She always has money issue so that's really not looking good for me. I'm just angry right now because I seriously did not need that. She purchased the washer from someone and yeah ... did not even hold 3 months :x So far, I won't be seeing a doctor. I always have boil and abcess on my skin due to hashimoto thyroid disease. However, I have never experienced one INSIDE this area. I just want to rip it open myself. I'm putting a hot washcloth and soaking in hot water as well as applying antibacterial ointment. If by Tuesday it doesn't seems better, I'm going to get it drained.

Oh and yeah. It's normal to have pain even with the "numbing cream". The area is too swollen and inflammed to do anything. Just draining it is more soothing LMAO. @ Bug

I'd be worn out after carrying all those groceries, too! Were any groceries injured in the fall? I'm sorry you got scraped up. :c Take it easy to recover, if you can!

Instruction of High Incident Disability. It's a graduate course and requires hours in a classroom, so I'm doing those at a summer school program and SHOULD graduate in August. I was supposed to be done in May, but my teacher was bad at communicating and not very helpful.

Ugh I have family coming down for 5 days during the big Canada Day weekend.... as much as I love my family... I have to give up my room to them and there is very little space in this house as is. :( Oh well, will make due, I always do.

Sometimes I just need to rant to make myself feel better. Sorry everyone.

Happy Canada day ;)! Damnit, again? I have a spare bed and I would totally shelter you. Where do you go if you have to surrender your room?

HI! Responding on here xoxo

Wicca is a very different religion, being different for every individual. My version is different from others'; it's what you want it to be! For me, spells aren't really "magical", per say, but rather sending positive vibes to myself. For example, rose petals and rosemary for me is luck and success, which I do before I go to therapy (I have A TON of anxiety with that, severely). I don't necessarily think it'll just make everything great and perfect, but it brings me a sense of peace. I do, however, warship the moon. She is feminine to me personally. The sun is masculine. (This is MY believe! Everyone makes their own choices!) We write in what is known as a Book of Shadows, which I personally use to create my own spells. (We don't follow any given spells, rather than make up what is good for us, having different meanings and such.) I don't perform my spells in a pot or anything, but I perform in the tub. Obviously some people use pots, the ground, etc. Different objects can be used too; runes, rocks, gems, candles, etc. Some people spend a lot of money on their wiccan stuff; I personally find it to be a money trap to do so, since everyone's version of Wicca is different. I use what is available to me personally. I made my runes from rocks I found outside, and used symbols I created to write on them.

There is A LOT to learn, yet once I read up and did my research, I gathered information and just... did it! It's fun and special to me. I worship nature. :)

I need to stop!!! ordering!! merch!! ( if you see this you will understand hahaha ... ha /sobs)

Today is a productive day. Cleaned my room + arranged some stuff. I finally put all my keychains on my corkboard and switched my anime figures so they look better (it felt odd how I had them placed) I also got a haircut on Friday and it's both weird and nice to see myself with shorter hair (a bit below shoulder length). I used to have them almost over the boobs, my god q_____q (I do that by sheer lazyness) Also, somehow, it's July and I haven't gone swimming ONCE nor worked out. I'm thirsty. I need to do something about it.

(Hope everyone had an okayest/good day)

I am having a good day. I also have to wait for a book to come in so reading another until it arrives. Weather is all over the place here but it is bearable. Hope you all are having a good day and staying safe.

Good. Craving carbs, but I can handle that.

Nothing much going on but life has been decent. I am back in a writing rut again and it hurts me deeply. Not to mention I miss my best friend... they've been working all week and it feels like forever since we last chatted.

So... hides ever go on a date but not know if it's a date lol ^^;

Yeah so I met someone at Pride! It was both our first time and we met at the end and talked and went with our friends to the after party and omg we were so both dorks and nervous and both dealing with anxiety lol and yet thanks to my many years of therapy we exchanged numbers and I stopped by their job and we had lunch on their break which ya know was all pretty low key and yet dorkishly awkward. Well yesterday we had just about the longest date ever but I'm still not sure about if it was a date ^^; is that dumb? I mean I asked them and I think we click but we have so much in common that idk if they just like me as friend and I'm asexual and they believe they are too so that's not likely to garner any difference. Part of me thinks, stop worrying about it and just let it be but the other part of me is like ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Like >.> I haven't been in this situation in uhhh like 20 years x.x not offline anyway lol what if I mess up x.x so freaked out.

My relationship with my girlfriend started like that, actually haha. We liked each other, and we knew we liked each other, but sometimes I wasn't sure if we were hanging out or on a date. It worked itself out eventually, haha. I think letting it keep going like it is for a little while as you get to know each other is good, and you can clarify things once you know each other better? I think my girlfriend and I were sort of dating for 2 months before we decided we were dating.

Yeah x3 it was like shocking how we had that first meeting click! But I'd be totally happy if we could be friends! I just feel like I would be totally unhappy if we weren't. There's so much we can do together!!! Yeah, worrying about it just tends to mess things up and make them complicated when they aren't. So much fun though just hanging ^^

This week has totally killed me. I've been dealing with new physical disability for a bit over 2 years now (if you could still call that new..) in which there's a lot going on but mainly I typically always have some level of full body pain but problems with my feet and legs are the big baddies. I end up in an increasing amount of pain and stiffness the longer I am up on my feet (standing or walking, doesn't matter which).

