It seems that every time we go out, my fiance will buy things that i can not have. Yesterday we went out, the two tubs of candy he bought made me sad on the inside. I browsed the isles at Zellers and all I could find that was Sugar free was their soda and maybe some jello. I know he cares about me and my diabetes. But all I really want is to be a little normal and have the pleasures of sweets once in a while without having to cheat and up my dose of Insulin. When I see people enjoying their ice cream, deep down I know I want some. But for about $6 I can have one small tub of no sugar added ice cream in a limited of 5 flavours. It gets to be annoying when the chocolate bars are eaten in front of me by family and friends. Sugar free soda, yes it enjoyed but we all know a diabetic and regular people should not ingest Aspartame in large amounts.

Ive had diabetes for 12 years, im 22 and since I was 10 ive been struggling with it. My diabetes is fine, but its the small things that need to be checked out. Carb counting is a big thing, knowing what you are about to eat and then taking the correct amount of insulin to adjust it ... All my life I have been taking insulin to manage my body, my pancreas just floats there in my insides while I inject myself 4 - 5 times a day with insulin its supposed to be producing. My sugars go up and down, to little insulin and they sky rocket... to much and they drop to a dangerous level. My fiance wants me to be healthy and have my diabetes in tact... but its hard, if he could understand the problems it comes with and how I can not always follow through with simple things... well i guess i am just stubborn is all.

I am trying to change, but I believe I need a friend or something to talk to and help understand the life of a diabetic.

I know how diabetes is, my grandpa and my boyfriend's dad has it. Even though I don't have diabetes I have alot of other health problems that sometimes make me cry because all these kids around me at highschool can do things that I couldn't even imagine doing. Believe me, I know how it is.

I have heard that SodaStream http://www.sodastreamusa.com/nutrition.aspx is a decent option for diabetics as it does not use aspartame and is lower on carbs.

I know you see the diabetes as a curse, but it might help to think of it as: you've been trained to have good dieting habits since you were 10. It is so much harder for people who eat whatever they want for the first 30 years of their life, then all of a sudden they realize they've gotten fat and have no clue what to do. Life is simpler when choices are made for you. It feels like a cage, but it's really a blessing in some ways. Your attention to your health will benefit you in the long run.

-> In school I couldnt do a lot of things the others could do. In middle school I was able to join a volley ball team but after a while my diabetes went down hill. after that I just watched others play sports. hugs

-> You're right, i do see it as a curse some times. At the age of 10 I couldnt play games, do sports or enjoy an ice cream cone with friends at the beach or even on a walk. I had two sets of dangerous highs, sending me to the hospital for a week at a time and then a relapse a week after. I have ad seizures through out my life, many of them while in highschool... I have always been heavy set because it runs in my dads side of the family. The only time I was a size 6 was when I ended up becoming diabetic in grade 5, Id have to admit I like it, being able to wear cute things that fit while not having to hide in larger clothing. Ive made it 12 years without anything too serious, my doctor says Im healthy for my size, though I am thought to be obese I an officially say that if I did a rapid change for my health and diabetes I could possibly do something harmful instead. Its just confusing at times.. Ive ordered 2 diabetic books from amazon, and I hope to order more because I know reading up on it would be easier than listening some times.

And that link, thank you I will check it out :D

There's going to be some good days with your condition and bad days. I'm currently on the tennis team and I find that excercise really does help my conditions worsen (I have asthma, high colestrol (even though I'm a little stick), scoliosis, migrane issues, and IBS (might be a even more serious case of something else, I have to get a colonoscopy on friday.) But I sure think you should try to play volley ball again, don't give up on your dreams!

