Congrats on the Presidents list, that's awesome Kat!!

What a dumb puppy, but hopefully she didn't eat it! Can you call and tell the manufacturer that you're missing a screw?

I probably could about the screw, but I could probably also just find one that fits floating around the house or at a store, and get it faster. Considering I usually only use ONE chair at any given time, I'm not too worried about it :P

And thanks! I got an email about it I think in June, but had to share when I actually got a certificate. I guess the Presidents List is better than the Deans list? Or the same? I have no idea LOL

I think it depends on what school you're at? Or maybe it's a better one?! I have no clue tbh :P

Yesterday had to bring Lily to her med check, then to the occupational therapist.. and marching band :P Today I went to work, then I'll drop Lily off at work and take Iz to the eye doctor.. have to pick Lily back up again though :/

I made an eye dr apt for tomorrow afternoon. Going to tell them I want plain lenses, NO EXTRAS. NO BIFOCALS. I don't care if they think I need them. I just could NOT wear the last pair I got that was bifocal and blue light for computer. Just whatever my basic prescription is. I will make the screen bigger or whatever I need when I am reading instead of bifocals.

Also, apparently I get told wrong information all the time. I was under the impression her family was coming FRIDAY and staying at Jackson Lake. Apparently they are coming WEDNESDAY and staying somewhere out in Eatonton. Well guess what? I sure as hell am not driving to Eatonton to meet her mom. Sorry, not sorry. Thats like over an hour!! However, as I said, they're also supposed to be moving out this weekend, although they want me to keep the dog part of next week while she stays with her dad at the hotel he is staying at, as he is staying longer. FINE by me. I can keep the dog and you can leave :P I guess the dog is going with them while she stays with her mom/at the apartment or whatever tho. I will be moving your crap from my room (not a lot, but like a microwave, an extra tv - stuff that could be damaged so it was in MY room to not take up space or go into the attic) and I'll be putting it on your bed for you to take with you when you pack stuff up.

[edit] I knew it I knew it. So I ordered the ONE book that showed up Monday. It came yesterday (so that was fast at least). But I checked this morning (and was going to check tomorrow but now I don't need to) and TWO more books have been added. Why didn't I just wait? :P

Bifocals sound really hard to wear tbh. I don't think that I could do it!

Ugh that sounds so annoying.. but yes, I'd rather have the puppy than the grown ass adult, too! :P

And UGH that ALSO sounds so annoying! And why are they added so late?!

Well the eye Dr said I really need bifocals. And that I need to wear them for at least two weeks or longer to adjust to them. So I am going to try lined ones instead of no line. And if I don't like them I'm just going to get a pair of straight lenses only. And debate on the second pair for reading which is what the sales lady suggested when I told her I was leery of the bifocals even tho the Dr said I should get them.

And yes I'm annoyed the books were added so late but I am assuming it's due to the class change from what looks like blended to online only. But that's a dumb reason because I'm pretty sure it's the same books? Whatever eyeroll

And the weird grown ass woman came to my house today because she is still waiting on a package that was supposed to arrive the 5th and hasn't and I'm sorry but why the hell are you driving an hour and a half ONE WAY to check the mail? I will tell you if your package comes and if you NEED it that damn bad you can come get it then and not waste time or gas. And none of her family was with her? I mean wth? If I flew thousands of miles to visit and my family said oh I have to take a 3hr drive to check the mail id go along with them!!!! And visit in the car!!! Especially if I wanted to meet the person that family member was staying with (which supposedly her mom wanted to meet me...so why didn't she come along?) Again. Whatever!!! Her choice I guess. Of course I'm not sure where her dad is staying so maybe she'd driven closer to visit him and just popped over here. I know it's mom and sisters at the lake house and dad at a hotel but I don't know where his hotel is edit: mmm nope. that benefit of teh doubt idea is busted. Dad just posted online that he is in lake sinclair (eatonton). Sooooo maybe he's staying at the lake house with them until they leave and THEN getting a hotel? I dunno. But he is out there now. So. WEIRD PEOPLE is all I can say.

OK seriously, she's a whackadoodle. WTF.

Plus.. why doesn't she just check the tracking number?!?!

- I don't know if she has one? I have no idea what type of package it is, but she's expecting it in the regular mail. (doesn't mean it doesn't have a tracking number, but I have no idea if it does).

Shane sounded SO SAD last night when he called, he called to ask me what I was doing this weekend, he goes "I know you do your shopping on saturday, in the morning but then what are you doing?" and I was all like... "well I don't know. I did not expect them to be staying so far away ... " because I knew he was asking if I was going to come to the lake house to visit and then he was " ok. well I am getting off now" in a sad voice, and said bye and hung up.

I mean, I get he wants support from me (I usually give it) as he's meeting (and hanging out with) new people and all - but they're doing their "memorial" Saturday, they did invite me (and Nathan who I know won't go) down to the lake house to visit as well - but that is a LONG DRIVE and expensive gas wise for me (hour and a half!! ONE WAY! FULL tank of gas used or nearly!) So 1. I don't really want to spend the time or money to drive there and 2. I do NOT want to be stuck there while they're doing a memorial for an infant that I don't believe even was stillborn (I won't say didn't exist because there IS the chance she did at one point, but was miscarried early or something - I just cannot believe she was stillborn on July 25th, sorry. Nope. NOPE!) and I don't know if I'd be able to cause a scene and just up and leave when it started... I may call him in just a bit and suggest if they want to meet in Jackson for dinner or lunch at Fresh Air BBQ I could do that but I can't see spending the time/gas to go all the way out to Eatonton. And hope he has the sense to understand I do not want to be at a fake (to me) memorial. EDIT: 625 - ok I called him. I feel a bit better now. He said he wasn't sad, he was just tired, sore and worn out from work. He took Ryans truck and did Ryans run this week, which is something totally different to him and a bit more activity than he is used to. I did suggest that if they were going to go to Fresh Air (or anywhere else nearer - I don't think there is any other place that direction tho unless its also way out of the way!) that I could come meet them, but I just couldn't see going to Eatonton. So he said he'd bring it up with Anna, me joining them as they had discussed taking her family there anyway already. :)

[edit] 415 Ok guys. This is going to be a WEIRD semester of college. Or at least a weird 8 weeks. I was able to get into and look at my first two classes (but not the practicum yet) and GUYS! There is 5 people (including me) in the Wednesday class and 6 in the Monday class. ALL THE PEOPLE are the same, except that 6th person. WEIRD! Such a small class!!! Maybe more people will be added later? I recognized at least 2 names, possibly 3 from my spring classes. I know some of the others were able to do the summer classes (people from my spring classes) so I guess thats why they aren't in them this fall. But you would think there would be more people taking the classes?

hmmm IDK, but it'd be nice if they were such small classes, I'm sure!

Do they.. do they have.. remains, for the memorial? Because if she was actually stillborn, they'd have.. there'd be. JFC why is this so difficult. There'd be a coffin or cremains. So then it would really be a little funeral, and it'd be awful to miss that? :(

Edit: You've earned the I understand that reference! achievement!

You've earned the Snuggle Monster achievement!

I went achievement hunting last night a bit. Last two book achievements I needed, except the last tier of the reading one!

