Yeah there were days that I ate like a normal person, very rarely though. :/ I didn't feel well after those days though when I forced myself to eat 3 meals a day cause my body got use to me not eating a lot. Oh no :( I know how you feel about easily getting bloated and sick. That was what I was like at first. I still get those problems sometimes now but it's not as bad. Like tonight I have it. D; I had to take some medicine to help me feel better. Since when I tried to introduce my body back to 3 meals a day and snacks inbetween, it's been doing well. I can tell you though, I don't eat as much as you use to at all but that's okay . :) My main goal was just to eat 3 meals a day. I think it helps setting little goals to work towards is good. :) What also helped was that I set up auto-texts on my phone . I get a text reminding me when to eat (eg. 7am, 12pm, 6pm) . After I got into that eating habit and my body started getting use to it (it took maybe like 4-5 months for me), I incorporated small snacks throughout the day. At first I only started like for example... around 10am I'd have a snack. Then after my body got use to that I started having a small snack at 10am and around 3pm again. That's where I'm at right now. :)

I know how you feel about being afraid. :( It's definitely a huge step to even admit you have an issue with eating and yet alone to accept you need help from doctors. :/ I am a stubborn person also when it comes to that because I just seem to have a lot of pride, even though I shouldn't. My parents always told me that I needed to eat more but I just couldn't physically anymore by that stage. Like my body just... wouldn't. But there just came a point one day where I realised I was getting really sick and if I didn't go to the doctors to check what's wrong with me something worse could happen to me than what I was feeling. In a way I am glad I have other health problems that won't cause too much harm to me. They're so annoying but they aren't super severe compared to ones I could have gotten if I didn't go for help in time.

I think to overcome eating disorders you need to have the right mindset. I got into the habit because of something silly. I had low self esteem about myself because this guy I liked at the time was being a complete douchebag to me, I was also super sad because my best friend moved back to his country and wasn't coming back and I was also self concious about eating in front of people during school (which is why I didn't eat at lunch). By the time I got home I just felt so crap so I didn't eat. That's how it all started for me. It was hard for me to get out of that negative cycle. What helped was just having a positive attitude towards things and building my self esteem up and knowing what other people think about me doesn't matter.

So you still suffer a little because of it but you're working well in scheduling your meals and eating snacks inbetween, you can handle it :). You're right, all disorders come from our mind and actually it's pretty hard to change it... I'm very stubborn too, and I'm very selfish and demanding with myself, which doesn't help to change my mind easily. During this weekend I've said to myself that I'm sick of starving and sacrificing myself by refusing food or being very strict on what I eat, I love food and always did, and what I've seen since I've started all this until now was only little changes on my body, except the fact I was starting to being ill and feeling very tired for anything. So I've decided to try to eat normally since now. The problem it's that when I already feel full, I will eat a little more, like, I attacked food yesterday, I'm very anxious which made me eat almost like a crazy person... and, nnow that I try to eat normally, I always get sick during any meal and after it, but I don't throw up anything. I've been getting too much pleasure in eating and tasting food, but I'm still very afraid and being impatient with myself, and very, very sad and frustrated about how I am now, physically and psychologically... I'm pretty confused about this, I don't have much tendecies to get easily fat only by eating well, butt I'm thinking if I will get fat anyway, I just hope my belly do not get bigger or I will get even more crazy. I think been drinking gree tea and other tea that helps me to lose weight will help me a bit if I control myself on food and don't stop exercising. And I've bought a draining liquid at a pharmacy that will help me to deflate and slenderize my belly, and cut down a little bit my appetite for food. I hope it helps, it helped me once in the past, though hurted my intestines a little bit, lol. But I could control my eating habits with that for a while.

Everyone I know is telling me I'm very pretty and I'm just fine how I am and telling me too that I don't need to starve myself or making crazy diets to be fine, just need to be careful with what I eat and ignore the little defects I may have on my body. I smile but I feel on my skin it's not easy to think that way, I'm a very pessimistic person and I just think I can't change my mind about what I think about myself. But starting to eat better, even if I get frequently sick about it, it's a good thing, so I won't get ill like I was starting to be. MY sister talked with me 2 days ago to support me and she helped me a little bit, she is really worried about me like she never was before...

You said that the reason why you started having that disorder it was silly, we may think the reasons for doing this crazy things are silly, but they are strong enough to let us down...

If liquids, pills, and crash diets actually worked, then everyone would be as skinny as they want to be. I wouldn't put any of that kind of stuff into my body. No miracle liquid exists that will flatten your belly and help you control your appetite. YOU must do that! Your belly will only flatten if you eat properly and exercise.

