I would like to hear you about my current situation. Some months ago I've decided to lose weight for looking better and be healthier. And I was doing it well, I was already noticing some good changes on me, and we all know we don't get fit or healthy from one day to another - it may take at least 1 year. Although, I'm a very anxious person and also sometimes get obsessed with something, so I was just so sick of waiting for better results and started to get crazy about losing weight and have a really flat belly. I'm 25, not a teen anymore but sometimes just put inside my head stupid ideas like a teen. So I want to look like a skinny girl, not a walking corpse, but almost. From 2 weeks until now, from what I researched, I may be starting to have anorexia nervosa, caused by some more things I didn't mentioned here. I've just started to eat only breakfast and lunch, skipping other daily meals (since yesterday I've been eating in really small portions during the day, I'm constantly hungry). I've been also measuring every calorie and I've been consuming around 1000 calories per day. I know my body may get injured inside and I know also that a woman should consume at least 1200 calories or more. I should around 1800 because I do frequent exercise, like running for about 25 mins, doing abs and some weightlifting, doing all this around 3 - 5 times per week. Actually I am healthy phisically, finally, though still not satisfied with myself. It seems anything it's just not enough for me. My problem is that mentally, I've been constantly under stress with food things and the fear of getting fat. As I said before, I read a lot of articles on the web and I've been developing the same symphtoms as an anorexic person... My friends, mother and boyfriend are getting worried with me when I talk about my care about what/how I'm eating and my goals, well, I'm starting to make them upset :S... I've been starving sometimes, I still have a strong desire for food, but there's something inside me telling me that I shouldn't eat or I get the risk of getting fat for that. In the morning and until lunch time, I feel great when I'm eating (because I was starved and feels good to eat), but when I finish my meals and still have the will to eat a little more, but I stop and stay away from any temptation. After I eat my meal, even if its just a little piece of food, I get really bloated and feel sick. After almost 2 hours I get hungry again, but sometimes I avoid eating. It's easier for me when I'm not home. In this last 3 days, I've already feeling bad things such feeling sleepy, my back has been hurting a little, I feel some kind of tiredness around my eyes and I've been forgetting things easier. I'm making myself a test subject to see how far I can go. Damn I know I'm having a stupid attitude with myself, but I feel so frustrated and everything it's just not enough for me. People keep telling me I'm good like I am and I don't need to change anything. They say I'm thin and pretty - But sometimes I just don't feel like that. Sure the outside it's not the most important things to be happy. Far away from that, actually. But it helps when a person has low self-esteem like me. I'm confused with myself. This is weird. This is, without any doubt, more a psychological problem than a physical one. Am I getting ill? I know I should stop before it's too late, but I think I can control myself. Well, really I don't know. I just want to wait one more month to see how I am going to be - mentally and physically.

[edit] Note: Before this I was weighting 63 kg (138.6 lbs) and now I'm around 60 kg (132 lbs). But this is just a number, I've lost some considerable amount of body fat on my belly, around it, superior abs and arms. My clothes fit me better. I'm ok for my height (1,66 m (5,44 ft) but in my mind I still see a fat person and want a lot to be more thin. Am I getting crazy, silly, or something??

Also, I'm a demanding and a perfectionist person, which doesn't help.

I don't really know what you're asking here. It seems like you understand the idea that maintaining a healthy weight is a lifestyle, and that exercising and eating right are important factors in that. Eating at an unhealthy caloric deficit is not "eating right" and cannot be maintained. You're aware of the fact that 1800 would be a healthy amount of calories per day. If you keep eating only 1000 per day you're going to make yourself sick, and either your good health will suffer continuously or you'll start bouncing back and forth between eating a lot and then depriving yourself too much when you feel guilty for eating too much. If you think you are demonstrating symptoms of this psychological disorder you need to seek counseling.

Think of it this way: it may take a tad bit longer, but if you eat 1500-1800 calories per day you'll maintain a healthy weight and body. You'll lose weight faster by eating 1000 per day, but you can't stick with it and it'll just lead to more problems. There's nothing wrong with wanting to look good and feel comfortable in your skin, but you need to be healthy about it.

