- I'm here. Subeta's honestly not really drawing my attention recently. Then again, nothing really is. I'm kind of in a funk. I'm sick again, still working my butt off with summer camp (because I love torturing myself), and just generally disinterested in anything. I'm hoping the quest-a-thon helps. Like , there are so many items that I want, but don't have the points for. Then when I think about how many points I need, I get overwhelmed and don't do anything about it. It's a vicious cycle, and one I am trying to get out of, but it's challenging.

I do understand that funk. I feel it a lot too. I do think it would help if we talked to each other more, though! "Seeing" friends can be very motivating for me.

Sorry you are still sick and overwhelmed. That is not fun. Too many of us are/have been sick lately!

Did you know today is 's birthday!?

- I did know that today is 's birthday! I posted about it for Laurie's group just a little while ago! <3 🍰

Talking more would be helpful! So often I get in that funk of "no one cares or will notice if I don't show up", which intellectually I know is untrue.

- one step at a time! I was getting into a funk with how many forum pts I needed, so I got back into doing my dailies posts, which I'd been neglecting for a while. Then I didn't look at my forum points until just a couple of days ago and noticed I suddenly had 44! In a really short time too. If you can get into small habits, things might not move quickly, but they will move and that alone could be enough to motivate you to take bigger steps when you feel ready.

ah but a contest might be just the thing to get us all back in the habit of posting and being social. I don't know about the others, but I know for me being social needs practice. I can make long novel-like posts when I get chatty, but that doesn't happen in a vacuum. Getting in the habit of posting, even utilitarian things helps get me there.

and I have been tossing around the idea of some kind of contest just to have amongst ourselves during the quetathon. Do you have any ideas or would you even be interested at all?

and were both on yesterday but never popped in. I think they don't love us anymore :/

Like Whitney used to say "I will always love you" :) I have some busy days because we hired a lawyer and working on the recognition of our marriage, so I had to request so many documents and to travel between the Israeli and Italian embassy. Why everything must be so difficult for mixed nation couples?!?!?!

Next week I need to go for 24 in Panama and then to come back, to renew the tourist visa, bleh at least I can do shopping there because it's almost tax free xD I promise I will not make illegal things there! lol

Oooh, I love you all, too. I'm not sick anymore, not physically, but I think I've just been down lately. Maybe a side effect of the meds I was on, or maybe this whole Trump shitastrophe, but I've just been feeling blah for a while.

-squishes- I understand that feeling. Sometimes there's just...overwhelming melancholy with no real immediate source, and I agree that it might have a lot to do with the state of the nation right now.

Uhh...I want to say yes to a contest but I'm not sure how much time I'll actually have between Wayward Squirrel, work, and the fic I'm still not done writing even though it's due very very soon.

You can say yes to the contest and not have a lot of time! It's okay. I mean, I don't want to PRESSURE YOU! haha no, really, I don't. How is your head today?

I get the blah. I feel blah a LOT. But I know that when I force myself to talk to people I feel better. And I do have to force myself, a LOT of the time. I have always envied Eric and how many friends he has. But then I think....I would have to talk to all of them!

sounds like you ahve a lot going on, as per usual. Stick you head in sometimes and let us know you are still breathing!

It's the curse of moving to a new country, the first year is always stressful and all you do is solving problems..

But this week I almost finished everything so the next days I'm going to be more free and hopefully 100% free again.

I see the contest now and it's definitely something I can do haha. I plan to do that anyhow :) Posting about it shouldn't be too hard.

The head is....okay-ish.

So I feel accomplished today :D

Prior to the Quest-a-thon I was feeling pretty blah about the site and not doing much beyond my dailies. Then during the thon, I did little more than questing.

Today, I finally got around to picking up the last few plushies I needed for the new plushie achievements. I made stuff at the alchove (some plushies I needed and some food items for my gourmand). I added stuff to my tiny shop and repriced. Went to my pet page to activate a stats achievement. Did some questing to earn QP for the new quest shop items.

Congrats on all your accomplishments!! THings like that can help you remember what you liked about the site for so long!

Also, my big accomplishment for the day was finding a trade with all 5 bath bombs for 5 million TOTAL. I kept the 2 I needed and then put the other three back in trades and sold them for 5 million in minutes!

excellent deal!

They are doing a good job of maintaining the bathhouse token value since they are adding stuff to the shop at a rate where, even if you are diligent, you can't quite keep up.

And thanks! Yes, it did remind of better days.

I felt a little bit guilty for asking 5 million for 3 but it still was a really good deal!

No need for guilt, if it was snapped up within minutes, then they certainly were not overpriced. I mean you get the bathhouse tokens for free - so really selling the items at any price is a rip-off if you look at it that way.

- I had to share because you all know I've had a pretty shitty year...

I'M OFFICIALLY DONE FOR THE SUMMER!

Yesterday was the last day of the camp from hell. I am ready to just melt into a chair and not think for days.

In all seriousness though, I really plan to actually be productive this summer because I need to make some pretty drastic changes in my life. I need to declutter my house as it's a physical representation of how my mind feels, so decluttering the house will help declutter my mind and help me not feel overwhelmed by everything all the time. Also planning to start exercising regularly, whether it's a cardio workout or a yoga routine. I need to feel better mentally and physically, plus I could stand to lose a good 20-30 pounds. I would also love to start changing my diet some. If you guys ever feel like holding me accountable to any of these things and asking how I'm doing with them, I would love and appreciate the gentle nudge. hugs

Congratulations on making it through the year! A nice little relaxing stay at home vacation sounds like just the thing for you :)

Good luck with the changes you want to make. I'd recommend taking it slowly, though, I know with me changes are more likely to stick if take them in small doses.