If it's hurting your belly, then that is your body telling you to stop drinking it. It is harming your digestive system. You need to stop drinking it before you permanently damage your stomach and intestines.

You were the one controlling your appetite, not the liquid! Eating properly is a mind game.

You're really right, maybe this liquid and some pills I will start tomorrow taking will help in my metabolism acceleration, appetite control or whatever they'll help, but combined with exercise and food control will make me reach in to a good result. I will just try. If they harm my digestive sistem, I'll stop for sure. I know it's a mind game, my bad it's that my mind is as stubborn as I am, it's really hard to change it x(... Following your great advice will be the best thing for me I'm sure, I hope my weakness disappear and I get more patience to see the results of working out/eating well as the time goes by.. Thank you <3

Once it harms your digestive system, there's a chance it cannot repair itself.

You don't need liquid or pills to help you lose weight, especially if you're eating healthy and exercising. The pills and liquid are fake and harmful.

The liquid didn't make you control your appetite, YOU did it!! That's what I meant by a mind game. You indirectly tricked your mind into thinking a liquid was going to help you control your appetite, so in turn you were able to control your own appetite. Does that make any sense?

I hope I can help out!! I don't want you hurting your organs. :( Permanent damage is something that can negatively affect you for the rest of your life.

It may repair, but it is possible to take a long time for that happening...I've read well everything about what I will consume and it seems pretty legit. But I still know that not everyone can take it... I'm going to take that risk but I still feel afraid. That makes all sense to me, really! I've been trying to trick myself, my mind I mean, though not sure if it's necessary. I'm just getting obsessed with everything, idk _ I really like you for the support you've been giving to me, I don't wan't to make my friends worried or sad because of my silly obsession, I listen to all of you but I'm pretty sad with myself...I hope I'm not on the road with a dead-end!!

Yes I still suffer a bit. :( I don't know if there will ever be a day when I'm completely healed again. It comes and goes for me. I know how you feel about being all stubborn about it. It took me a very long time to accept the fact there was something wrong, yet alone the fact I needed to fix it.

I think just don't overwhelm your body. Start off with little goals. : ) You said you eat breakfast and a small lunch. Maybe try adding in just dinner for now. When you feel more comfortable you can increase the size of your lunch/dinner. Then work on getting snacks in. :) Don't try to make it all work in a day. :/ It will definitely get you sick because your body isn't use to it.

I don't know what you look like but I'm sure you are pretty like all your family, friends and boyfriend have told you. And you are fine the way you are, you just have to learn how to love yourself. I think you should focus on ways to have a balanced healthy lifestyle rather than 'losing weight'. By that I mean keep on focusing with exercising while having healthy eating habits and eating healthy food. I think for now what you should do is start increasing the amount of meal times each day without overwhelming your body. Also keep exercising like you currently do. You'll be recovering well in no time. :3

I'm a student nurse at the moment and I recently learnt that those draining liquids aren't good for your body. D : They do a lot of harm more than good in the long run. For some people it backfires and they gain more weight in the end when they stop taking them. Drinking green tea is good for you though, lots and lots of antioxidants. :)

Too bad you still suffer about that, you seem to be a great person and doesn't diserve to suffer for that reason :... Yes it's taking time to accept this is wrong, but I hope the time heals all this issues I've been through. I don't want to harm my body, I just can't pay for many treatments. I will try to be careful and keep my healthy and active routine, I hope I'm like other persons who keep and healthy life and their body have good results as the time goes by. I want to be more patient with myself and other things, I just go out of my mind sometimes, but I want this to stop. Thanks again for the advices, I've been adding meals to my day and I don't feel so weak now, though it's been hard to feel always bloated because my stomach still doesn't accept normal amounts of food, I'm doing it slowly I guess. Also, I was pretty used to eat snacks inbetween meals, that won't be hard for me :). I wish I will feel like my friends, family and people on the web think of me, and soon! I really want that. Actually I was starting to feel very healthy before doing this mistake, if I stop now, my body will reply positively because I didn't get that far. I've lost little weight in a week, but probably I will gain it again since I'm starting to eat more seriously. Weight's just a number anyway, I just want to feel fit and have a good and athletic shape someday. I want to be pleased and proud of myself when I reach that goal, and sure it will take alot of time and dedication, I want to get there, I need to avoid thinking about the time it will take. Not easy at first. I will probably be like you in the future - will always suffer sometimes about this, I have low self-esteem which doesn't help me at all... And actually yesterday I've read something about what antioxidants make, they seem very good so I will try to buy something rich on antioxidants. Thanks again for everything, wish you a wonderful day :) <3

