I will check my wardrobe. I am not sure I have anything to match the flowers. My daughter is begging me to try the new grilled cheese pizza from Pizza hut. We will probably have that tonight. I am going to be taking my niece shopping tomorrow for her Halloween costume. I will probably spend the rest of the weekend cleaning and hopefully relaxing. I want to go see Storks, but I usually try to wait until it has been out at least a week.

Thank you ❤

I don't have cable either and I never run out of stuff to watch on Netflix, though I DID recently start renting DVDs again, so I can watch some of the movies that are really new, not streaming yet.

I was responding to your comment (to me, not here, obviously) about tablets vs laptops and I lost the entire thing, ugh. It just disappeared, after I'd typed several sentences. I will recreate it in a bit. I just woke up!

I can totally relate to that. I could NEVER create any sort of poetry w/out actually putting a pen to the paper. I don't know how anyone writes a story, poem, or play by sitting at a typewriter or keyboard. The process the mind uses to type is completely different than the one to write with a pen or pencil. I did SO much writing before I was ever able to type that it took me about 10 yrs after that to even be able to write the way I am at this moment (chit chatting) with a keyboard. It's natural NOW, but it was NOT at first. I could not connect my thoughts to the act of typing for a LONG time. I could NEVER in a million years write a poem using a keyboard. It makes absolutely no sense at all.

That's cool that you do hands on stuff like knitting. I used to crochet, and I still would, but there are real world difficulties with musculo-skeletal stuff that prevent me. If it were simply hand pain I might tolerate it, but it's more complicated--repetitive movement goes into my neck and eventually down my back. I was actually injuring myself from crocheting before I gave it up (a LONG time ago).

YES, and your direction with that particular task was SO valuable. I had completely given up on trying to fix that leashing text.

Well I know that most people say that age is just a number, but it's not so when you're chronically ill. I have Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, which is the ED-S that I mentioned. Nowadays it's being diagnosed in children who are between 8 and 12 cause that's when it first becomes obvious. When my sister and I were showing the signs (at that age) we were told it was growing pains, cause it was the 60's and nobody had a clue. Nowadays there are pediatricians who specialize in it, who can help children have manageable lives, but for those of us born in the 50's and 60's it's somewhat of a nightmare. It's only manageable to the extent that now I have home caregivers. I haven't been able to work for over 20 yrs, but the social security admin didn't see it that way, so I had to fight for it for nearly 6 yrs. I see how kids with the condition are given a lot of attention to help them manage their lives, but as far as what's available to me (as an aging poor person with very limited healthcare) I honestly feel I'm a throwaway person. The doctor I see (at a community clinic) never even heard of ED-S before I was his patient. There are millions of us and we are of all ages, but the medical community keeps saying it's a rare condition, when it's not actually. As long as it's considered rare they don't teach about it, but I believe there are a TON of people walking around who have it and have NO clue why they're in pain, and have never been properly diagnosed. I have a lot of different things (such as plantar fascitis) that are in addition to ED-S (or maybe as a result of?) and none of those are even getting the doctor's attention. They see me as one big lump of something they don't understand and they ignore any focus I attempt to put on details that would be addressed if we lived in a world where health care were important. I've accepted it. I have my social security, and subsidized housing and people who shop and cook and I have a LOT more than many people who are struggling with health and poverty issues. I have to look at myself in terms of being global

So, bottom line is that I have no clue what it feels like to deal with aging issues, cause I've been feeling as if I were aging since I was in my teens, and it's not just me.

I don't have cable either and I never run out of stuff to watch on Netflix, though I DID recently start renting DVDs again, so I can watch some of the movies that are really new, not streaming yet.

I was responding to your comment (to me, not here, obviously) about tablets vs laptops and I lost the entire thing, ugh. It just disappeared, after I'd typed several sentences. I will recreate it in a bit. I just woke up!

