are you online? There's a few left in there! Sounds like you had a busy day!!

My order for bias tape came in today! Back to the sewing machine I go!!

Still stuff in the Token Shop!!

I wasn't able to grab another :(

I was supposed to get my cook/cleaner today. The company had not informed me in advance... another woman shows up. I tell her to back away from the door... she tried to open it and force her way in while I'm holding it back screaming back away. I eventually ask why she's there, she explains my regular person did not show up to work. I call the company... my person chose to not come back to work as she found it too risky (as several others did). They didn't have someone that understood French/English well or would be capable of cooking for today (sent the problem lady back) but might have someone for next week. Having an essential service removed is tough, having the hope of getting it back removed is tougher. I'll be ok, but my rainbow is made out of tears these days.

I got tired just reading all of what you've been dealing with the last day or two! OOF! I'm sorry it didn't work out today, that's a huge disappointment/frustration! I find these days my coping skills for even the tiniest hiccups are sorely lacking, anything going "wrong" even if it's hardly world-ending, still leaves me in such a state for the rest of that day!

I hope tomorrow goes smoother for you!

Wow, what a terrible experience! hugs I echo cinderellie's sentiments and hope that today is a better day for you!

How's everyone else doing lately?

Well... I no longer have a best friend. He decided to call it quits, accuse me of being a traitor, etc. Sometimes when people need help they lash out at those helping. I'm going to be ok; however, It's been a tough 24 hrs (found out a little past 11 pm by email while he dropped off my things that had been in his apartment while playing like everything was ok but to check the email he just sent me... yeah). I talked a long time to people that support me... dad, aunt, educator, & the person for autistics. I don't need the drama in my life.

Bedbug exterminator came today & went to certain apartments on my floor. I don't have any & no visit but I read lavender can repel them as well as neem oil so I've been diffusing true lavender essential oil in my humidifier (that I winded up having to fully clean upon discovering mold in it) and rubbing neem oil on my apartment door frame and floor in hopes that if any go wondering they get the message they aren't welcome here.

Upon coming here to unwind, I discovered a really uplifting gift... ❤ anon :)

Sometimes life doesn't bring you what you want but rather what you need. Although the ex-friend removed love... I got it tenfold from others. Thank you

Today was hard, I had a very frustrating experience with a doctor today, who made some terrible recommendations for medications, despite my already having tried and failed that medication. To her credit my pharmacy and gp dropped the ball and did not provide her with a complete list of either my current or past meds, but to her detriment she also didn't seem to listen when I said, I had tried it twice once as recently as just last year. There was a lot else that happened in that 25 minute appointment, and it left me feeling so defeated, and upset that I spent most of the day trying to unpack what all had happened, and also all the awful and desperate feelings it left me with. 6 hours of crying, and a LOT of talking with a few people, and I feel a bit better, mostly because all of them, including my retired doctor friend from the same field were all horrified, and validated my feelings.

I'll get through this, and maybe in the end I got through to the doctor, I'm really not sure, I won't find out until my gp gets a letter from her next week or the following week with the full recommendations. If she doesn't change her recommendation, I'm pretty sure my GP will balk at it,, given that she was the one who took me off the medication last year when it clearly wasn't working, and I will have them advocate for me about finding an alternative.

I am utterly wrecked though from all that intense emotion! OOF!

Hope the rest of you are faring better today <3

Edit: Oh no that's so hard! It sounds like you're better off without him, but that doesn't make it less painful <3 So much love to you hugglesquishes

I've had to go through a lot of trial and error with meds as well as figuring out what's happening with me. Hang in there, when a door closes a window opens. Hugs

edit: The worst part is I can't get rid of him... he lives in the residence & we do autistic activities & he's the representative for the autistics on the administration. He wants to be civil for activities whenever they'll start again (which won't be for a long time). Right now I don't even want to be in the same residence as him, let alone be civil.

For the meds, sometimes trying a completely different class can help. I can't do antidepressants because I had a really bad experience & they all pose that risk. However, I finally found an ADD med that works and it helps reduce negative thinking from repeating so I can finally put more of the theory into practice and it helps. Hope something works out.

Yeah, that sure doesn't make things easy!

Yeah, I've been tried on so many different things, my current med is a different class than any I've been on before, which is why we tried me on it, but it's only one tiny titch above useless, I was better off on the previous medication (not the one they're trying to put me on for the umpteenth time) though even it wasn't cutting it, but it's been far worse since I transitioned me off it.

The worst part though is that the clinic that gave me this useless recommendation is THE place to go, my retired doctor friend was so pleased I'd gotten in to see them, he has so much respect for them, so to have such an awful experience from the one place that was supposed to be able to help me was such a blow. It took me so long to get in to see them, and there is no further followup appointments, the rest will be done via my GP. She's welcome to contact them again, but it's basically a one and done deal with them. :/ I'm quite sure I have adhd, but I only ever had one doctor even willing to entertain the idea of it, and medicating me for it, and even then she only let me try one med, which didn't work out for me, and she's been retired for years now.

edit: for a teeny bit of good news, for the FIRST TIME EVER I made it through the Crypts to the treasure! I was beginning to wonder if it was possible! LOLOL

Wow, that's too bad about your friend. But like you said, you don't need that drama in your life. I hope that you can find peace, even though he's in the same complex. Hopefully, your paths won't cross very often. And yes! Keep the bedbugs out! You don't need that kind of drama either!! LOL

I'm so sorry to hear that you had a terrible experience, Arden :( I pray that you'll find the answers you're looking for in the end. And yay on getting to the end of the crypts!! I haven't tried in a while because I always pick the wrong door first go LOL

Much love to you both ❤

I'm working on creating labels for my seedlings today :) Day by day it'll get better.

If you feel that negative thoughts are coming to you with difficulty stopping them, it can be ADHD. There are non-med things you can try as well. Some things that I find useful: -exercise -meditation -writing/saying at least 3 things a day that I'm grateful for -doing things I enjoy (e.g. gardening & art)

Hope things get better hun, hugs

Nice! I've cleaned my sewing area, it was a mess! I'm also starting a painting for my sister. We'll see how it goes.

I was thinking of sewing myself a few masks; however, for now I'll just use a few handkerchiefs. Several people here start to forget the 2 m rule when they wear masks as well as play with the masks & touch their faces (making it worse than if they had no mask). Although I'd rather not wear a mask (a few years ago I had to wear one outside all the time due to fragile lungs & it was tough), people are starting to give negative stares when I don't have one... yet at the start of this, it was the opposite.

How's the shovel coming along?

I have most of the labels written... but I'm missing a few names. It'll have to wait till tomorrow. I'm going out with a gal friend to the grocery store. I haven't been able to go there in a long time. They have a section where they make meals & I like them better than frozen company-made ones.

I've been taking care of my betta fish... he's constipated. The ex-friend had mega constipation issues. I had the runs last week that weakened me drastically. My cat has teeth issues that's making him fussier about eating his wet food that makes it tougher for him to go. I've been dealing with so many digestive issues it's halarious... not on the spot but dag nab it it's a big load of XD

============ Edit: Happy Mother's day everyone My mother hasn't checked her emails in a while, so I asked Dad to print out a card I made for her. She was happily surprised. I had planned on calling her in the evening... time went by faster than anticipated so she called me. We talked for a while, it was nice :)

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My first BHH snag!

I finished it yesterday!

pic of the shovel

Sorry about all the digestive issues! Cute card! LOL

Congrats on the BHH snag!

I've been having issues getting fabric that I want lately. But I can't really complain. I still have plenty to work with. I just like more of a variety. Most of what I have are florals, not what the guys want. I'll keep looking though.

The shovel is gorgeous! Good job! Hope you find some more masc fabrics!

Congrats!! So exciting!

Oh lala, that's quite the shovel! Congrats :) For the floral fabric... you never know, some guys like flowers :D

I finally got a mattress cover that's certified bed bug proof. I don't have any but I'm not taking any chances... I really miss my cook/cleaner, as she would have put it on. Now I'm stuck trying to play Hercules battling the mattress.

Yay! Patience & luck are key with BHH ;)

Thank you both ❤ I hope you were successful with your mattress cover! Ugh, I'm so sore today from helping my boss with the landscaping at work!

Hi everyone :-)

Love the shovel

Sorry for all the rockiness, I hope life levels out for you.

waves

Crawls in... I'm still not done my bed. I'm so sore I'm walking oddly and talking with pain in my voice. At least when I'll be finished it'll be one less thing to worry about or do. I'll soon take a well-deserved bath, much needed oh I sweat so much I stink :P

squee Hugs miss you! Thank you!

oh dear, well slow and steady wins the race they say!