord in about an hour or so to talk.

Comment me when you can get on. I have a few things to do c:

Excellent. Went to see Dunkirk at the local high-end theatre. Good movie, excellent concessions. You can get a cocktail to drink while watching the movie, and they'll put M&Ms in your popcorn. They also sell churros, burgers, and Buffalo wing spring rolls. That and my post got on GoodShowSir.

A game I love playing has really been pissing me off... I have been having the worst luck during the even pt going on right now.... then again my luck has been crappy there for months now. Yet I still love playing the game. I have issues.

On the plus side, Subeta showed me mercy and gave me the experiment I wanted, so there is that.

I've been in a similar situation with a game. I cannot play anymore so at least there is that.

As for today, I'm mildly pissed off (at this point, when am I not angry or pissed?). I need to get a machine that will monitor my heart rate and blood pressure for 24 hours. I've been going thru different places to get the device (that cost me money!) but all of them have their band too small for my arm. So the nurse at my doctor's office called and told me to go to the hospital and write down my name on the list.

But the thing is that I go to college full-time. I have absolutely no opening spaces during my semester. She then told me to wear the device at school ... Dude, it's basically a noisy machine that will strangle my damn arm and it hurts like hell. In a class of 30 people. Every fucking 30 minutes. Ain't no fucking way

I'm so pissed. I don't have high blood pressure. I KNOW I DON'T HAVE IT. I HAVE INTERN ANXIETY. I AM STRESSED FOR 3 MINUTES AND IT GOES AWAY QUICKLY. OFC I will have high blood pressure if I take the stairs, if I walk quickly af not to be late, if I need to answer a question in front of everyone, if I met new people that I hate. I'm fat for christ sake. Of course asking me to do physical stuff will rise my blood pressure. HAaaaaAAA I'm so angry.

My day was alright I suppose. I can't complain, I have been incredibly happy ever since I am more honest to myself. Work was enjoyable today (it usually is) and I just had a cup of my favourite salad, listening to music I love. I keep my fingers crossed for the sick and unhappy ones of you to get better soon!

I don't mean to lower your mood, but it is better to get checked when in doubt of high blood pressure than not getting checked. I was diagnosed with high blood pressure a couple of years ago and it's nothing to wild, I just need to take a pill each day and keep checking my blood pressure every now and then. Never had a problem, but untreated high blood pressure can lead to severe other illnesses. I don't mean to pressure you, but if I'd be you I'd rather be safe than sorry. It is a common thing for obese people to develop high blood pressure at some point.

The reason, why they want you to take a 24 hour check and not just check yourself manually every now and then is to get data that represent you in every state during one day. There are people who have high blood pressure while they sleep and that is quite dangerous. And there is no way of you knowing if you have high blood pressure or not if you don't get it tested.

I am really sorry that it causes you so much anxiety to take that test. Maybe if you explain you can get the device from a hospital close by to wear during a Saturday or a bank holiday or something like that.

However you decide I keep my fingers crossed for you to not suffer from high blood pressure.

I know all there is to know about high blood pressure. I've known the risks for a long time but I also know how doctors are goody two shoes with giving pills as if they were candies (especially to their obese patients). Taking medication for high blood pressure when you don't suffer from it is just as dangerous.

Anxiety and stress can render false the outcome of a test. I don't understand how you can get diagnosed based on a 24 hours checkup if there are 7 days in a week. What if that day, you were very stressed and busy? Of course, my doctor is pushing aside all I'll say but honestly, this test is bullshit. When he checks me in his office, I reach 150. When I'm tested alone in a room, I go down to 125. I'll still take the test when I can but I'll not take medication if the outcome is positive. Well, not right away anyway. @ Orc [Edit] And this test is not causing anxiety - it annoys me and it really hurts. The device is incredibly harmful to the point where my arm turn blue after a long strain. I cannot imagine myself falling asleep with the device as I am a light sleeper. If you add the pain to that, I'm just not looking forward to it.

I do get your points and I am glad you know about all the risks. I am sorry if I came across patronizing, I just didn't read from your previous post that you are educated about high blood pressure. Sorry for the misinterpretation. I agree with you on doctors liking to prescribe things just for the wrong reasons, particularly with overweight people. There are a lot of scientifically proven bogus tests that cost money I do reject myself.