I can totally relate to that. I could NEVER create any sort of poetry w/out actually putting a pen to the paper. I don't know how anyone writes a story, poem, or play by sitting at a typewriter or keyboard. The process the mind uses to type is completely different than the one to write with a pen or pencil. I did SO much writing before I was ever able to type that it took me about 10 yrs after that to even be able to write the way I am at this moment (chit chatting) with a keyboard. It's natural NOW, but it was NOT at first. I could not connect my thoughts to the act of typing for a LONG time. I could NEVER in a million years write a poem using a keyboard. It makes absolutely no sense at all.

That's cool that you do hands on stuff like knitting. I used to crochet, and I still would, but there are real world difficulties with musculo-skeletal stuff that prevent me. If it were simply hand pain I might tolerate it, but it's more complicated--repetitive movement goes into my neck and eventually down my back. I was actually injuring myself from crocheting before I gave it up (a LONG time ago).

YES, and your direction with that particular task was SO valuable. I had completely given up on trying to fix that leashing text.

Well I know that most people say that age is just a number, but it's not so when you're chronically ill. I have Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, which is the ED-S that I mentioned. Nowadays it's being diagnosed in children who are between 8 and 12 cause that's when it first becomes obvious. When my sister and I were showing the signs (at that age) we were told it was growing pains, cause it was the 60's and nobody had a clue. Nowadays there are pediatricians who specialize in it, who can help children have manageable lives, but for those of us born in the 50's and 60's it's somewhat of a nightmare. It's only manageable to the extent that now I have home caregivers. I haven't been able to work for over 20 yrs, but the social security admin didn't see it that way, so I had to fight for it for nearly 6 yrs. I see how kids with the condition are given a lot of attention to help them manage their lives, but as far as what's available to me (as an aging poor person with very limited healthcare) I honestly feel I'm a throwaway person. The doctor I see (at a community clinic) never even heard of ED-S before I was his patient. There are millions of us and we are of all ages, but the medical community keeps saying it's a rare condition, when it's not actually. As long as it's considered rare they don't teach about it, but I believe there are a TON of people walking around who have it and have NO clue why they're in pain, and have never been properly diagnosed. I have a lot of different things (such as plantar fascitis) that are in addition to ED-S (or maybe as a result of?) and none of those are even getting the doctor's attention. They see me as one big lump of something they don't understand and they ignore any focus I attempt to put on details that would be addressed if we lived in a world where health care were important. I've accepted it. I have my social security, and subsidized housing and people who shop and cook and I have a LOT more than many people who are struggling with health and poverty issues. I have to look at myself in terms of being a global citizen, NOT in terms of anything else. I KNOW I have MUCH more available (food, shelter, healthcare) than the average human being on the planet, so I'm GRATEFUL for what I have.

So, bottom line is that I have no clue what it feels like to deal with aging issues, cause I've been feeling as if I were aging since I was in my teens, and it's not just me. Everyone with ED-S (I believe) feels old before their time.

oops, that posted before I was ready and I wasn't sure I was going to actually POST my soapbox rant, but I will go ahead and do this edit and then I hope to never get on that soapbox again!

Dang that sux. I have that happen to me on the PC. I will write out something great and then it just freezes up or something. Usually I end up just writing up something short after that cause I am too lazy to type out a paragraph twice lol.

Thanks! I will retype what I was writing you, but a bit later. I haven't eaten since I got up and now it's 2 PM, I slept til nearly noon.

I have NO clue why my post was doubled. I was trying to edit it and instead it posted twice, but the first is unfinished and the 2nd it the edited version. OH well, I give up, I need to have some food!

I haven't thought about renting from Netflix. It's been awhile, but I will look into it or maybe look around at my library and see what they have. The lastest movie that Eric and I saw on there was St. Vincent with Bill Murray. It was an awesome movie and if i had the spare change, I'd probably go out and buy it.

Get something to eat! I wish we could delete our own posts. At least when they double like that. That has happened to me before.

