shrieks out in fear realizes it's and tries to grab her by the ankles as she jumps back in the bushes Girl you gave me a heart attack!! :P

you are adorable and I love you lol 🥰

I love you both!! That was a fun little exchange ❤

giggles Love you both too! ❤

I thought I'd post a little update. Hopefully I don't ramble too much. It took me a lot of tries. A lot of tears. But I finally made an appointment and now I'm in therapy once a week for the foreseeable future. She diagnosed me with severe depressive disorder and anxiety. I already knew this by diagnosing myself, but it's more real now. I'm in treatment now. Monday, I have an appointment with my new primary for medication or a referral to a psychiatrist to prescribe me medicine. I talked to my sister about depression and asexuality. She was totally supportive and said she was here if I needed anything, to talk, her spare room, whatever.

I looked back at some blog posts I did over a year ago on a depression forum, and it was primarily about how unhappy I am in my marriage. I know I need a divorce. My therapist wants to talk a lot about this. I've only had one session with her so far and it was just introductory stuff. She, like you guys, was appalled by the "love hurts" comment he always makes to me. I think she will be able to help me find the courage to talk to him about divorce. I don't know when. But I know it's something I have to do. My sister reminded me that I lived on my own without him, that I can do it again. She's right. You all are right. I'm just scared. I will get a second job if I have to. I know I need out. Just the other day, I asked him to do something for me...it seems so trivial. I carried the groceries up and put them all away. He was going to make lunch. He was taking 1 pan downstairs. I asked him to take the cooler with him. He snapped at me "I can only do one thing at once! Stop nagging me!" So I said, "Are you serious?! I asked you ONCE. That is not nagging! I'll do it myself." That's the most confrontational I've been in, I don't even know how long. He's not physically abusive, I don't know what to call it, but I feel like I'm being abused. I know I'm not perfect and I know I could treat him better to, but I have never been called a nag so much in my life. In my post from last May, I posted about a tattoo I got. I was so excited for it. He knew I was getting it. He came home from work and I showed him. He nodded, then didn't talk to me the rest of the night. He went to the garage and stayed there until bed time.

Anyway, here i go, rambling again. So, that's my update.

BIG HUGS I'm SO glad you got yourself set up with a counselor!! Such a big step and I feel confident she will help you through this! Your sister is amazing too! I'm so glad you have her to fall back on. He IS abusive! It doesn't have to be physical, there is mental abuse (what I suffered from with my ex) and it can be just as crippling to your well-being. GOOD FOR YOU for standing your ground!! He's clearly got some issues too. It certainly is not nagging, so he needs to get over himself and help you out. His mother must've done some serious nagging when he was younger and he just won't tolerate any form of 'command' from a woman. At least that's how I see it. You go girl!! This post makes me so happy!! I hope you see the light at the end of the tunnel (even if it's tiny right now) as I do! Please, don't lose hope. You are an amazing person and I'm glad you are my friend. HUGS AGAIN

Hi everyone. Sorry I haven't been around much, or at all really. I don't really have an excuse except that some things that I used to enjoy have fallen off with everything that's going on. I hope everyone is doing well, and I miss you all. I do hope to be around more often now.

My work has also been super busy and frustrating, with me having to do extra work while also getting my hours and pay cut eyeroll and taking a lot out of me.

And I'm so sorry to read about all that you've been going though, but am also happy to read that you got a diagnosis and are receiving treatment. That's such a huge step and it's so important to take care of yourself. I couldn't agree with Jenn's post more.

And thanks for often checking in on me. It really meant so much.

Hello everyone. I've also been very busy with work and home life and whats been going on in the world.

My work has a new manager it was crazy at first but I had a lot of complaints of pizza not being done when the ask for them but I do get to them but when they are all do at the same time it gets a bit challenging. I'm now pre making the pizza crusts and it seems to help out a lot. Theres some other stuff but I think it will be ok. Can't transfer to other stores because of whats been going with me and there is one that I can't go to because of an incident that happened there but not to sure what it was but I don't want to know for sure anymore.

My SCA hobby is mostly online stuff now which is ok but does take a lot out when you are in front of the computer for most of the day listening to other people but it is interesting stuff though.

I do have a councilor to talk to. And I have lower back issues that I now found out there is something going on with my L5-s1 bones. Will be starting PT tomorrow and my left shoulder is in pain and will be seeing an ortho doctor in regards to that one but I'm thinking it might be related to my neck.

Thats all I can think of for now.

Glad that you're getting the help you need.

Another one of my pets won spotlight today!

I'm so happy! I had her story for another pet but I abandoned it. It was a galactic lasirius named Iris if I remember correctly.

So this win holds a lot of importance to me. And strangely, I checked her profile recently just before her win! Crazy right?

Congrats on the spotlight win! Enchanting story :)

Yesterday, I winded up receiving a package I had ordered 4.5 months ago! It had been lost in the mail and I was reimbursed... so now I have it for free :D It's a navy blue corset that I'm going to modify for steampunk. I had started to lose interest in steampunk since I had just joined before confinement... but with the corset, it's remotivated me :) I don't know when we'll have an event, but at least I'll have a fun outfit ;)

Congrats! I don't have the skill to modify my pet pages. So bravo to you!

Sounds like fun! I've become a lot more crafty and creative during the stay at home but not daring enough to trust any clothing I might cobble together.

[edit] How neat! Random Event The wizard appears in front of you and hands you a ! How nice of him!

The most creative I've been is making a hat (mad hatter mixed with steampunk) from scratch when I had never made a hat before that one ;) With more free time on our hands, it gives us a lot of opportunities to get creative ;)

Is anyone in here interested in a buddy GA? ? I've got 2 so if you're both interested, it's yours.

teacup, I can't wait to see what you do with your corset!! I had a ren faire come up in my memories today on FB. sigh

Ugh, I'm a wreck. The name changes are nice, but the legacy line messed up some of my profile templates that I'm using.....

I thought of you when I saw the changes made. I'm sorry it affected you like that. Congrats on your recent win!

Thanks! I just figured out where to place the code staff provided so I'll be okay now. :)

Glad you were able to figure out how to fix the code.

I could use a GA... I'm going to be stuck inside more. Why?

If no one else is interested, I'll take it, but I'm not on very often. Thank you, that's really sweet of you.

Sorry about the covid scare :(

Congrats on your pet spotlight win!

psst... check my name ;) I just have to be extra careful now... but it'll be ok. Had bad side effects for a med but we're going to try to reduce even more the quantity and reduce the number of times... hopefully, it'll be easier on my system.

My cook/cleaner came today so now I have some yummy meals a clean bathroom and a nice clean bed to sleep in :) I better go... Gismo is acting up on me, wants attention :D

Sorry a late congrats on your pet spotlight win.