and some rest.

I think I am still very out of energy. november and december always take a bunch of energy and I really need to recharge. But not a lot of free time during hanuary either.

I have bunches of free days in febraury and hope to recover then. Maybe I overspend because I thought I already had enough power.

Yeah this time of year is always rough. Hopefully it will get better when the Spring weather starts up. It has been so gloomy and rainy here that it just feels bleh. At least you have something to look forward to. Not much comfort right now, but hopefully the time will fly by for you hugs

I hope so, since every day I am not sure how to get my work done. Tired and always near to crying.

But yes, I hope it will get better.

In what free time I have left I try to sleep and do some things that sort of help me recover. bath tube. tea, chocolate, reading and spend some time on here

Sorry to hear that Hun :( Have you seen a doctor? Maybe that can help.

my doctor keeps on telling me I should not work as long as I do I've been getting back into work started with two hours a day and I am just up to 6 hours. I do not think my boss would love me to reduce again back to 4 hours she is already sort of asking when I get back up to 8 hours.

But that will not happen before march Health care set up this getting back into work program.

Maybe I just choosen the wrong time to get back into work after hopital and everything

Work is just going to have to understand that your health comes first! You should deff listen to the doctor and do what they tell you. You need to take care of yourself :)

I am trying to, but I still have trouble doing things half heartedly not being perfect (with seasonal decoration)

and saying no if one of my senior citizens ask for something or needs someone to talk to

but I try

Well the most we can do sometimes is try to find the small comforts that make us smile and help get us through the day, and hope things get better. I know how hard that can be. I am trying to do that myself right now.

so tkae care yourself

I am off to cook lunch and get the house cleaned

Thanks Hun hugs You try to do the same. I am about to head to bed. Must at least try to sleep.

sleep well!

The seasons 1-4 set was $80 o.O It would be nice if some of the older seasons would drop in price, because I don't have a problem with waiting a few years to buy the dvds. I like the sauce, but I only get pepperoni and extra cheese on my pizza. I might just start ordering the Italian Cheesesticks Pizza from Gambino's whenever I want pizza. Yeah, Rib Crib always has good food, I might try one of their sandwiches this time instead of a meat platter. Hopefully the in-laws don't want to sit and talk after we've finished eating. They are really good prices for jeans that cost $80 to $100 brand new. Who spends that kind of money on new jeans? Especially when they might not last a year. A few months ago I redid the purple streaks in my hair and in order to have the color last longer I had to wash my hair with cold water. It was awful. As soon as I was done washing my hair, I switched to warm water. The thought of taking an ice bath is awful too! I agree. I'm almost tempted to just tell them that I can move out the next time she's rude. Might be a wakeup call that they need to rethink their approach on things. No, there isn't a way to change the pellets. My dad bought a truck load and had no say in how or what they were made from. I wore a mask this morning, and also wore it while I was feeding my horse just so I could breath in warm air. I found a weighted blanket yesterday at the community center garage sale. I fell asleep pretty fast last night under it. I think that might also become my travel blanket as well.

Can I start over and go back to a few days before Christmas? Sometime before the new year I had a huge water leak in my backyard that I didn't know about. Then my garage door broke, so I have to park outside until my landlords call someone to get it fixed. Since Friday I've been dealing with an allergic reaction to corn dust, but today I'm going to try and not eat anything with corn products in it to see if that helps me feel better.

Geeze that is crazy! The prices should deff go down depending on how old it is. Same! Everyone once in a while we will toss on some bacon. When we are feeling wild and crazy lmao! I would be prepared for it. I can't imagine they would drive all that way just to rush off after the meal :( I haven't worn jeans in a really long time, but that is way too much for me to pay for them. Those are too expensive. The worst part for me is having cold water hit my back! That is just horrible. It might be a wake up call, but at the same time they might agree with you. That would not be good. Another reason that renting totally sux. Being at the mercy of someone else. It is always better to be in charge of your own living situation. Awe well that is too bad :( hopefully you wont have another bad reaction. I love a good find like that!

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For being tired... have you tried light therapy? It helps to wake up more & feel energized during the winter months... uses a strong light you expose yourself to at least 30 min each morning.

It's really easy to exhaust yourself... I know. If you have a lot to do, try to ask yourself if you can do a bit less when you feel overwhelmed. Tomorrow I was supposed to go for an outing and I had to cancel so I can rest. I have a big day Friday with two things I need to attend (interview preparation & funeral) so I need to have the energy for those. It's not easy... I want to do more but I've had an exhausting week & collapsing on the floor so I need to take it easy tomorrow. In the past, I would have gone to the outing but then been exhausted for Fri and made myself worse trying to recover... it's still tough to say no but the more I practice the better I am at it :) As my mom says... an elephant is eaten one bite at a time. You can do it... just small steps hun & celebrate what you can do rather than what you'd like to do ❤

They should. The new Hawaii Five-0 started in 2010, so the set for the first 4 seasons shouldn't have been that expensive. I've been keeping an eye on The Eleventh Hour season 1 DVD on Amazon, and the latest price was over $30. That show was on TV in the early 2000's but only had one season. It's crazy what people try to sell things for, especially when it's a tv show that hasn't aired for over a decade. I used to get bacon on my pizza but then it started getting too fatty. I'll add canadian bacon to pizza if the pizza place has it as an option. I like to keep my pizza simple. I just hope they don't bring the youngest 😢, which if they took me out for lunch he would be at school. Maybe they'll have a plan figured out soon so it's not a last minute 'hey we'll meet you here at this time'. I guess I should also prepare for them to possibly want to take me shopping for a birthday day, unless they give me lotion and hand soap or a gift card again. I'm fine with getting gift cards, but I've got enough lotion and perfume and I can buy my own soap. If I'm at home, I'm wearing leggings or sweatpants, but when I'm working cattle, doing chores, or make it look like I didn't just roll out of bed, I wear jeans. I can't imagine how people can justify spending that much on jeans, because I can't even justify spending $45 on a single pair of jeans....or on a hoodie. Oh it's awful! And cold lotion or oil is just as bad. When I had a massage a couple months ago, the lotion or oil they used was cold and they just poured it on my back. Took me a while to relax after that. I agree. I could see them just saying 'ok, when will you have everything out'. Hopefully Chris and I can start building our house in a year or two, just need to motivate my parents to get my grandmother's house emptied out. I think something was said about sealing the basement of that house and living there while we build our house, but we want a bigger basement and then there's the question of where do we shower and use the bathroom? I've been wearing a mask anytime I have to be around any kind of dust, because I am starting to feel a little better. Yesterday I tried to eat food that didn't have any type of corn product in it and I took an almost 3 hour nap, then went to bed early. I'd be happier if I could wake up and not have a sore throat or gunk in my nose. I was quite happy to find it! I balked at the price a little bit ($30), but compared to what they sell for at other places it wasn't such a bad price. So far it's helped me fall asleep right away the past two nights I've slept under it.

I'm really proud with the progress I've made for Poukie... I just got her to t10!!! I got impatient and used tomes to get her the final leg of the way. New weapons to use yay! If all goes well, in less than a year I'll get her to t11 ^^

I don't think I ever heard of that show. I am surprised it was even put out on DVD since it only had one season. Did it have an ending to it? You would probably hate my pizza lol. If I am sharing a pizza with Emily we go with the pepperoni and extra cheese (some times bacon) but if I get my own pizza (a rare thing) I get pineapple and bacon and extra cheese :D (don't judge me :P) Ugh I hope they don't! What a way to ruin a nice bday meal. Especially if he decides to throw a fit about something. fingers crossed for a gift card! I have my pajama pants and my leggings and a pair of capris for summer. That is about it. I can't spend that much money on clothes just for me. I watch Shane on youtube and he did a series on Jeffree Star. Jeffree is always decked out in Gucci and other names I can't even spell and he spends thousands of dollars on one outfit. I just can't relate at all!!! Even if I was rich I doubt I would spend thousands on one outfit! Well that kinda defeats the whole purpose of getting a massage. I thought heating the stuff up was rule number 1! It seems like every solution for 1 problem has to come with about 10 other problems of it's own. Yeah that would be nice, but at least the mask seems to be helping a little. Deff not a bad price if it is something you use and love :D

Congrats!