I saw St Vincent about a yr ago (rented DVD) and loved it, then I was thrilled to see that it was streaming, so watched it a 2nd time. LOVE it. I would buy it too, but no longer can afford anything but food. Food has become SO expensive that it's the only thing I CAN buy. I am saving a very small amt of my tiny monthly check for a rainy day. I have NO clue how people live these days, I don't even own a car, and could never afford one, now.

YES, thank you. I DO need to do that. I'm a bit frustrated (wanting to hang here for a bit) cause I have a book up on trades and the same user has offered me something (twice now) and both times I did NOT see an event notification of her offer, until AFTER she cancelled it. I keep writing her comments. I have told her (the 2nd time) that if she really wants that book to comment me, cause I'm missing the notices of her trade offers. I usually don't do trades, so I don't go to the trading center to check on my trades, I actually forgot that I HAD anything on a trade, lol! Trading takes much too much attention for me! Much easier to just put it in a shop, only reason I did that is cause I still need the Subeku version of the Sea-Farin books, so I was hoping someone would trade me that for the one I have (the Crossword one). UGH, I DO need to eat, thanks!

Oh yeah, the double post is annoying, thanks for acknowleding that!

I hate dealing with the trades. I tried for months to sell my Eternal. I finally got an offer a couple of weeks ago. I accepted the offer and even put in my pin. I didn't realize that it glitched and did not actually go through until after she cancelled. I contacted her, but found out she already bought another one :(

I keep watching these youtube videos of rescued puppies and kittens. They are so dang cute!!! I wish we could have a dog, but our apartment building does not allow them. I am hoping to get my daughter a kitten for Christmas :D

Thanks, she DID contact me and she got one from someone else, so I'm relieved. I was more concerned about her getting the book she wanted than anything else.

I'm sorry to hear that cause those things are HUGELY expensive and you could have gotten a LOT of sP for an Eternal. Really sucks that you waited for months and then the trade got cancelled!! I think some people here are in too much of a hurry (grew up with instant gratification and don't understand that some of us are slower) so that's all part of the problem, it seems.

Oh, so sorry you can't get a dog, but you're allowed a cat? Here, if the animal is under 25 pounds they don't care. I'm in senior housing and they almost HAVE to allow it, nowadays. Even if the apt complex did NOT allow I could get permission by going through the proper channels to have an emotional assistance animal. Thankfully I don't have to do that, cause where I live they DO allow it. I'm in the process of looking for a cat right now. I always had cats, but then lost them due to old age (the cats) and when I was going to get another one, other stuff happened. Now I'm finally ready to get another one, after several years of living completely alone.

Where do you live? I still have not eaten, but I'm going to put the device down and GO to the kitchen, cause it's 3 PM now and I've been up for over 3 hours and I'm starving, lol. I will talk to you later, if you're still here. How old is your daughter, do you have other children? I always wanted kids but it was not in the cards for me, sigh.

I can kinda understand it because the apartment building only has a small strip of grass in front (and then the parking lot) and a small strip of grass in the back. No place for the dog to really do its business. I would still love one anyway. We can have as many cats as we want lol. I only want one though. The problem is we love to go to Frankenmuth (up north of where I live in Michigan) and would hate to leave a cat alone. Seems cruel. My daughter (Emily) is 16, but she is on the AI spectrum. Bascially she is 10 in a 16 yr old body. She is my baby ❤ She is always telling me that she wants to live with me forever, and I am sure she will. I have been homeschooling her (with an online school) for the past 4 years and that has really helped her a lot. Regular school was just not right for her at all. I tend to go on and on lol.

I am about to order the new pizza. I really hope it is good fingers crossed

Urgh. I'm officially fed up with freyalise. Takes 10mn to stock and then everything's gone before I can get something.