I was at a GP once with a severe bladder infection and all he talked about was dieting and loosing weight. :/

So yeah, I didn't mean to upset you, how I said. I just didn't want you to reject medical treatment without being in the know about risks and stuff.

And I do get you, I hated having to wear that thing and had a really hard time falling asleep at all, even without it causing me pain. But if there are explainable peeks during a day caused by anxiety, stress or special activity a good doctor talks with you about them and cancels them out of the equation. At least that's what happened with me. Also 125 is totally okay ;) (In case the units are globally the same. I don't know.)

I'm not upset, not at all. I am not going to reject the test, obviously. If I were to, he would patronize me (which I find annoying) to take the test, that I'm young and that I shouldn't be playing games with my health/life. That all being said, I'm strongly against medication. High blood pressure? Why not taking care of the source itself before stuffing me full of medicine (but then, that would include a miracle to lose weight). I'm at a standpoint from what I can see. I've never really understood how 24 hours can reflect the reality of high blood pressure.

Taking this test will force me to do it when I don't have school so I can stay up all night (which will increase my blood pressure but hey, a bed is made to sleep and not to lie awake, slowly getting annoyed by the strangling machine). I do have high numbers. I do. Per instance, if I go to my local pharmacy to take a reading, it will say 145-150 (including that I take it straight away after walking + being in public). After 5 minutes, I am doing to 130, after 2 minutes, I'm down to 125. But! There are days when it goes down more slowly. And the more I see the high numbers, the slowly it goes down. I don't know if I make sense.

Today wasn't half bad. Went shopping, watched Abraham Lincoln, Vampire Hunter, which was rather entertaining. I've seen much, much worse movies, although I'm speaking as one who paid good money to see K-Pax in the theatre.

My week consisted of flying back to my apmt from my ""home"" halfway across the country and immediately cleaning part of it before going out places shopping for goods and food. I still have a lot of cleaning to do before this place is decent, Ahh.. It's amazing how I can tell myself that the whole apartment and it's content needs cleaning, and then convince myself that it's alright to only do part of it.. only to have to continue 2 months later! Urgh. Well, otherwise I'm preparing to represent two of my groups during this semester start.. it's funny because one of them has the the board member drive but not outside support to be successful, and the other has plenty of outside support (technically) to be successful but barely any board support.. ugh. Just a mess on both counts.. I guess this tirade is better suited for the rant board. All the while worrying about not being nearly knowledgeable enough for my next semester.. part of which may include an internship .. hahah.... oof.

that's impressive that your pet is so far up the rankings. Also, I wouldn't worry too much about your signature or your pet's leash text, I can't imagine anyone belaboring either of those aspects... unless they were really prickly? In any case, congratulations on being so diligent with your pet.

How did the convention go? And the tattooing? I can relate to family members not understanding or knowing, at least. I'm not sure if that was what was going on with you and them. All I can really say in relation to this.. is that in the end your view and feelings are the most important. And no family should take that away. Ah.. sorry if that is too personal or intrusive.. I can feel the family not getting it, is all. And it's def ok to feel miserable because of them. Well, maybe you knew that already.. ah, anyway, I hope you're alright now and they haven't been causing you grief lately.

I didn't reply to everyone... I don't have much to say to you all that you haven't said already or that hasn't been said by others yet. I'll try to post when I have something interesting to say, or you know... respond to others here.

It's like 8:30 am and I'm just in denial. My college schedule is an absolute nightmare and I pray to kami-sama that I can change it. I just cannot cope with 8 am classes and finish at 6 pm. I just cannot cope with this. I'm !!! a college veteran. I've seen horrors. I don't want to be part of it Q_____Q;; ( no luck with the schedule. i'll keep you updated. take care)

I'm also going to eat out tonight with my father. As usual, I have mixed feelings.

Thank you for your thoughtfulness and all you said in your reply. Even though I don't have the energy to reply to it in detail I DO appreciate your kindness and your attention to detail!