Yes, you're totally right, I'm aware of the consequences but I still want to try if it really will worths and then back to eating as I did before (this is stupid I know...). Even if I'm feeling hungry now I just can't eat too much (eat normally, I meant) because my stomach won't let me, even yesterday at lunch I just ate just a part of a chicken breast cut in small pieces and some pasta. Even a kid would eat the double or triple of what I ate. Then, I felt so bloated and really sick I went outside and walk for some time but I just couldn't avoi my stomach pain. It made me avoid eating all day long after that. Then I just felt hungry again before I went to sleep but I just drank some water... Even with exercises and healthy food habits, I'm still afraid of getting fat so I just make this crazy thing and I really don't know how long it is going to take to think normal again... Thank you for your advice, actually I'm thinking if my doctor would care about me on this, last time I went there, he just didn't take this too serious Oo... And then I got worse. My mother hasn't noticed much that I've been eating few food so far... Everyone looks at me and ask me what I did, since they tell me I'm thin. I just smile and have no words, I don't feel myself like they do about me... And sure I'm afraid of boucing back and forth between having a "food attack" and eat a lot then feel regreted and really sick... I've not been feeling weak at about 2 days, maybe I'm still giving my body some portions of the things it needs. I'm so weird...

Okay, I'm going to tell you from personal experience that ED is a serious thing. If you feel like you're starting to display eating disorder-like tendencies, I think you need to see a doctor immediately. A lot of people who get sucked into the worlds of anorexia, bulimia, EDNOS, etc., make the mistake of thinking that they are in control of their lives when they aren't and recovering from a full-blown eating disorder is much, MUCH harder than getting pulled out of the initial stages of one because it is very much a self-serving illness that is guaranteed to only get worse with time.

From what I can see in the information you've given, it sounds like you may very well be on your way to gaining an irrational fear of food and gaining weight. Please take steps to get help if you feel like you are the type of person for which this would get worse. Crash dieting is bad for you in itself, but living your life chained to a scale and being terrified of foods that don't make it onto your "safe" list is hell.

This is a very dangerous path to go down and I'm sorry so you're struggling. 1000 calories just isn't enough to be healthy, especially if you're exercising regularly. You will only feel more tired, weak and ill, as your body is probably crying out to be taken care of! If you are really set on losing weight (which at your weight you really don't need to be!) please try and implement more healthy measures. Your progress may be slower but you will be healthier overall, and more likely to keep any weight you lose off in the long term. It's especially hard when people are giving you positive reinforcement for your quick weight loss, but just remember that looking after yourself is worth more than anyone's opinion. I've battled eating disorders in the past (losing about 20 kilos) eating between 0-500 calories a day, and I was disgustingly sick. Please talk to your doctor if you feel like this is becoming a problem that is out of your control, it's better now than when you are so deep into the mindset that you can't see the problem. I wish you lots of luck and good health.

I was in your shoes before. I wanted to be thinner and healthy. I restricted myself to 700 or so calories a day and I lifted weights and did cardio almost every day of the week. I realized it didn't work when I actually began to gain fat and lose muscle. I also began calorie counting and I became really obsessed with it. It would make me physically ill if I went over my restricted caloric intake.

Please, please, please go back to healthy habits. Food is NOT your enemy at all! I promise you. From someone who's been in your shoes, hear me out and listen to me.

I stopped counting calories. I couldn't mentally handle it. I eat about 1,800-2,200 calories per day (but I don't count, I'm just guessing) and I workout 5-6 days a week. I used to only let myself eat 700-1,200 cal a day. After getting several recommendations to up my intake, I did. I never felt so good. I was actually full. I HONESTLY saw fat loss after a few weeks of upping my intake.

I let myself eat what ever I want, but I don't over do it. I have way more muscle in my body than I ever have, and I'm slowly losing fat. I don't expect to lose it right away, and I'm okay with that!! I've gotten to the point where I don't care if I ever lose any of the fat that's on my body. I'm healthy and I care more about my internal health than my outer appearance.

Seriously, I used to be really scared of food and calories. I would gain weight super easily as well. Ever since I stopped counting calories and being afraid of food, I haven't gained weight all that easily. It's merely because I've let my body consume what it desires and needs every day, and I exercise plenty. My metabolism has sped up and my over all body composition has changed. I'm much happier with my body and I feel great. I eat every 2-3 hours, no shame. I also eat large, healthy breakfasts. If I have a large breakfast like eggs, oatmeal, and a smoothie, I'm noticeably fuller all day long. I still eat every 2-3 hours, but I don't eat as much as I would if I had a smaller breakfast. I also NEVER skip breakfast. It's my favorite. x: I love waking up and eating til I'm full and happy.

Also, since I stopped counting calories, I have not binged at ALL. I used to binge all of the time, then I'd feel sooo guilty. I haven't binged in probably 2+ years. I don't punish myself for eating unhealthy food. If I have a day where I order dessert or eat cake or whatever, I don't care. It's just one day, and there's always tomorrow. There's no point in getting mad at myself for enjoying food. You shouldn't get mad at yourself either, and you really shouldn't be afraid of eating enough.

It's really, really good that you are recognizing the disorder you may have. You're one step closer to defeating it. One day I was sitting down, feeling really anxious about my caloric intake. I had cereal, then my boyfriend made an egg sandwich for me and I ate it. I couldn't stop thinking about how that ate up most of my intake for the day. That's when I had the realization that I had a problem and needed to solve it. I took control and I'm way better now. I don't obsess over as food like I used to.

I'm always here if you want to talk! If you ever feel like you're not making any progress, let me know. It always helped me to have someone to rant to if I ever felt like I was regressing.

What also helped me was appreciating my body for what it is. It's a living machine. Your bones, organs, muscles, cells- everything needs nourishment. The trillions of cells in your body are constantly using energy and nutrients to perform their duties and to replicate- all so you can wake up every morning and function throughout the day. Each cell in your body is a tiny living organism that relies on you to survive. When you don't feed them, they begin dying off and they don't function properly. Take care of the cells and tissues and everything inside of you. They keep you alive, so return the favor!!

I really agree with you and your advices are so right! Actually reminded when I was with my bf this last Sunday, I told him "Don't worry, I can control myself, I just want to see where I can get.", and he replied "Yes, every other girl with anorexia said that at first time, too. Then you know what happens...". I know I really need to get profissional medical help, my problem is that I think no one can help me psychologically like they tried before when I was in a deep depression (I've found it was me that had to fight alone in my head and not even long conversations with a doctor or pills cured me.). I'm not sure about anything, today I'm not eating anything after lunch until now (it's around 11pm here) and when I arrived home, I was irritated with everything. I'm getting easily worried with everything aroud me right now, when I shouldn't if I didn't have this problem. I'm afraid if something worse happen to me, but I don't have the guts to get out of this situation yet :S... Thank you for your help, I hope I'll find more help soon <3

Thanks for what you said, I know the mostly important thing it's to keep myself healthy. I have been taking care of my body and eating habits for months, until sometime ago when this happened to me. I had not a strong excuse to get to this extreme state - it is very dangerous indeed, even if I may not look like it is right now. I keep contradicting myself with the thruth... Losing 20kg? You were in a serious situation, glad you've stopped on time girl... I hope soon I stop with this thing too! I'm afraid of eating, afraid of getting fat, afraid of not getting thin, afraid of illness, oh, wow, it looks I'm on a tightrope... I hope I don't go lower than 1000 calories. And go up a little more soon. I don't know if I have the guts for that, I want to keep being healthy :S

oh my...I loved what you told me, made me know what you suffered and you were (and are) a strong fighter against this eating disorder! In a short period of days, I've been passing through that situation as well. About 3 weeks ago or something, I binged on food, well, I felt a high desire for bacon, lol, I ate 2 big sandwiches with so much greed and pleasure. But right away - I felt really sick and worried. The next day after that, I've felt so sad, guilty and depressed. Now I even put my breakfast cereals in little plastic bags and weight them to see if I'm not consuming more than I think I should. I got to this ridiculous situation and even now, it's not being easy to deal with this. NO matter what I've been doing during the day - I'm always thinking on this...Can't help it, you know... And yes, if you're a very active person like I am (or even more!), you need indeed to consume more calories than a person that has a normal and calm life, if I can say that. At the moment I think I should consume at least between 1800-2080 calories to be really well for my routine. And do just a half of that... Sure my body won't reply well to this, as well with my muscle and organ tissues will start to decay a little if I don't "feed" them. I don't understand myself - I AM aware of all this and the consequences (as you said, it's very good I know that), though I'm still running this risk? It's like a person that smokes - she knows it's bad for her health and it may almost kill her - but she keeps doing it - even if someone tried to help her. The will of stopping comes from our own inside. You've found a situation that made you wake up to change your mind and stop. And I'm really happy for you - you managed to get out of this pretty well and are seeing great results on yourself. And are happy for yourself, that's the mostly important thing to live well. You eat without any worry (not excessively on unhealthy food) - you do the mostly normal thing ever existed. Why should I be afraid of this? I just get mad of myself for see my reflection in the mirror and see things I don't like? So I sacrifice myself for a thing that maybe won't result very well? - Pointless.

I need to thank you again for your amazing example and advice, I will keep you up-to-date about my situation. Many hugs and keep living that way (:

Good luck. ♥

Thank so much for that ❤️

You need to speak to your doctor/a professional immediately. Do NOT wait another a month. You are headed down the exact same path I did 2 years ago and I dropped 20kg in 3 months and was eating only 0-200 calories a day at my very worst. I had zero energy, stopped attending classes at uni and just stayed in my dorm all day, and my hair started falling out in clumps. I became obsessed with seeing the number on the scale go down even though I was very sporty from an early age and have much more muscle than the average person (and therefore weigh more).

I still have days where I struggle to eat more than 1 meal a day because I wake up feeling bloated or get dressed and catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror under an unflattering light and it just ruins my entire day. It's ridiculous because I wear a US 0-2 (UK 4-6) and wear children's sizes in tshirts.

Half the battle is realising that you have a problem and working up the nerve to seek help for it.

If I stop soon I think I won't see my doctor, I need to make an effort to keep being healthy and eat normally... I'm getting some muscles now since I've been exercising, but for sure takes some time like it takes time to lose fat as well, I don't know why am I so unpatient and anxious to get to that goal... Somtetimes that thing of you look at yourself in the mirror and the light issue ruins me too. My belly sometimes is bloated and it makes me think I'm fat. My pants are larger and always falling down my legs if I don't but a belt on them, lol. As I said, I don't know if this situation will last for more time, but from what I see, I may not get totally "cured" and I will always binge on food or the afraid of getting fat, even if I keep my old eating habits. I know it's great I'm conscious of what I have and the sympthoms, maybe that is causing me even more fear.

(Why did you get that username Norther, by the way? From the music band :)? )

I know what it's like to look in the mirror and not like what you see. I accept my body for what it is, but some days I wish I was thinner. It's worse when I go clothes shopping. I nearly cry every time I try on clothes at the store. I'm still working on accepting that I can't fit into tiny shorts.

I hope you get better and feel better about yourself. ♥ My inbox is always open if you want to talk.

So you know how hard this is, we cannot see that we are just fine how we are and how people tell us, so we get easily frustrated because we are not enough for ourselves. Everytime I went to clothes shopping I kinda felt that too, I've had to try a thousand things and be in the front of the mirror a lot of time to accept the clothes on me. I've always did everything to hide my belly so I could look thinner... Actually it is getting flat progressively, but I'm just too frustrated to wait. I still need to accept my hips shape - they're a little large (making me a little curvy, lol) - but that I can't help, it's just bones and I can't really do nothing about it. But, because of that, I will never dress many tiny shorts as I would like to dress. But I'm starting to fit well in some of my clothes that were tight before, and in other way, some of my pants are always falling down because they got too large for me Oo. With all this, I can't decide what should I do to be happy with myself. I get frustrated just by looking at other skinny person who have they clothes on them that fit really well. SIlly, isn't it?...

Really really thank you for everything, I know I can count with you and please let me know if you want to talk about this or anything you need with me too. :) ❤️

I was obsessed with my weight starting at 16, I was bullied and that is what started it I think. I actually ending up gaining weight because I was doing it completely wrong. I was eating just junk food, like one huge meal a day of junk food. By the time I was 18 I was 155 pounds. I managed to lose about 10 pounds just by being out of high school and by cutting out soda and drinking tea or coffee instead. I still felt horrible. When I was 19 I cut out all junk food. If it was a pre packaged meal or snack and it had more than 200 calories I didn't eat it. Then I found out that fat was also bad and I cut that out. I kept an online food journal and tried getting no more than 1000 a day ((that was on a bad day) I usually aimed for 800-900. Every day I only would eat oatmeal, potato, rice, and sometimes have a sweet snack. I was running between 6 and 9 miles a week, I did 100+ sit ups a day along with other things. This went on for a while. I ate normally a couple times, like for my birthday but besides that I stuck to the diet. I dropped to 122 pounds (I'm 5'6 by the way) and started having health problems. I was randomly losing my sight and almost passing out. My rib bones were sticking out underneath my collar bone. Turns out I developed scoliosis during the last year sometime (no idea if that's related or not) I am hypoglycemic, and have orthostatic hypotension. My DR told my mom that I have an eating disorder and should see a nutritionist. Instead she took an interest in my eating habits for all of 5 seconds, and even bought me some food (another reason for ED- I had to buy my own food! I didn't even have a job at the time!) after about a week she didn't care again. I gained three pounds back. It's been over a year now and I haven't gained anymore of the weight back despite going back to a normal eating habit most of the time (although I do try to stay around 1200 calories a day). I became a vegetarian for moral reasons but that is also helping me not gain the weight back. I'm still not happy with myself. I've lost around 30 pounds and am at my original goal weight but I don't even feel that different than before. I wish I could go back to barely eating but now when I try to I end up binging late at night. Not good!

To be officially diagnosed as an anorexic though you have to lose a certain percent of your body weight within a certain time (I was like 1% short of being considered anorexic by this way) and have missed your period for at least like three months (never happened to me.)

Junk food is not at all healthy and eating only 1 meal per day not healthy either,that's why you were gaining more weight. I really knew what bullying is in my past, people who suffer are more likely to be more anxious to food attacks, I'm sure. I've been aiming to 900 calories lately, not sure if been eatig only fitess cereals with 0% fat milk at breakfast and lean meat or fish with rice, pasta or boiled potatoes or vegetables and bread with soy butter at lunch and more 3 cookies (each have 50 calories, so 3=150) or a piece of fruit are enough to reach 900 or 1000 per day. During week I've been eating only 2 meals then after lunch I don't eat more, I eat alot of water instead and sometimes milk or tea. At weekends I may eat some snack at night. I've been avoiding anything with fat, and also avoid eating what I most like, sugary things... You've felt on your skin what's the price of losing weight/body fat really fast, it'spretty dangerous I know that... Not sure about the scoliosis, I have a friend with that but nothing to do with eating disorders, well, I have no idea... But hypoglicemy and hypotension were caused by your disorder indeed. I need to be really careful with this kind of things, I tend to have hypotension, since I was younger, I've always been with my tension levels usually low. I've been feeling dizzy sometimes and yesterday I've felt I was almost passing out on the bus. I know many people do not get back to their original weight, and it seems you still have afraid to consume more calories than you want. 1200 a day it's the minimum you should take, but if you exercise you will need more. I should consume at least 1600-1800. I was thinking about being vegetarian one day too, I think would be healthier, but I still have to eat the meat my mother buys to me or she gets really upset, lol. Vegetarianism would be a good option to me, but I'm not sure about that right now. So you can't eat normally or something more one time that you'll feel automatically sick? oh :S... You're right, I think I've been on the road to anorexy but didn't get clearly there yet. I'm really afraid if my period disappears!!!

Haha yeah, I learned it the hard way. My mother is morbidly obese and she was the one doing the food shopping and making the meal decisions, so most of the time I was either eating fast food or processed crap. She has this thing she calls "breakfast lunch" or "lunch dinner" where she just eats a ton of crap. Once I was 18 I had to buy my own food and I stopped eating fast food.

When I was aiming for 800-900 calories, I was so pissed at how quickly things add up. That's why I resorted to just the potato/oat meal/rice, those things combined still leave room for a snack. I used to treat myself to one ghiradelli dark chocolate square if I stuck to my food plan. I find that if you let yourself have like one small good thing a day (not a 2000 calorie sundae =p) it helps a lot.

Forgot- I'm also anemic! I was anemic before being a vegetarian so it's because I don't eat meat now. I carry granola bars with me now. I used to avoid them but they are the only thing that really works when I'm feeling like I'm going to pass out. I have friends that are also hypoglycemic so I give them out to people too, it seems to help everyone. I don't know what to do about the low blood pressure though. Usually something salty helps (I get the sweet n salty granola bars) but not always.

I aim for 1200 at least now. Some days it's hard to do- I'm not even hungry enough to eat that much and other days I go over it easily.

I hid being a vegetarian from my parents for months. She eventually put two and two together (why is she buying morningstar and not eating chicken anymore?) and I got a call from my brother frantically demanding "ARE YOU PREGNANT?! MOM SAID YOU ARE EATING HEALTHY AND THAT COULD ONLY MEAN ONE THING!" I was like "WTF no..." She's okay with it most of the time now. My boyfriend's mother pretends to be okay with it then randomly freaks out on me. She's a horrible cook in the first place so I usually didn't eat with them anyway, but she made a chicken dish the other night and started yelling at me "WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO EAT?! I HAVE SOME VEGETABLES IN THE FREEZER. YOU WANT SOME VEGETABLES?! YOU KNOW, YOU'RE MISSING OUT ON A WONDERFUL MEAL. WHY DON'T YOU LIKE CHICKEN?!" -boyfriend calmly explains to her that it's not that I don't like it, it's that I'm a vegetarian "SHE DIDN'T USED TO BE A VEGETARIAN! JUST GO BACK TO EATING MEAT!" At this point I was just like... wtf crazy lady?

I would freak out if my period stopped. I'm so paranoid about pregnancy (I'm majorly tokophobic) so that motivated me to eat a little better lol.

You were obligated to eat what she bought because you had no choice... My mother doesn't buy any fast or processed food, but I think she should buy more healthy food. I receive few money from my course every month, but it's eough to buy some things like fruit, cereals and some more things I need for my diet. So I always find a way to eat what I want. Your mother needs to see what she is doing, she is getting slowly killed by food O_o... When I started doing diet, I was used to eat one or two small squares of dark chocolate almost everyday, I've read online articles that say it is pretty healthy. And that is true, if I keep eating as well potatoes, oat meals or rice, I always have a "slot" opened for a little snack :).

Oh girl, being anemic is too dangerous, granola bars are great and healthy but aren't enough to help you with that. You should try to consume some beet juice, I've heard it's good for anemic persons :). My doctor told me if I have low blood pressure too, I should drink coffee, but I don't like so I'd rather consume some salt (I love satly things, but I've been avoiding it because doesn't help to lose weight), but it doesn't seem to help much. I'm worse when I sleep less, but actually I'm pretty used to it. I still have appetite to eat, but when I eat I always get bloated even if I ate little food. I even feel sick more times than usual... lol, what a situation there... I'm really afraid if my period stops sometime, I'm paranoid about pregnancy too, I fear all the things about it actually XD.

Few minutes ago, while replying you, I almost passed out and went to bed a little, I've been shaking with no reason..,.

sorry the ping got lost in the sea of art pings from my group x_x

Yeah, my mother is obsessed with food so I don;t think she'll ever learn. She was almost killed by food last month- she ate at a food place and had a severe allergic reaction. Normally that would wake people up, not her. She's still eating at the place. I heard on the news that dark chocolate is good for heart and brain health and has anti oxidants in it. Awesome. Some people hear that and eat like 10 pounds of it a day though haha. They think "if it's healthy I can eat as much of it as I want!" I was watching a fat-person-trying-to-lose-weight show the other day, they asked the woman about her eating habits and she said she eats at least 5 pounds of apples a day! Plus a ton of junk food! Because apples are healthy! It's better than eating 5 pounds of fat but still!

I've never heard of drinking beet juice for anemia! People recommended spinach but it is constantly being recalled (it's being recalled right now actually)... I don't want to risk getting salmonella. I'm taking vitamins for it now.

I hated coffee until I went to college. I'm an art major and it helped a lot. It also helped with weight loss (so does Green tea if you like tea). I'm kind of addicted to it now, which is bad.