Oh wow, you're almost "home" (for me) since I was born in Chicago and lived from age 3 to 36 in Wisconsin. I (sadly) moved to CA 25 yrs ago, don't like Sacramento at ALL, this is NOT the California that people from other places perceive. No worries about talking a lot with ME. I'm a big talker and I enjoy the detail.

I see what you mean about the small grassy area, here people have to pick up the poo anyway, so I'm not sure if it matters, but my apt complex has a nice large grassy area (which I almost never see cause MY apt faces the noisy street, I'm on the wrong side, ugh)

So, my thoughts on it: When I was going places I had 2 cats so they could keep each other company, cause it DID seem they got very lonely on their own. (now I almost never leave my apt, so one is fine) Two boy cats is a great combo, when they're fixed they're docile and will usually get along. I don't know about girl cats, but if they are litter mates they usually get along no matter what.

Oh, wow, your daughter sounds like a sweetie. When you say she's your baby, does that mean you have other kids, older ones? She's lucky you're her mom, cause you seem completely committed and involved. I admire that. (a lot) She's lucky that you're able/willing to homeschool. I am going to get back to responding to your note about the tablet, a little later. I know a tiny bit about it.

I hope it was a good pizza! I had some tuna and veggies for bkfst and I'm still hungry. I need some bread or some sort of junk to feel satisfied. I was doing gluten/sugar free for 5 months, but I fell off it in April. I don't think I have the will to go back to it. I'm pathetically alone and food is my best friend (and I'm quite overweight for the first time in my life, and have sort of given up on even caring)

Freyalise sucks, lol. In my experience it is nothing but frustration,, so i already gave up and almost forgot it existed. My DSL is just way too slow. I hope you get what you want somehow.

Been trying for 4 years (I think) to get something from that shop. All I have is weary meh-ness. Praise Carl for occasional items!

It certainly helped me, as smaller things are completed faster too, so you get more "I made this" feelings as well.

My niece is 5 and her idea of knitting is making the biggest knot possible then sticking knitting needles in to make a woolly scarecrow... xD

Understanding for your younger self!

I think I forgot Alegarten in there too! Subeta holiday season is a lot of fun.

Think it's a Homer Simpson quote, I find it very true: "Every time I learn something new it pushes some old stuff out of my brain!" ;)

To be fair, I do like the outfit anyway. The jewellery would be interesting to try with whites & pale blues for Luminaire ice theme...

Ooh, hope the pizza was/is/will be good! And good luck with the Halloween shopping. I've started getting the party plates and napkins and am making a Halloween bingo game for the kids at the party.

Yeah, there's almost a more... organic process to creating, if that doesn't sound weird.
I don't know if it's the same for digital artists / pencil, paint etc artists.

My sympathy that your health issues limit your crafting. I have a lovely friend who crocheted like a demon, but arthritis has almost completely stopped her doing intricate hand movements. Like yourself, she's had long term issues but is determined to keep doing what she can, when she can. Very sensible to quit to maintain better health for longer.

And remember to eat ! :)

Ok, nearly 1am and I ate a lot of pizza, so a goodnight to all!

That's cute your niece does that! I probably did the same thing when I was that young. Pretend to knit on the blanket that my grandma was doing :)

Have a good night and dream about pizza!

I got fed up with it 2 years ago lol. I have never had any luck with it. The only time I ever got anything was if it was a really old item that no one wanted.