But I just started working again (also for the first time in 2 years, since I had to quit before) and this week and next week I've been doing training which has me in there currently more than I'll actually be working afterwards. My legs are goo and I can't wait for next week to be over! Next week I believe it's three 5 hour days in a row. This week it was two in a row that I was out on the floor and I barely survived. So if I'm never active again after this post.. LOL. 😰

(Side note, I wonder if there's anyone else in here who has or is dealing with physical disability/chronic illness? Would especially love to meet you!)

I totally understand the chronic pain. Mine is at the other end of my body. It's like a tumor voice changes but not a tumah! But since it's basically untreatable it's always pressing on my brain and spine ('it' being namely my cerebral spinal fluid). I haven't been in work in three years and now I want to get back but I don't think any employer would want one any I couldn't do my old jobs. Being anything for too long becomes a battle with the body to stay up. Like apparently I moan in my sleep ? And don't sleep very well anyway. Ever get stupid questions like, if you could trade your illness for so any so illness, would you? No, I'd trade to be healthy cuz then I could do whatever I wanted without restrictions.

I'm sorry you've got this heavy trial and I hope you can get through it. I'd just basically say rest as much as possible and prep anything that you can use to help you get through it (aromatherapy/ice/heat/etc). You can get through this. I believe in you!

Oof, the past week has been a doozy! I went to my convention and had an amazing time, but of course my chronophobia and depression are going to make this hard as ever. I've been pretty depressed about it and about having to wait another year for it to come back, plus I've got a friend who is going to college out of state so it's gonna be hard.

Other than that, I've been okay! I've started an ita bag and have ordered rhinestones and lace to decorate it with! it will be JJBA centric, and I'm excited to be able to put my own personal touches on it.

I have intercostal nevralgia thumbs up. Waking up everyday with a sore neck and back pain. I have also shock in my left leg due to restless leg syndrom. I have no help to offer but support :c

Hello, I'm another enby here that deals with chronic illnesses!

I'd call it new if you want, sure! No reason not to if it still feels new to you.

The things you describe are a bit painfully (ha ha) familiar to me, too. My feet & legs are some of the worst parts, too. Anything from feet swelling to all-over stiffness to knees or hips trying to dislocate on me. The longer I'm up & not reclining or sitting, the worse it gets. Like you said, there's of course more (there always is, it feels like, with these things), but I definitely feel you on those points.

My sincere sympathies for your pain, & I hope that you make it through your training with the least amount of it.

Similar comments for you, as well: I relate to these things you talk about WRT health even if they aren't exactly like my own issues. Also, even if it's not officially a tumour, that still sounds very difficult to deal with.

I laughed really hard at "It's not a tumah!" I read it exactly in his voice in my head. B)

As for the "ever gone on a date without knowing if it's a date"? I'm afraid I can't comment specifically as having ever done that. I've never officially "dated" anyone or gone on dates, since I've had exactly 2 partners in my life: 1 was long distance while I was a teenager (for roughly 5 years until he broke things off), & then 1 who is my current partner (which has been about 12 years now I think). We met through a mutual friend, also long-distance, which turned into a not-so-long-distance when I moved to his state.

However! I don't think it's dumb at all to not know. I have a hard time very often with reading what's going on when it comes to people, myself. Relationships are ridiculous & so are feelings. Heck, people can be ridiculous.

I'm really happy to hear ya'll are hitting things off so nicely, & it sounds like they genuinely enjoy your company, regardless. I agree with the "stop worrying about things & let it happen" but I also know how hard that is to actually... practise that in reality, lol.

Good luck with this person & enjoy yourself as much as you can.

I have chronic pain as well. I was (finally) diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome--hypermobile joints when I was 37. I lived for decades before that with pain, fighting to keep going (and always being treated dismissively by doctors, employers, family and friends). I am much older now. I stopped working and applied for disability when I was diagnosed. At that point I could not keep going. Sometimes I wish I had tried to push myself longer, but the emotional and psychological effects of living in chronic pain multiplied my need to stop working.

I support anyone who wants to try to get disability and I also support those people who are trying to continue to have a more active life. There are no right answers, it's very individual. We all do what we need to do to survive, and hopefully each of us has people in our lives who love us and support us, no matter what.

Thank you for posting and for asking for support. You have mine, and you (and anyone else) can write me anytime. I am slow to respond. I admit that I sometimes get overwhelmed by my own issues and I end up not replying. It's not that I don't care. I am OLD, no kidding! I have to say, though, if I were not dealing with the issues of my illness I wouldn't think I'm old, because nowadays older people who are healthy are much more alive and vibrant (and pretty "hip"). I'm a child of the 60's, and a liberal one, lol!!!

fibromyalgia, fused vertebrae in my spine, and my hips and wrists are screwed up past that but fuck if anyone knows in what way 'everything constantly hurts all the time' is basically the diagnosis here, plus inability to really stand/walk well and can't use my wrists/hands without metal braces

there's so fuckin many of us that are nb and have chronic pain here it's pretty great actually surprise chronic pain club lmaooo

good fucking luck working though that sounds like hell try not to Actually die

I'm back today because I'm really happy.

With the advent of my most recent disaster of a hospital stay, & the subsequent paper proof (after 15 years of frustrations & ignorance & suffering)...

Well, I just want to formally say to all my previous doctors:

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(Note: We aren't who came up with the idea of diagnosis cakes, but we sure as heck are running with it. The person I first saw mention them among chronic illness communities was from here: here.)