No. Nothing. Because on the paperwork she has, she chose "hospital disposition" rather than burial or cremation. The paperwork that has so many errors. That I found blank copies of available online that you can print and even fill out first if you have Adobe. (How the frick you can do that- choose hospital disposition w/o both parents agreement either eh?) Also if I read stuff right, just Google tho, ga law says stillborn child has to be buried or cremated (in a place chosen by the parents), so how does hospital disposition work in that case? No idea but another reason for me to think bullshit

Oh and she blew off Shane on me coming to fresh air BBQ with the excuse that her nephew, who came along with one of her sisters, has "swallowing difficulties so they don't want him to be in the car too much". This..made me go huh? Because he was fine on an airplane for 2-5 hrs(plus layover time in an airport I think as they left "early" but didn't get here til afternoon?), he was fine in the car from Atlanta to eatonton (2-4 hrs). But he can't drive 45m-1hr to go get dinner? Oh and this kid also has recently flown from Arizona to New Hampshire (and back) and spent weeks GOING places with mom/brothers and grandpa such as the race track, the beach and parks? But can't be driven somewhere for dinner? And if you were already thinking of having that for dinner anyway, how is me joining you there to meet everyone have anything to do with that anyway???

As for the classes I'm not sure smaller will be nicer. Maybe in some ways. But, like, less available discussion posts or choices. Fewer people to respond to. Maybe harder because if they are all last minute people I am not staying up til midnight to respond you know? I can't!

Congrats on the achievements!!

[edit] Morning all AAAAHHHHHH WTH is up with my college? I am about tired of this, and I seriously hope it does NOT continue thru the next two years. So, I got an email last night (didn't really read/understand it til this morning). On it, my tuition has changed!! WHY? I am registered for the exact same classes, the same number of classes, as I was when I got my first statement. WHY would tuition change? So now it looks like I need just about ALL of the student loan that I worked so hard to figure out how to change to reduce the amount as I was told I would have a refund, and I was trying to avoid that. Yes confusing, sorry. So, I emailed my financial aid person again today. sigh Asking them to disregard the loan adjustment forms I sent because NOW with this additional tuition I need almost all the student loan amount. I don't want a $1500 refund, but I am ok with anything under $500, why change it for that little, but over a thousand I'd rather have less loans! ARGH.

For exact differences - there is an additional tuition charge, an additional (small) book charge, they removed one fee and added a bigger one. I mean really? WHY? It's the same exact schedule of classes! What if I'd ended up owing money? I mean, you expect me to come up with money on the spot before the first day of classes when you change my amounts the Friday before classes start?? CRAZY! I'm glad I don't owe money but now I'm back to changing the student loan crap. I dunno. Maybe next semester I'll just accept everything as it is and if I get refunds I get refunds so I don't have to deal with nonsense if things change. Just means I'll owe more in loans than I'd prefer but either way I'm not going to be owing hundreds of thousands or anything like that (max should be 15k, 3k per semester)

That.. all.. sounds absolutely ridiculous. Her and all her lies.. because.. yeah, how could you do that to your child?

Kat, can't you just pay the extra back in loans when you get the refund? like, make an extra payment, etc?

Probably. But it would be one more thing I'd have to figure out how to do :P

Haha. Still, that sounds easier than anything else :P

We were supposed to go to the orchard today for Matts birthday but it's going to rain all day. :(

Maybe. I didn't even sign into the loan account that got set up last semester at all. I think I really should this semester hahah so I can try to figure things out with it and how it works. Hmm I just realized I don't know if I need to go sign a master promissory note this semseter like I did last semester? I didn't get an email or notice saying to do so...maybe the one from last semester works still? I dunno...something else to check into I guess. - EDIT - I checked the FAFSA site, I'm good. It should all go under the one signing.

Although I really don't have extra $ (except when I get those refunds) to make any payments right now anyway.

Sure hope I get a good enough raise when I become a teacher to be able to do whatever payments are required. I KNOW I will be looking into the grant/program whatever it was I was told about before I started college - about how if I work for a title 1 school for 5 yrs, then 80% of my student loans will be paid by it. I'll have to go talk to RESA when I'm closer to getting my bachelors.

Aww. Its looking cloudy/rainy here too but who knows what will happen. Hopefully Matt will have a good birthday even if ya'll dont go to the orchard!