There's this site that helps people struggling with illness or just trying to live healthier, physically and psychologically. Best of luck, it must be hard, but I'm sure you'll be able to sort it out eventually :)

-> nods I too have migraines, I also have a slight form of lordosis. My lower back is curved a bit much but not to much for be a real form of Lordosis. I have chronic nerve pain and am currently on lyrica for it. I might also have a Hiatal Hernia because ive have seriuos chest pains when i laugh, cough and breath. (its not very fun and doctors cant figure it out yet) When I tell people I feel sick... normally they say back to me "You dont look sick, you look fine so whats your problem?" well if they would only know whats going on in the inside of me... or even everyone who has a sickness that is not visible, they'd understand. I wont give up on my dream :D you bet i wont.

Oh my gosh, I hate when people say that to me! I'm mostly in a bad mood when I don't feel good and they (my family) likes to say that but doctors on the other hand gasp at all the problems I have and they say they understand why I don't feel great. My mom used to do that, but is now sympathetic because she was with me all the time when doctors have constantly said that statement. A good therapeutic thing to have is a bond between a pet, I bonded with my black kitten and it has improved my heath quite much. Hopefully the doctors will find out what is wrong with you soon, there's been plenty cases where I have been diagnosed wrongly.

-> Thank you

-> I agree. I have a cat, he is my best friend though also annoying lol. He knows when Im sad, and when I want the right attention, its like having your own medical pet with you all the time. And yes it is a loathing thing when people say that. I do also hope the doctors find out what is wrong with me, last year i had a problem where my legs began to hurt from knee caps down to my toes, a feeling as if they were being crushed between two cinder blocks with buses on each side pushing. It hurt to sit, flex and stand, but if i walked then it was alright for some reason. And when I was laying in the hospital waiting on results all the doctors could do was poke and prod my legs... "does this hurt?" well of course it does doctor! Ugh I now have a problem with my hand, yesterday I woke up with pins and needles inside it, hoping it would go away with the day but no, its still here and its a little worse. Im going to the walk in to see my family doctor and hopefully he can help me.

Yeah hopefully he can help you. I get random cramps in my feet sometimes where I have to walk on it to go away and my knee caps sometimes give out, it's annoying.

-> Id agree. My knees give out a lot and ive also had weird lower left abdominal pain... I know im not pregnant because im on the pill and we use protection. Id rather get healthier first than become pregnant with all my problems.

Maybe you should go see a doctor that deals with the digestion system. Abdominal pain could be something serious.

-> Mmmhm when I go to the walk in today, I shall mention it. and tomorrow i have an appointment with him as well, which is when i will just mention everything else.

I understand what your going through, my grandmother is a diabetic and she watches what she eats(sometimes). But me and my mom are at risk for it and my mom is at a higher risk for it than i am. but i know how it's like when you want something and you cant eat it, i have sensitive tastbuds and it makes spicy food unbearably hot. I want to eat spicy food but cant, which is sad.

Alright sounds good (:

-> Yes spicy food is a tricky one. I love it and will always, thanfully my taste buds enjoy it and I hope that one day you will too. Agreed, my fiance likes his candy and he has 2 tubs of it in the room im in, its hard not to go for it, very hard.

-> :)

I know how eating is too, sorry I forgot to add that. I have to be really careful, caffeine makes my migraines go insane with power and some foods like grilled foods and too much of something flares my IBS up.

Yea i bet it is, but i also have problems with soda. soda for some reason Buggs the liveing hell out of my stumick and the only ones i can drink now are dr.pepper and rootbear. so in a way i am like you but with some other thing in my way. Recently though i have gotten a infection in my face and it makes it impossible to eat any thing on that side of my mouth. again like you but with some thing else in my way, and you know what? You could probably avoid the temtation if you put the candy up somewhere where you will forget abourt it( with telling your fiance of course).

-> Oh im so sorry. I do hope everything gets better for you. hugs

-> I can understand that, and I feel for you. There are so many problems in the world and everyone either has the same or something different. Ive had foods upset my stomach, though I can never figure it out because its always hours later and i tend to forget what ive eaten.. my headaches increase with the slightest movement of my head, even a drink or something i eat makes them worse some times.

And yes, I will let him know that ive hidden his candy from me.

It's alright tell me what you hear from the doctor (: