It's humid here so I'm doing less but at least I'm managing to do a few things: laundry, chose my outfit for Canada Day (we're having a food truck come to the residence), organized a shelf in a kitchen cupboard (cleaned a turntable I recently bought & put items on it). I also put up my paper towel holder... it's from Simple Human and usually uses screws to mount but I used double-sided tape. It's an expensive model; but, I've been eyeing it for a while and finally decided to get it since I've been using one of the kitchen cupboards. I had hoped to buy a recycle/garbage bin that goes under the counter... but it was out of stock and they were supposed to have more in June but now it's Sept. Eventually, I'll get the place organized, one cupboard at a time ;)

Token shop! 2nd restock.

restock, all items are there.

Have a lovely day everyone ❤

Everything still in TS :-)

another restock!! it's humid here too. We finally got much-needed rain, and it's supposed to keep raining for a couple more days. I just hope it stops for the weekend. I'd like to enjoy the outdoors :) Glad you're slowly getting your kitchen done! I'm sure it will be awesome when it's finished!

Everything still in TS,

We kept getting only a few raindrops when we were supposed to get thunderstorms and a big amount of rain. I've had to keep the air conditioner running because it's too humid for my asthma. I'm hoping Wed. it'll be ok weather for Canada day. Today, I went to the grocery store with my gardening friend, we came back, then we went to the garden. At least I'm in better shape now that I'm getting out of the apartment :)

I've had to completely change my wardrobe (even undies) due to heat/health challenges. People keep saying I look beautiful. I usually don't dress as girly since it tends to bring unwanted attention; however, these days it's remarkable what I'm wearing... even thigh-highs with garter belts :o I have trouble shaving my legs (oh the acrobatics it entails) so it hides the hair while being not as hot as full-length stockings. I rarely wore dresses or bras and now I'm in them often. Uh, the things I endure to sweat less.

Huge huge huge hugs! My heart aches for you. I'm likely somewhere on the ace spectrum myself, I'm also just socially anxious, so I don't go out with people for that reason alone, so I'm not really sure. I've been on a date with one person in the last decade, and I'm mostly fine with that. I definitely envy partnership and all the comforts it can bring, but clearly not enough to put myself out in the world either. Doesn't help that I'm also chronically ill, so who the fuck has the energy for all that? LOL

I'm sorry your family is filled with so many people with such limited world views. I've got aunt and uncle who have gotten progressively more conservative as they've gotten older (the uncle's now 87, so it's not too surprising) but they're still the Canadian version of conservatives, and so probably overall left of the Democrats xD. Still pretty gay-friendly, though I would not be surprised if my uncle were to say something stupid about trans women or something.

I hope you can get a line of decent communication going with your husband, it's not fair to you just to pretend that conversation didn't happen.

So much love to you my dear!

I appreciate everyone giving me encouraging and kind words. It means a lot. I wish I could talk to people IRL about these things. My husband doesn't listen. I don't know if he listens and just forgets, or if he doesn't really care that much. I've tried talking to him about my depression, about some of things he does that makes me uncomfortable, but it goes no where. I told him it makes me uncomfortable when he pinches me and slaps my butt...I really, really hate it (and I'm certain this might be part of being ace, at least for me because there are people who are ace who love affection....I am really not affectionate and I really don't like being touched unless I initiate it). His response is always, "But I'm your husband." As if that gives him the right to do things that make me uncomfortable?

My family likes to conveniently forget that I have depression and was hospitalized for a suicide attempt at 15. Plus, they're mostly all conservative and aren't so supportive of LGBTQ+...and some of the things they say could be considered racist. It's really, really hard to listen to when my dad says he's native american because he was born in America. He doesn't get it...and it's callous comments and things of that nature that make me worried about any form of acceptance from my family. It's also stuff like that that make me cringe because my cousin did marry a black man, and he's well loved on that side of the family, but I can't fathom how they can't see the kind of issues he's had to go through when they have seen the blatant racism directed at him.