I don't remember if it had an ending to it, it's been so long since I watched it. I think it was on CBS when it was on tv. If the producers of the show knew it wasn't being renewed, then they might have written an ending for it but if they didn't then it might have a weird ending. I got the first seasons of Forever and Three Rivers for less than $20 each off Amazon, both of those shows only had one season but they were both good. I don't like pineapple (the smell reminds me of strawberries for some reason), but I've never understood why people judge or hate others just because they put pineapple or other ingredients on pizza. I love to get extra cheese on my pizza but then that means I can't eat more than two pieces in one meal. I could see the youngest one either throwing a fit or talking non-stop. Family meals at their house don't start until after 1 p.m. (hopefully my birthday lunch doesn't), always start late, and we're always waiting for the youngest to finish eating. He takes forever to eat because he either doesn't stop talking or he complains that his older brothers get to have seconds. I hope I get either a gift card or cash, and I'd actually be fine if I didn't get anything at all from them for my birthday. They'll probably consider taking me out to eat my birthday gift. I have quite a few clothes, but since I work outside I can be pretty rough on them. I've got three pairs of jeans that have a hole in the crotch because I snagged them while climbing over a fence, 2 pairs have a knee worn out and a few others are developing holes near the back pocket. I could never spend thousands of dollars for one item of clothing either. My wedding dress was $100, there was no way I was going to spend more than that on a dress. I think she found a way to warm it up after that because my back arched as soon as the cold stuff hit my skin. Also meant she had to spend more time getting the knots out of my back because I had stiffened up. And she did use a hot towel on my skin too, which was nice after getting frozen. It does. Right now, I'm stressing over what else will break in the house, or with my pickup, and what else will I suddenly be allergic to next. I'm still waiting on the garage door to get fixed. It's raining right now and that rain with turn into snow at some point by tomorrow. Hopefully there isn't freezing rain thrown in the mix and I also hope it doesn't make the star shaped crack in my windshield crack more. The mask does help, but I could smell the dust on it yesterday and today, so maybe sometime down the road I'll get a heavier duty mask. I'm looking forward to KH3 getting released at the end of this month! It's about the only thing I'm looking forward to for January.

Supernatural is the only tv show that I have ever bought. Emily wants to buy Naruto, but that would take a really long. There are over 700 episodes and not sure how many are in one set. Someday we will have all of them :D I love strawberries! When I was a kid we would go strawbery picking every year and my Granny would make preserves out of them. I really miss that. It was so good! People are crazy and everyone thinks their opinion is important. Ugh both would be bad! That would drive me crazy. I could not deal with him at all. I don't blame you at all. Just lunch and go home lol. I don't work outside so thankfully my clothes can last a while. I hate shopping for clothes. I always have. She should have had it warmed in the first place. Really surprised that it wasn't. I thought that was just normal procedure for all massages. So far we haven't really had any snow this year knocks on wood. We have had a lot of rain though. I am sick of the parking lot looking like a lake. Maybe you should get one of those hazmat suits! Probably cost a small fortune though :( We are too! I just hope I have the money for it since I preordered it.

I used to buy a season a month or every few months of CSI: New York, then I had one season go missing, so I'm assuming a roommate or someone in the scholarship house I lived in stole it. I stopped buying them after until I moved out There are some shows that would take forever to buy. I don't know how many seasons of Pokemon there are. I haven't watched any of the shows, but I have them on my Netflix list. I'm allergic to strawberries so I avoid them like the plague. If I smell fresh strawberries, I have a hard time breathing but I think it's just my brain telling me to get away from them. People are really crazy nowadays, makes me really happy to live in the country where I don't have to see anyone all day. There are some people who think their opinion is fact and they flip out on anyone who doesn't agree with their opinion. I avoid those people. It drives me crazy at every holiday meal at their house. Chris and I get there early and we end up standing/sitting around for over an hour waiting for the food to get ready. All the while, the youngest one thinks he can take on his older brothers and win when he wrestles them, then cries when he's losing. I've learned to eat a snack on the way there so I don't get a migraine. It's going to be even harder this year, because I've gotten used to eating lunch at 11:30a.m. I'd love to just eat really quickly and then we all go our separate ways, because I don't have much to say to them, unless I just list out everything that has gone wrong while Chris has been gone. MIL told me last time I saw her that if I ever need anything to let her know....well she's lives 2 hours away, I don't know exactly what she could help with. I hate shopping for clothes too. I can fit into a certain size of one brand, but try on a different brand in the same size and it doesn't fit. Drives me bonkers. I've only had three massages and two of them were at a beauty school over 4 years ago. Maybe they weren't completed prepared or maybe this last place does things differently. We had a blizzard after Thanksgiving, and it snowed a few times before and after that. Can't tell right now if it's still rain or if it's starting to shift to something else. I did hear something plink off the window, so maybe the rain is starting to freeze. I was going to go to a basketball game tonight, but it got moved up to 3:30 due to the incoming weather and I'm feeling rather sniffly and sneezy. I've had 3 or 4 people recommend that to me. I haven't really looked up the prize of one because I figure they probably cost a pretty penny and I don't think you would want to skimp on the price of one of those. 😢 I was worried that I wouldn't have enough, but I get a check from Chris twice a month to compensate for taking care of everything at home by myself (it also covers dog food and groceries). I got a call today from Gamestop that I can pick up my game at 8 p.m. on the 28th. I'll pick it up on the 29th because I'm not going to drive an hour there, pick up the game, then drive an hour home at night to just go to bed as soon as I get home.