jhsdg I hate it when anyone at all has issues with their body, I really do. I'm sorry that you feel like you're heading down that way, but glad that you want to do something about it! I know for a fact that starving yourself to get thin does not work, as once you decide to start eating properly again you'll just put all that weight back on. It's actually a lot more healthy to eat three healthy meals a day and exercise if you want to tone up or lose weight. I don't really have any experience with this, but as a side effect of my depression I have difficulty eating. My mum has threatened me with hospitalisation a couple times when she catches me not eating. I'm 5'3" and used to weigh around 66kg, and I dropped to about 55kg. It's probably a bit more than that now but I dropped a whole dress size. However, that wasn't because I had a desire to be thinner or anything, I was perfectly happy with my body beforehand.

If you don't feel like eating three main meals in a day, snaking on smaller (still healthy) things is also good. That's also a good way to allow your body to get used to eating properly again. If you're feeling really hungry, maybe try and not binge but just have something and drink plenty of water. Sometimes when you're feeling hungry it's actually just your body telling you that it needs water! Maybe you could also benefit from joining a gym or seeing a nutritionist? Maybe if you got someone else to work out with you and you could check in with each other on what you've been doing and eating? That way you can both keep each other in check!

Sorry I didn't have much help to offer, but I hope you start feeling better about your body.

Time definitely plays a huge role in this matter and I think it comes down to being patient with time and yourself. : ) You're working hard towards that though which is good. I know it's not something that can happen in a day. :P So don't beat yourself up about it. ❤️ Seems like you're starting to add in some changes :) Yeah, bloating will happen for a while. It will stop though soon. c: Keep sticking to those changes though, stay strong and don't let yourself give in to those bad habits.

That's a good goal in the overall scheme of things. I am sure you will be able to achieve it . You sound like a determined person. c:

Yes antioxidants are really good. :) They get rid of free radicals which cause things like cancer. They also boost your immune system, promote healthy cell production and many other things. Great foods to eat with them that I usually try to eat a lot of is spinach, broccoli, green tea, carrots and kiwi. :D

It's okay lovely. :) If you ever want to message me feel free to. I'm happy to listen and help . c:

Starving doesn't work because indeed I would get back to normal as soon as I would start eating normally again. Now I've been doing a normal breakfast, then eat lunch (but always left something on the plate, lol getting bloated easily), then in the middle of afternoon I eat a snack or something and I have a dinner (eat few). I'm always thirsty and I can't avoid drinking water for more than a hour, I've been always drinking it or else I can't stand myself :)...

I need to be very careful about not being too many consecutive hours during day without eating - I always end binging on food. Today someone asked me if I didn't want to go to a nutricionist but I refused, I will try to pass this all by myself. It was me that started all this anyway...

I'm also 5'3" and lately I used to weight about 61,4kg, but last week I've lost more than 1kg so I'm weighting 60,3kg. I feel like I've lost something and now I'm taking jellybean-shaped capsules during my bigger meals, which it will help my body to convert easily the sugars in energy and transport them to the muscles instead of storing them on my reserves of fat mass or something I don't know how to explain it very well, but it also gives my body some vitamins and antioxidants which are great and also helps to reduce fat mass. I hope it helps. Today I got back to exercise myself normally and run/walk a lot, aswell it other things. Though I've felt sick all day, but it's my stomach getting used to its normal routine.

I totally hope I will feel better with it soon indeed, and I think all the nice compliments I've been getting from people about the photos of my photography session are helping me, as well with the fact that some clothes, specially jeans that didn't fit on me for years are now fitting really well. Almost ;)

I shouldn't beat myself up, I do not treat my body like I should, it probably hates me :) I'm recovering and it's being a little hard, since I've starved and now doing anything while having pain and having discomfort on my digestive organs it's an obstacle I've been through. But, as I'm used to say about many things - it's temporary. It won't last, probably. Sometimes I obligate myself to eat, but I feel like I'm going to die or something, lol. I do not feel relieved at all after eating, the only thing that keeps me up is drinking water at any time. I'm not that strong sometimes you know, but I think I have the capacity to try being it, at least :)

Yes, I've always heard about how good antioxidants are to prevent diseases like cancer. And all that good things :). I don't like spinach, brocolli or kiwi either, lol! But I eat other green veggies and boiled vegetables, and carrots are pretty good too :). Sometimes I drink different teas, but I've been driking lately green tea, I hate the taste (even more without sugar xD), but not every good thing for us taste good, right ;)?

Thank you for giving me the opportunity of talking with you about this, I will keep you and everyone here up-to-date about me ;)

REALLY, thanks everyone so much for your care and advices, lovely people here :D