And yah - I don't get it at ALL what she's done (or said she's done). Because if that had been me - I would not have made any decisions on my own, my husband would have made those WITH me. I would have held and looked at my child, and taken pictures and allowed family members to come and hold the child if they wanted, etc. She didn't. She says she didn't even want to look at her baby because the baby was too small and discolored. And that was in a text. I don't think she's every really mentioned anything about that day IN PERSON other than "I killed my baby" (which she also said in text, because she said the baby was too small because it was not getting enough nutrients/placental deficiency or something and her body was "attacking it") - paperwork says baby was stillborn at 6 lb 12oz. Text says baby was "less than 5lbs" its just more reason to NOT believe it happened like she said. Argh. I just get so annoyed thinking of all the lies. They can't be anything BUT lies with the discrepancies between what she said, what happened that day (that I experienced) and what the papers say. I know I haven't shared ALL the details here like the stuff I just mentioned (did I already share that stuff? Can't remember). But ARGH. So frustrating. And sad. And and.. and everything. Ugh.

[Edit] 150pm Just got back from Jackson. So apparently everyone was waiting on them to get back to....guess where? Fresh air. So they could eat. But no way cuz that kid can't drive that far right? Hahahah. I seriously think it's more of a Anna doesn't want me to meet her family thing. Her mom was with her tho so I did meet mom. I can only hope Shane sees the hypocrisy of that excuse. Even tho HE didn't step up and ask me to join them either

That... is all really a disaster. And, even if SHE didn't want to see the baby, she wouldn't offer that chance to Shane, at least?!

Also.. D was 2 pounds something when she was born, came home from the hospital at 4 pounds something. Akira was 3 pounds something, 4 pounds something when she came home. They were both born earlier than this baby...

I'm glad you got to go, at least! And Shane.. IDK, but he's married to her now so. :(

ANYWAY. Today is the CPR(+) class that I organized and I'm honestly legit concerned that I'm going to throw up .. she said we're making our own blood clots for hte stop the bleed part and like.. I AM LEGIT CONCERNED for my wellbeing and that of everyone around me.

I only went to Jackson to give him his mail and pick up the rent money. I was not invited and I did not go to fresh air for lunch.

I only brought up the weights because they didn't match (the text vs the paper). When Shane was born, a premature baby was born after him and I caught a glimpse of it when I tried to visit him in the nursery...so teeny. I was awed even by that glimpse. But yeah. No one, not even her, "saw" the baby. This baby was supposedly 41 weeks. And I could go into so many more details that show such huge "doubt it's real" thoughts on just about everything that happened especially that day. To be honest. I think after they move out, so that I don't cause drama while they are here, I might go to the hospital and ask how to get birth/death certificates for a stillborn baby, as Georgia law codes say a grandparent can request them. Then I will know for fact if there was a baby born ... Or not ... (If no record is recorded which is what I think will happen) And I will have peace of mind knowing.

Making your own blood clots? Weird. I'll need to renew my CPR training by February but I don't remember going into that type of detail for any of my stuff when I got it. I haven't done a stop the bleed tho, just the basic cpr

Oooh. That's a good idea.. and then you'll know for sure. Well... you'll probably know for sure!

Yeah, you use the special thing and put it into the wound, then you pack the wound (we used lap pads), then you put pressure on them for a minute, then they saw who had the biggest blood clot. Except the EMT had to take over finishing packing mine (he used it as an example) after he looked at my face LOL. The rest was good, though! And I was surprisingly good at CPR?

I don't really know how I'd handle a seriously bleeding wound. After I took my CPR class I had a horrible nightmare about one of my kids in the class, who fell into the ditch behind the school (there isn't one there by the way! LOL) and had a limb poking all the way through his leg and I was having to apply a tourquinet and I did well in my dream, but I woke up panicking. I was so happy to see that child arrive at school completely unharmed, even tho I knew it had been a nightmare. Gotta love when your face gives you away. - I also remember in high school, my biology teacher, when we got to the dissection of a frog section of class, insisted that NO ONE would be allowed to leave class, EVERYONE had to participate. no ifs ands or butts. I paired up with a friend, who promised me he would dissect, and I could write down stuff... and then the teacher came to ME and asked if I wanted to go to the library and write a report instead. You bet your hiney I high-tailed it out of there to the library!! LOL I must have been pale white or green!!!