Thank you! I DO love to brag about my pet, which is why updating the text on the leash is so important to me (and Atomic has helped me, as usual!! hooray) . I've spent a fortune of sP on reading books to her (literally billions) so it's fun to be able to announce to everyone on the forums that she's in 15th place. I'm especially jazzed about getting that high on the list considering that I've been playing less than 5 yrs. Most of the pets who are that high on the list are a few yrs older than mine and the most of the users who own them have been playing 9 yrs or more. There's one pet above mine who is a few months younger, though and I'm really impressed with THAT person for being able to find all those books. At this point some of them are nearly impossible to obtain. It's fun though! I wouldn't do it if I weren't having fun.

I can certainly understand wanting to brag about something impressive like this :) Yeah, I also see newer users sometimes being more accomplished than older ones, and find myself in awe. It sounds fun, kind of like collecting items ^_^

My brother is insisting on going to Rocky's Party Pizzeria for his birthday. We were both obsessed with the place as kids, but he's going to be 32, for god's sake! Ah well, at least they have better pizza than Chuck E. Cheese. I guess I can skip the games and just focus on ruining my diet plan.

gosh you having a heck of a time I see. My sympathies about the struggles WRT blood pressure tests, anxiety, & cuffs. I hate them & they always hurt + mark my arm something fierce so that it looks like I have deep bruises & scratch marks all up & down where the cuff squeezed. It breaks the vessels under the skin or something I guess.

& every time it's tested, it's in the hospital or a doctor's office... where I'm at my most stressed...

Ridiculous. B(

This is a very belated grats on your latest pet reading achievement, & to let you know I did get your sMail & I'm slowly pecking away at a reply. Just so you know I'm not ignoring it! Thank you for reaching out to me. <3

As for some sort of update on me, this week isn't really any better than last week, I think. On top of the usual issues I'm dealing with, Florida's weather is in that stage of "turn all my joints & my head" into a wreck. So I keep getting pressure/sinus headaches that often end up as full-blown migraines that knock me out.

Small upsides:

• I got to give my partner his birthday gift early (like, months early) because neither me nor my roommate could wait any longer & we wanted to test it out. It's an old obscure SNES game that I've never heard of but that he's been searching for, for a long time. Our T.V. can hook up to the SNES but the audio's not working so we still have to figure THAT part out but I think it was a successful gift overall & I'm happy. He's not easy to shop for.

• Got to go on an adventure (what we refer to in this household as going out to drive around since none of us goes places much nor gets out often for various reasons). This weekend was Pokemon-hunting for my roommate, who has been struggling to catch the legendary birds before they "retire" on the Pokemon-Go phone thing they participate in. We finally managed to get them to enough successful raids for all the legendaries including their favourite, Zapdos. I'm really happy for them.

We ate out which is rare for all of us for equally various reasons but mostly money & health-related, & I got to try lobster tail which was fun.

• Speaking of, trying lobster tail--much less enjoying it--was a pretty big deal for me! I've been very slowly working on my sensitivities to foods that prevent me from eating a wider variety of things. (For example, I still can't eat tomato-based foods, including pizza with marinara sauces, soups, or even katsup, but I'm getting places at last, anyway!)

Excellent. FINALLY got the equalizer properly adjusted on my media player, and went to Red Lobster for my dad's birthday, because he may not have the best taste in food, but he's not a six-foot toddler like my brother.

That's our infamous "white collar syndrome". I am not denying having a high blood pressure because I just don't know. That being said, I'm merely suspicious of taking medication as if it was candies just because a doctor said so. Thank you for understanding my struggle. I feel less alone :c

I'm about you're getting there in general tho. Keep it up! Hopefully, the weather gets better. It's a hit or miss here :c

Nothing special for me. I was lucky and able to modify my college schedule for my upcoming semester. It's not the best but it will do. Unfortunately, I will have to handle my Mondays and Fridays being terrible in the morning. I take public transit and there is a highschool full of terrible teenagers and they literally cannot understand to remove their bags from their back upon entering to make room AND to go towards the back of the bus. Stop clogging the damn entrance! I need to literally push them aside or cough loudly OR EVEN! stay there and just block the entire place because hey, I'm fat but I won't apologize for your ungrateful ass. I will need to think of a plan.