I know how you feel, I've been feeling like I'm going to pass out all day. I'm so stressed out because my cat is sick, I feel like a zombie. I can't sleep. She's not eating and I feel bad if I eat x_x. I'm just waiting for her blood test results now.

I think you're heading towards a dangerous pathway. From experience, back 2 years ago I use to skip meals. I'd only have a small breakfast, no lunch and barely any dinner. My day consisted of 40mins of running every day and 2 hours of hockey training twice a week. It wasn't good for me. After a year or so of doing this, I developed a problem. Very bad indigestion/heartburn often (most days). :/ I went to the doctors after I developed this issue and he just said "now that you have it, you can't really stop it. you can only relive the symptoms". He also suggested I started introducing my body to 3 meals a day again and snacks in between. His advice has definitely helped me. 2 years later, I am still getting heartburn/indigestion but definitely not as often as when I use to skip meals. Please, see a doctor as soon as you can. You definitely don't want to go down this path. It just causes so many other medical issues.

Also I hope you feel better soon about yourself and get better ❤️

omg her desire for food is so big that she still runs the risk of almost dying again :O? Oh, I hope she wakes up someday... Indeed dark chocolate and apples are really good, people who are on diet are used to eat a bunch of them. But not together with junk food, lol :). And yes, beet juice is good for that (though I've never tasted it, my mother used to make it for my dad when he got very ill because of cancer, and she used to mix the beet juice with apple juice, or else it could taste a little like dirt, she said, not sure..). I dislike spinach, though they're pretty healthy, but just don't run that risk, take your vitamins frequently and you'll gett better :). I used to take some as well when I was a teen, took them for a while because I almost didn't eat due to my depressions by bullying.

Coffee helps on that, I agree, but still don't like xD. Actually today I've bought some stuff and also bought green tea because I know it helps losing some things.

Weirdly, from Sunday to today, I've had a strong appetite for food so I almost ate normally, but since Sunday night, I've been with colics. I think my body is not used to normal meals anymore... I ate a chicken and cheese toast and ate some fried chips (awful, just awful), then a piece of cake. It tasted so well but I'm soo regreted now! Tomorrow I think I'll keep with my eating routine...well, at least keep eating healthy! And eating less, my intestins hurt, lol. And when I've entered on bus to get back home this evening, I've felt sick once again... my stomach can't stand much pressure lately... Actually I've felt happier for a moment when I ate almost "normally" this days I told you, but for what? Now I've been thinking about it and I need to make some more efforts not to get backwards... Tomorrow I'll practise a bigger exercise session, I've not been doing it for about 5 days (been way too busy, though I've been walking really long distances, but it's not enough).

Weirdly, las week my belly disappeared a little more but yesterday I weight myself and still have almost the same weight as I had 2 weeks ago. What is happening? It's just a number, I know, and if I've been losing something, why doesn't the number get lower? My clothes are getting large, wow...

I feel stressed easier lately too, because of this and more problems here, but I think that things get solved soon... Ohh I really hope you and your kitty get well soon <3

While you started doing that, did you had any day where you ate something you shouldn't and ate as much times as a normal person eats? Like, an exceptional day? And then the next day you got back to your unhealthy routine? I've been skipping some meals too, I just eat well at breakfast and I can say 've been eating ok at lunch. Just not eating anything else during afternoon, except drinking water, because my stomach feels bad for the lunch I ate few hours ago... Before all this, I got diagnosed with some small issues at my gall bladder, I have two little bits of cholesterol on its walls, which helps me to have an occasional "upset" stomach. And not eating correctly makes me suffer a little more from it, I know... You know really well that our body starts to reject food when it gets used to have it less times and in less quantity. I get easily bloated and sick... I'm used to have heartburn sometimes, my stomach is kinda sensible to anything, I take pills when I feel with that, but not much often. Your help is great, keeping me warned about the severity of this situation and advising me to go see my doctor asap is really important. I didn't go see him because I'm not sure for how long am I going to be like this and because I'm almost sure he won't take this too seriously... But, on the other hand, I'm so afraid!... And afraid of never getting totally cured like you didn't :( Thank you for everything, best wishes for you and I hope someday I will wake up from this nightmare