I think I will know for sure. No probably about it. I mean, if there are no records, because she is claiming there is (that is what her paperwork -with all the errors - was for)....well that shows she lied about birthing a stillborn baby that day. If a doctor delivered a stillborn baby, they HAVE to file a record for it, according to GA law codes.

-(a) A report of spontaneous fetal death for each spontaneous fetal death which occurs in this state shall be filed with the local registrar of the county in which the delivery occurred within 72 hours after such delivery in accordance with this Code section unless the place of fetal death is unknown, -(b) The medical certification portion of the fetal death report shall be completed and signed within 48 hours after delivery by the physician in attendance at or after delivery except when inquiry or investigation is required by Article 2 of Chapter 16 of Title 45, the "Georgia Death Investigation Act." and (a) For any stillborn child in this state, the State Office of Vital Records shall, within 60 days of a request by a parent named on a fetal death certificate or other eligible person as provided for in subsection (h) of this Code section, issue a certificate of birth resulting in stillbirth. (b) The person who is required to file a fetal death certificate under Code Section 31-10-18 shall advise the parent (how to get the certificate of birth resulting in stillbirth) - and (h) Those individuals who are entitled to request a certificate of birth resulting in stillbirth are: (1) Either parent of the stillborn child listed on the vital record; (2) A grandparent of the stillborn child;

I only don't know if I will be required to have the fetal death certificate (which is the papers -with the errors - she has that I believe are FAKE/printed off the internet) to ask for the other record or not. Or if I can just give the information I have (mother/father, date of birth, name of child, etc) to whoever and ask for it.

[edit] AH! I see now. It didn't look like they changed anything, when I looked at my schedule, but now that my CLASSES are all up, I see that my practicum class is different. It is FULL TERM (not the 8 weeks listed on my schedule) AND is B-K and not B-2 like is listed on my schedule. BUT STILL - I don't know why they changed that because that class has been on my schedule like that since I registered for Mercer last year :/ Hmm and I just realized THAT full term practicum is on my schedule for SPRING semester. I emailed my advisor since the class changed to see why, and how it will affect spring.

and as per usual at the beginning, i feel out of my depth for my classes hahahaha but i will adjust.

Hopefully I'll never know what to do but.. it does make me feel better!

I'm often really nervous about being in crowded places anymore.. even the grocery store. Actually, the first thing Kathy asked when she started our class was where the exits were, and I immediately pointed out 4 LOL. She was like "Oh. Well, good for you, you're prepared!" and then pointed out that everyone should know at least two exit routes wherever they are. We also learned that you can use a dirty gym sock off someones foot to stop the bleeding if you need, bleeding out is worse than a possible infection they can deal with in the hospital.. which was actually super helpful?!

Ooooh well, that IS good. No probably about it!

Eew dirty socks. But yea. Better an infection than bleeding out!!!

Shane told me the cat puked in my bedroom. And he was in too much of a hurry to clean it up when he saw it. Got to love my kids. Don't know why he was even in there because I put the microwave he wanted out in the living room anyway :/

EDIT: Yep. Love my advisor. "Please check and see if you took any fall classes during the summer and I will check when I get to the office." Then nothing since 750am. UM LADY? I TOLD YOU IN THE SPRING I WAS NOT TAKING SUMMER CLASSES!! (when I was trying to sign up for the field placement and was confused what to do because it was trying to sign me up for summer!!) And why would i need to "check" ? I think I would KNOW if I did!! :P Eyeroll I replied and told her I did not take any classes during the summer. Waiting to see what she says. This by the way guys - is my teacher for tonight also. sigh