I'm thinking about talking to my sister about being ace. I think, out of everyone in my life, she will be the most accepting. And I'm also thinking about talking to her about the next thing: I'm also thinking about divorce. It's just hard because she's trying so hard to find love and then her big sister wants to get divorced? I don't want her to feel jaded about relationships when she's been craving one for so long.

Divorce. It's really fucking scary. I don't love my husband anymore. He annoys me and makes me uncomfortable, and I always feel trapped. I know that divorcing him won't make my depression better. I'm lonely at home, while being married. I'll be lonely outside of one too. I just don't talk to people. I'm so introverted, I'm so scared of meeting new people. My husband also makes me feel small sometimes. I don't think he realizes it, but he makes me feel stupid. Or if I ask him to help me with something, he says I'm nagging him. I have stopped asking him to help me clean the house and do dishes. We went camping a few weeks ago and he was so sloshed (it was just us camping, there was no reason for him to be drunk off his ass), he nearly fell in the fire. I told him to be careful and he snapped at me to stop nagging him. I'll never forget the time I asked him to take some salad to work for lunch because we needed to use it up. He got mad at me for "nagging" him and wouldn't talk to me the rest of the day. Or when he asks for my input but does the exact opposite of what I suggest, like where we go on vacation or any big purchases we buy. I got so mad about it once, I just told him to do what he wants and not bother asking me because he's going to do that anyway. I don't feel like I can talk to him about anything and most of the time, I just don't talk at all.

I'm just scared of living alone again. I don't know if I can afford it. Health insurance, rent/mortgage, other insurances, groceries, student loans, utilities, insulin and syringes for my dog (because Kasey would be coming with me, I would put my foot down on that)....I lived with my grandma for several years when I moved down here. I lived in an apartment on my own for a year, then moved in with my sister, then my husband. So, for the most part, I've had someone to share in expenses. I could find a roommate...I know. I know I'm just making excuses not to divorce B, but it's so scary. I also don't want to hurt him. After everything, I don't want to hurt him.

My co-worker said that if he could afford a house by himself, I could too. He's the only person I have actually talked to about some of this stuff, minus the depression and being ace. I'm sure he would be supportive, but....it's scary. He's pretty much my only friend, and we only hang out at work. The ones I have, I'm not my real self around. At least with Brad, I feel like I can be myself. I mentioned divorce today, and he thought it was a joke because I had just mentioned a tent husband bought and that he just bought it without my input at all, yet it's ours so I have to pay for half of it. And he asked if that was the last straw. No, that's something small and mildly irritating. But I told him I haven't been happy in a long time.

I know I've written a lot. It's a lot to digest and read. I'm sorry. The guy with the article responded to me. I don't think that's going to be a friendship. He said I could reach out if I ever needed to talk to him, but his email seemed kind of final. IDK, I guess we're strangers and i could continue emailing him and he can choose whether or not to repsond. I also joined an LGBTQ+ FB group in Green Bay. I'm hoping when they do events again, that I can find courage to actually go to some. I know my sister would go with me if I asked her, for support. It's just getting past the fear of talking to her about anything that I am having a hard time with.

Whew...I'll stop for now. I have a horrible habit of rambling.

Manda, I'm so sorry hon. I do wish I lived closer to you. I'd go to events with you! Is moving back in with your sister an option? Leaving someone is scary, but staying with someone you don't love anymore is wasted time and a lot of unwanted stress. If he's not willing to respect your boundaries, then it's time to go. He sounds very masochistic to me and that's no way to be treated!! His response to your discomfort is BS! I ended a really bad relationship where my ex was very controlling. I packed up my 2 boys and anything I could fit into my car and left. Got a restraining order against him too. I heard he destroyed the apartment when he found out I left him. It wasn't easy, but it was the best decision I made. And believe me, you will change as a person for the better. If you have questions on how I went about it, just PM me or message me on FB.

Sending all the love <3 I hope you find the contentment you're searching for. You do you, I'd not worry about the way others feel so much, that in itself adds so much unnecessary stress that you don't need to be dealing with at the moment. Deal with the actuals before you worry about the what if's or the might be's.. just my 2 cents .. Men can be mega asshats - I've met more than a few of those in my day, but at the end of the day, if you are not truly happy with who you're with, you need to go (or tell him to). And sorry, but if he's purchasing things without your input then that's his purchase not the two of yours and there's no way I'd be contributing half of the cost.. Clarity will come at some point and you will know exactly what you need to do <3

Things have been weird/busy/crazy around here.. I'm pretty sure it's this crazy heat though - mid nineties for over a week has everyone feeling a bit crazy.. On the upside the pool is finally ready for swimming! We switched from a chlorine to a salt water pool a few months back and because the aerator wasn't working property (it had installation glue in a few spots), the salt wasn't being converted to chlorine and of course the pool went crazy green.. only took nearly 2 months to figure out the issue, lol.. ahh well, at least we learned something..

Went camping a couple weeks ago, I really needed some down time - like away from everything & everyone (mostly the dogs). So I got 5 whole days & nights alone at my favorite campground, where I was able to relax, see all kinds of amazing wildlife, and get a ton of reading done.. I needed it and can't wait to go back - we're headed back up in 2 or 3 weekends.

Grandbaby is doing amazing, hitting all those milestones <3 and he's such a cutie too <3 It's been amazing having them here and getting to experience everything as it happens.

hummmm.. not sure what else, I know it's been a hot minute. To be honest, ever since I made a crazy mistake on here in back in November, I don't really play much anymore.. I do come on and check this post or to participate in events, but generally spend less than half an hour playing when I do..

Hope all is well with everyone :) See ya all next time <3

Yeah, he doesn't sound like he respects you, your boundaries, or your needs. That's definitely not okay in the least bit. It makes me so angry on your behalf. I have another friend whose husband always takes her for granted, and will not respect her needs or boundaries either, but I think she's far too anxious to even contemplate leaving him ever. If I ever make it down to the states again (I haven't been since the Cheeto was elected, and well now the pandemic and the complete mishandling of it just reinforces my desire to stay away, even if the border weren't shut.) I want to go on a tour to slap a few crappy husbands upside the head. LOL

Remember always your feelings are valid, your sexuality is valid, all of you is valid. You deserve the best! So much love to you, you've got some difficult decisions ahead, but I'm confident you'll make the right ones, and that you'll come out the other side in a better place.

So my laptop has a broken power jack apparently....

This happened yesterday morning. My mother borrowed my laptop so she could listen to the Sunday service. When I got it back, I started having trouble with inserting the part of the adapter that goes into the computer.

It HAD been hanging loosely from the port and couple of times before this, so I should have seen this as a sign....

Anybody got any advice? I'm looking at videos about the issue but it's not looking good.....

repair, it may be easier and a lot cheaper than trying to find a new computer

I agree with pinkbee, repair could be a lot cheaper, but that depends on if you can do it yourself, or if you know someone that's good with computers. You could get a quote from a shop and see if it's worth doing.

I would just go for repair if it weren't for the pandemic.....

I need to look up adapters....

Wear a mask or a face shield when going to the shop. Once you get it repaired, after bringing it home, use a disinfectant wipe. Within 3 hours on hard surfaces, it's much less likely you'll catch something.

It's the first time I managed to pick up my premade order of groceries without having big anxiety issues. You can't control others, but you can do the best that you can to be careful with yourself. Wash your hands very frequently, use a mask or face shield, do your best to keep a certain distance and you've greatly reduced the chances of getting something. I know... I live in the most problematic city of all of Canada (Montreal) and my suburb is the 2nd highest in .

Thanks everyone. It means a lot that I can talk to you all here. I wish I had people like you around me. I need to find the time to talk to my sister. It's all daunting. I need to open up to someone, because this is all too much for me. I've gotten to my breaking point. So, 1) try to find some sort of counseling, 2) talk to my sister, 3) research divorce, 4) talk to hubs, 5)get divorced? Things are really hard and my anxiety is crazy right now. But I know I need to do it. I've never been good at talking to people.

Thanks, but the problem might be the lining for the plug-in jack. I'm considering buying a new laptop just in case I can't get it repaired....

lining should be replaceable... less expensive than a laptop... then again, if you really want a new laptop any excuse is a good excuse :D

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