Ugh I ate too much. The pizza part was good, but the grilled cheese crust was not so good. Really strong cheddar taste. I might consider 2 cats if they are siblings or something. I would hate to separate them. We really want to get a black male cat and name him Vader lol. That might be a little to specific though. We will just have to see what cats they have when the time comes to actually get one. Emily is a sweetie and she is my only one. Once she got out of upper elementary I could not stand the thought of her going to our middle school. Nothing but trouble there, and the school deff did not look out for her. Thankfully I saw a commercial for K12 on tv and it was the first year they were taking more students. It all worked out perfectly. They even sent her a computer to use. She gets all of her text books every year and anything else she needs. I don't have to worry about her every day because she is right here with me :) She is deff my buddy. Do I wish she had friends like other kids her age? Of course, but that is just too hard for her. I had to stop taking her to the park because she has always been tall for her age (she is almost 5'10 now and doesn't really talk to anyone besides me and her Grandma) and none of the kids at the park would play or interract with her :( I just do the best I can to make sure she is happy every day and does not feel like she is missing out on anything. I know all about being over weight. Same for Emily. I wanted to sign us up for mall walking, but they went and changed her school schedule to start at 8 a.m. No time for walking then, and I don't want to walk around the mall when it is open. Too uncomfortable. It was just so stinkin hot here this summer. The humidity was torture. I would walk out the door and my glasses would fog up lol. Not good walking weather. I just need figure out a good way to get us more active. I wrote a book. Not gonna proofread cause I am just feeling too stuffed right now to care :P Please forgive any typos.

Thanks :) That is a great idea. I have a whole winter ensemble I can wear when it gets closer to winter. We are going shopping tomorrow (hopefully). I bought all of the decorations I am going to put outside. We never get any trick or treaters at my apartment though. The way our street is we are at the end and it is kinda dark, so none of the kids come down this far. I still like to decorate for my own benefit :)

It doesn't sound weird at all, I think it IS more organic. I have always used the word kinesthetic to describe how it is for ME (motion with the hand across the page) but most people don't know what I mean, so organic is actually a better term. Thanks for the sympathetic thoughts, many things have "gone by the wayside" in trade for not getting my body out of whack, so you're right, I have made those choices for good reasons.

Oh, you must be in the UK (or thereabouts) hope you're having sweet dreams, now.

Grilled cheese crust? Is that a thing, now, lol! Never heard of it, but I don't hear of much. I'm insulated from the world cause I don't go out and I don't "bring it in" except for the internet (and I don't look at much other than here and entertainment). TV is too expensive and Netflix is enough for me, lol.

Black cats are awesome, that's exactly what I'm going to get and there are a LOT of them available here, so I won't have a problem. It seems that many people do NOT like black cats (don't think they're pretty? don't trust them?) not sure why, but my first cat EVER was a black boy baby, and I was 37 before I ever had a cat. I fell in love with HIM. I found out later that black cats (many descended from Bombay cats) are naturally affectionate, friendly, like the Bombay) HE was very sweet that way, and will be in my heart forever as the "cat of all cats." So, you probably CAN be fussy about what you want, unless you're in a very small town. Vader is an awesome name for a black cat! I am going to get an adult, age 2 to 6, so I won't have a choice of name, but that's OK, I'm not into dealing with a kitten. Too much energy, I'm senior, need senior.

It's wonderful that you have a sweetheart of a daughter to share your life with! I always wanted a daughter, kids weren't in my cards. I hear that about kids at school, and the school not looking out for them. Even way back in the 70's when I was young and hoping for kids I was NOT going to put them into public school. No clue how I would have paid for private, but nowadays there are charter and home school options. I have a friend who had the kids in home school so I know a little about that. I'm so glad they provide money now (computers, books, etc) for that. Years ago if you wanted to home school the gov't wasn't obligated to fund it (at ALL) yet you had to do it by the book, (which is good, but it was really hard for people to do back then, and there was no internet, of course).

It must be hard to see your daughter, so sweet etc. and tall and innocent in her demeanor, other kids not understanding who she is, etc. Again, she's lucky to have a compassionate caring mom like you. You seem very much so! Kids who are not just like their peers have a difficult time, as it is, and being taller is another challenge. Sounds like you and grandma are doing a great job of providing for her.

That's too bad that you can't mall walk anymore. I walked for years, swam too, but aging and a LOT of other issues separated me from my routine. I was able to keep my weight good for a long time, until the last 10 yrs. Once I completed menopause (and got separated from the life I had, the one where I walked) it all went haywire. Now I'm 60 to 80 pounds over, depending on whose opinion. I'm tall and big boned and would be OK with myself at 180, but I'm 235, or 240. When I was young I was always at about 150.

