oh i wish he would... But won't keep my hopes up.

He goes just to far he won't get in jail or evicted... if he did push me off the stairs last week i bet he was out of there asap!

I did call a security company for an estimate for camera's, etc. Wow pricey!!!! Not doing that. Mailed the rental agency and asking them with all the trouble he is causing if i can't get a ring door bell... Let's hope i will get that

- omg, you didn't! roflmao You did! 😆 Now, now, claws in my dear! :* Running off to read. :D

- It's a shame the cameras are too pricey. I'll keep my fingers crossed that you get a ring doorbell. That would be a help. Now, I'm laughing at Kysnier's suggestion but I'm not actually wishing harm come to the guy. I just want him to leave you alone, to crawl back under his rock and become harmless. :D

- How's your brother, hon? How are you doing? Hugs ❤

Yes! Snicker I have a few ideas. Aww but have to agree reluctantly with EvilRedDuckie... Thanks for the huggles. <3

Such BS! Even if the cameras are pricey, they might be worth it if they record and you have proof against the (insert colorful metaphor) to show the police. But of course we don't want you having to get hurt before being able to file charges! I'm confused. What is a ring doorbell? And why would it help?

Not good. We got him off the ventilator and out of the restraints, and he recognized his stepdaughter and they were able to talk a bit. I was so glad for that because I was certain my brother was completely gone. It was a nice surprise. Cory and I had already left by then. I wanted to see it, but the timing was off.

The stroke was a big bleed on the right side that affected his left side. He had moved his left foot that first night, but not again. They have decided he is paralyzed on the left side, including his mouth, throat, neck, shoulder, arm, and leg. It's possible that some organs are affected, although they don't know yet. A lot of the right side of his brain, including a huge amount of the frontal and parietal lobes, is dead. He can see mostly, but is having hallucinations mixed in with the reality of us. The therapists are working with him, and are noting some improvement, so there is a glimmer of hope that he will be with us for a bit. And I will take whatever we can get.

But Idk what that will entail. He failed the swallow test today, and they are going to try again on Monday. His blood pressure skyrocketed to 245 yesterday and overnight. They tried several different meds to lower it, but only one worked. The doctor did say today that he might be able to leave the ICU and go into a private room this weekend, but who knows. So much is wrong. It's horrible to see him like this.

Aw :(

retracts claws

Honestly the past two chapters were hard to write due to the content. And the next chapter isn't any easier xD

y'all i completely blanked on Subeta this entire month because I've had a LOT of IRL stuff going ona nd I just realized I missed all of Neugarten?? and bird watching?!?! Noooo ;;_;;

- I'm not going to blow smoke up your rear, your brother sounds bad. But, never fear - the brain is a wonderful organ! It can heal from just about everything. I say this as a bilateral stroke survivor. Don't give up on his being able to move his left side, insist that pt work with him. He may surprise you. I'm sorry you have to deal with this so soon after your father's passing. It cann't be easy for any of your family right now. Just talk to your brother, remind him of the good times and maybe even some of the bad if it helps him reform the neural pathways he needs to reform. I know that after my stroke I had a lot of hallucinatioins but I could hear my hubby and son through them and latched onto that. Oh, and it took about a month after my stroke before I could even swallow enough to try the swallow test. It's good he's off the vent, too. Now he can try to talk back. Sorry this is so scattered, I'm just typing as ideas come to me. I'm sending many good, healthy, strengthening vibes your way. Hugs ❤ :*

- The sentiment is welcome but no harm, remember. ;) I know this chapter had to be difficult, I could tell in your writing. It was graphicly violent and made me laugh that you must have cut a swath through those boogers and had fun doing it. I completely understand how the character is feeling, I have no idea what I'd doif someone set a trap like that for my hubby. I'd be incandecent with ratge, that's for sure. You'll do wonderfully with the next chapter. Just let your fingers do the writing. ;) :D

Hey, life takes our attention away from this site. Nothing to be ashamed of :)

Yeah yeah. No harm.

While I get sad while writing, I don't tend to cry.

