Hi. Waves I saw you ride horses. I love horses! When I was young, I had two, one after the other. Brandy was a chestnut mix and Chico was a bay Registered Quarter Horse. Idk what happened to all my pics of them. These are all I could find. The little boy on Chico was so cute. He was just visiting and wasn't the least afraid to sit on that big horse. But Chico was the best natured horse I ever knew. I would not have trusted Brandy like that, esp with no lead rope or anything. :)

hahaha lol! Well nothing bad happend to you then. Same here.

So got anything fr valentines day? Not me, i worked

Happy Valenties Day everyone! Sorry for being mia, life kept me busy.

Happy Valentine's, everyone!

I have had a pretty weird day yesterday and today. First, yesterday, while I was at work, I had a nervous system overload. I was shaking and crying, and all I felt like doing was screaming. I was at work, so I had to be professional. I told my coworkers I needed a minute. I tried to get myself out of it by going outside in the cold, and I messaged my therapist right away, but she wasn't getting back to me fast enough. I called my mom, and she talked for a little while, and it helped, but not enough. I then tried to put on some music, and that seemed to calm me down more than anything else. But as I was calming down, my hands were opening and closing, so I grabbed a highlighter and kept popping the cap on and off to give my hands something to do. I was able to work after a few minutes, but was not taking patients. I stayed in the back processing specimens. I thought I would have to call my supervisor to let me go home early, but I didn't. I stuck through the shift, which wasn't the best choice. I was shaking and tense the whole rest of my shift. When I got home, I finally felt able to breathe and relax.

I have never experienced that before. I was freaking out cause I had no idea what was going on. Even today, I have to work a 5-hour shift. I was fine before I got into the building. Once I got into the building, I started shaking again and felt my muscles tense up. I quickly put my music on and got to work on the drawing rooms and processing room, readying them for opening. But when I took my first patients, I was very, very shaky, and trying to stick someone while shaking is not fun.

But hey, I made it through both shifts, and I know how to somewhat get myself out of the overload. But it was a scary situation.

Hey Everyone!

Ugh.... Still no survival? :( Been stopping in to see if it started yet. What do they call MID-February? LoL Anyways...

Hope everyone is doing well.... Im just around being lazy from my chores and instead crocheting and reading my book LoL

Anyways just wanted to check in and let u all know im still alive. I'll be on more when survival starts. Toodles....

survival like most events are alwaya late and never start on a set date. Last year it started at the end of february, so betting it will now to.

your mind and body are telling you something, better listen.

It's 5:22am, awake from 3:30am... woring at 7am... going to be a long day...

Only I am not sure what my body was saying to me. I have been at that job for almost 2 years now and nothing like that has ever happened to me before. I am further my education so I'll be able to leave if I wanted to once i graduate but I have to graduate first. I also want to keep up with my phlebotomy skills because it is a good skill to fall back on if I need it. I guess I will have to see how next week goes and then go from there.

How horrible for you. That sounds like a full blown panic attack. Is that the same job where they made you stay when something awful happened? I'm sorry, I'm dim today and I can't remember exactly what you had said. Were you able to talk to your therapist? That is definitely the first thing. I hope they can shed some light and maybe help with something you can do so it doesn't happen again, or if it does, you will be prepared.

My neuro surgeon said once that "God and the mind work in mysterious ways." I agree. :) It's not even close to the same, but many years ago my Grandfather passed away and I didn't cry or really grieve for five years, even tho I really loved him. He was a wonderful person. All of a sudden a man came into the Dr's office where I worked and out of the blue I crashed in grief. I could not stop crying. It was so weird but powerful. And the only thing he and my Grandfather had in common was they were about the same age. They looked nothing alike. But when I looked up and saw him, it was like a tidal wave of emotion. It was awful, and embarrassing, and I sounded like an idiot trying to explain when I didn't understand it myself...

Valentine's Day was nice. Hubby got me McDonald's pancakes, roses, lots of sushi, AND special cakes that were so adorable I felt bad for eating xD

I started with the back because the face was too cute xD

Also yesterday I finally got my next Kafka's Men book out for pre-order. I would update my siggy with the link but for some reason I can't update my siggy at all >.<

It is the same job that made us continue to work at another location after my original location received a shooting threat. I was able to talk with my therapist that same day after my shift. She didn't want to fill me with too much information during the panic attack to cause it to get worse. We actually had a live session that day at 4, so I was very happy that it happened on that same day to be able to talk through it and come up with a game plan for if it happens again.

Oh, that is perfect!

How nice! What were the cakes? Sound adorable if you didn't want to eat them. <3

They were these little round critters with eyes and teeth. All pink and soooo much frosting.

I still have some left xD

Sounds cute! :)

rest, not to much things at once and take care of yourself.

oh nice! And the pancakes sounds yummy!

yep the mind/body/god work in mysterious ways.

Well valentines day for me as a single was boring, i worked and got nothing. And as usual subby is taking his time for the zombies to arrive

Did you buy any discounted any chocolate the day after? That's what the real holiday is for singles =D

I think my cold is getting better. For valentines we spent time with my sister and niece then took her husband and grandbabies that are staying with them out to dinner. We also played catch and chase the ball with the 18 months baby and six year old before dinner.

wishes on star like little Tiana for event to start please please please.

sweet valentine.

I hate that happened to you. Glad you had a session so close. Emotion is a weird thing and can hit at the weirdest times where our brain has no clue why. The coping things my counselor and friends gave me work in many cases but not all and sometimes I have no idea why.

no discounted chocolates here.. :( I checked found nothing. But mom send me (a day late) a chocolate heart for valentines.

gld you are doing better.

Still no zombies or updates. Each stinking year it's the same here...

And i am in LOVE with the wild bovyne! Looks a bit like a schottish highlander cow. I am 500csc short.... Anyone have any csc for cheap for me?

Got my loyalty box (5 years) so i can get a pet slot.

What?! No discounted chocolates?!

.<

Good thing your mom has your back :)

What is going on?! Still not Survival and not even an update. What the hell! All the updates are about Kumos, like do the normal events on legacy and then continue with Kumos. Mom and I are getting more and more pissed off that Kumos is taking up their time instead of the events that everyone is waiting for. This is BS.

Hopefully Survival will start soon It started on the 20th last year.

I hate Kumos. It's ugly, clunky and most stuff doesn't work there yet so their insistance we do more and more there is super frustrating. When I go there most things are broken. It's better than it was I suppose but still not really usable for me.