Thank you

tyvm for bites :)

I guess you're just really hard for those tests to pin down! That's ok, people can't really be perfectly pigeonholed like that anyway.

I don't think I really have a choice about being cynical or nihilistic. I can try not to wallow in it (or alternatively, completely throw myself into it and luxuriate in the misery if I'm feeling like it lol) but it's just always there if I'm being honest. Considering the "Big Picture", I mean the REAL Big Picture - the whole universe and everything - is for me both comforting and melancholic. Knowing that the entirety of existence will completely and utterly end one day means nothing actually matters and that goes a long way toward allaying my anxieties and regrets, and the fact that humans just kinda suck and will never live up to their potential is all right because it's irrelevant anyway. But it's also kind of a huge letdown, ya know? Like wow man, this is all so pointless, why are we doing it?

Natural leader types tend to have a reputation as being kind of cocky and maybe a bit manipulative I think (or "persuasive" to put it more nicely). I only respect leaders who are clearly competent; just taking charge and being bossy does nothing for me and I'm likely to rebel if I feel that I know better than they do. In fact, I quit a job because of that. Stupid boss was stupid, but boy was he sure of himself. Ugh. Unfortunately, it seems the folks who are best qualified to lead are not often inclined to do it.

Dishonest optimism, like people who are just always cheerful all the time and always trying to "look on the bright side"? Yeah, that comes across as fake and annoying to me. I can be optimistic about things but I temper it with realism; there's no point in deluding yourself. I like to expect the worst; that way I'm never disappointed but sometimes I'm pleasantly surprised.

That is definitely true, you know yourself better than anyone else does! In fact, my experience has led me to doubt whether we can ever truly know anyone but ourselves. I have been repeatedly shocked and disappointed by people I thought I knew and could trust. And certainly, no one ever really seems to understand me.

You're welcome! Thanks for volunteering to bite me <3

Btw INTJs can be really reckless when we're not healthy, in a very self-destructive way. Something about extroverted sensing (inferior function) taking over, makes e.g. consuming ridiculous quantities of alcohol seem like the best course of action. ._.