I don't make sure the music I pick matches the tone of what I'm writing. So I am sometimes jamming away to Taylor Swift while writing some pretty tragic scenes XD

Thanks for the support :)

- You know, I've never listened to Taylor Swift. Is she worth the hype? :P Hugs You're worth iit, hon. ❤

- waves hi How have you been? :D

Taylor Swift is my happy space. If I am ever binging her then I'm not in a good headspace xD

- So, what songs should I start with if I decide to listen to her? :D

Thanks so much for saying that. But he is on hospice and they've said 2 days to 2 weeks is likely all he has. Doctors have been wrong before I know but he is suffering and I want it to stop. I keep breaking down. Esp over little things. My last message to him was, "We have spaghetti, drop by after work and get some." Last night I emptied the dish washer and just cried and cried over the plastic glass he liked to use when he came over. The little German Shepherd plushie I gave him that I found on his shelf. The funny card we gave him for his last birthday that he saved in a drawer. He's never going to ring the doorbell and call out, "Hello!" as he comes in anymore... It's just so damned wrong on so many levels. My heart is broken. Again.

- My heart is broken for you. :''(( Think of the good memories, talk to him about them when you visit. I guarantee you that he can hear you. He may not respond but he is in there. I wish I could take this from you. Many hugs and much love ❤ :''(((I'm here if you need a shoulder. )

Teardrops on My Guitar, Should've Said No, Forever & Always, and Exile.

Really hard for me to pick any specific songs xD

i want him harmed and gone. So farno answer about the ring door bell... I did contact a company that works in my neighbour hood, hoping they can install it, tey work with people with special needs or have a hard time. So good work but for a nice price, i hope. They need to contact me back. And if i am not getting the doorbell from them i am buying one

i just read back, how horrible a stroke and he is so bad. I am glad he is in hospice and no one can say how long it will take. His heart and head keeps him here as long as he wants to

- I will just let Amazon Music shuffle her sons then. Probably about time I listened to her since she's as big (or bigger then) Madonna was in my teen years. ;)

- I wonder what's keeping them from agreeing on the ring doorbell. It's good that you found a good company to work with in its installation. I hope you hear from your leasing company soon about it. :D

Hey All.....

I havent checked in here lately. I hope all are well :-)

Toodles....

Oh I am so sorry. Hugs.

I have been having high pain levels and am starting physical therapy again tomorrow. My whole left side is painful. We did ct and X-rays and all looks good. Just life with chronic pain.

Made peanut butter cookies yesterday. They are good. We tried a new peanut butter and it was fluffy and sweet and works better for cookies. We like our peanut butter more peanutty than sweet.

Yeah, just put her on shuffle =D

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So Friday or Saturday my dad fell in his walk in closet. He wasn't found until early Monday morning. He's currently in the hospital (just visited him today) and there are plans for him to be in physical therapy for two weeks to make sure he can live alone. Turns out this isn't the first fall he has had recently.

They don't know why he fell at the moment.

I hate him but I feel sad for him at the same time. He's really lucky he didn't fall on anything and only has a minor bruise on his leg. His entire house is tiled.

- waves back I hope you're doing well. :D

- I hear you about the chronic pain. I hope the pt works for you. Oh, peanut butter cookies sound yummy. We like ours with bits of peanut in them so we use chunky peanut butter. :D

- I put her on shuffle last night. I now understand why so many people like her. :) Sorry to hear about your dad. He really did get lucky. Any reason why he couldn't get back up after the fall? I understand your mixed feelings, also. I felt that way about my step-dad for the longest time. :D

Yeah, she is good =D

I don't know why he couldn't get up or why he fell in the first place. It didn't seem like he could recall the passage of time and only thought he was struggling for a short time. He's 77 and his father suffered from Alzheimer's. That's the only thing I can think of.

The hospital nor dad has contacted me today.

I got another chapter out. It was delayed a day as Monday was chaotic and I didn't know what was going to happen. Originally Monday me and hubby were going to hang out with a friend. Which we were supposed to do Sunday BUT my period got bad so I didn't want to go out.