I know that humidity from living in WI for most of my life. It gets humid here at night, and is cool and very uncomfortable, but I sometimes go out and walk in my parking lot, which is large enough--one loop around it is 1/4 mile (this apt complex is gated, it's fairly safe inside, but I would NOT go outside the gate, even in the daytime) so I feel a bit trapped here.

No worries about typos, I didn't notice. I don't have a way to click on it and fix the spelling with the chromebook so I have to go back and fix mine, it's maddening, lol. I'm all for leaving them as is!! I need to rest, been typing on and off for hours (and I DO go on, lol) and my eyes are bugging out now too. I hope you have a good evening, was very nice chatting. See you later, perhaps tomorrow. It takes me a LONG time to type a response, so anything on the forum that got posted while I was composing, I've missed.

I adore Subeta holiday season. (: (there's also Fireside~~) I really like there being bonus events and extra things to do!

and that sounds about right XD

Brand new. I just heard about it yesterday and of course Emily just HAD to try it lol. I gave it a try, but it is not being very kind to me. Never again! Our city is pretty small. There is only one place around here to get a kitten, and that is only when they actually have some. Most of the time they don't have any. When she was in elementary school they had a book fair and there were posters for the kids to buy. I guess all the girls were getting Beiber posters and Emily bought a kitten poster. For some reason the kids thought that was something to be made fun of. She never said or did anything to anyone no matter what they said to her, so it made her an easy target :( the school was no help at all. They basically blamed her and talked to me about how she needed to change. Her so-called counselor told me that Emily dressed too babyish and needed to wear different clothes. She even went so far as to tell me that she had some old clothes from when she had been sick and gained a lot of weight. I said "Did you really just offer my child your old "FAT" clothes?!?! Seriously?!?" She had nothing to say about that. I was so glad when she left that school. She was too tall and not the right size for those little Hannah Montana type clothes. Nothing we could do about it, but I don't see how clothes from the teens section was "too babyish". She was this skinny little blonde that liked to say "I am not as young as I look". I kept thinking that she didn't look that young (and she really didn't) LOL! My weight has always been an issue for me so I know how she feels. See ya later Hun :) I will be around off and on.

Now I'm seriously craving pizza, but I don't feel like spending $35 to get a pizza delivered, so instead I am thinking about making a creation of sourdough bread, toasted and then putting some roasted beef on it with melted swiss cheese. That's what I have available here, and I DO love beef and swiss, so that will be a good dinner/lunch.

It never fails to astound me how mean children can be (and how awful some people are who work at schools with children) I would NOT survive being a mom in today's world. I would KILL someone and end up in prison (not really, I internalize ALL of my anger about the stupidity of the human race). I was/am always been a doormat that other's took advantage of. I don't seem like one cause I'm not a waif. I'm tall and always have had a loud voice and am not shy, but in my family I've had the "cinderella" position (be seen and not heard, and do everything for everyone). So I know how it feels to be made fun of/criticized and all the rest. I was so sensitive as a kid that I would burst out crying (not in school, I did OK there, cause teachers liked me, I was smart and other kids didn't like me but they didn't pick on me) but in my neighborhood they would make me cry. Anyway, by the time I was 13 I had one or two friends, never anymore, and I was a complete dork and wore sort of different clothes cause I knew I didn't look good in the fashionable ones. I learned early to wear tailored stuff. I was not into the Biebers of the day (which were Bobby Sherman and Davy Jones in the late 60's) and instead I was in love with Paul Newman (I had good taste) but I didn't advertise it. I had bulletin boards in my bedroom with Newman all over them. I collected his pictures from the movie section of the newspaper. Oh my, what memories. So sad that your daughter could not be herself and get a kitten poster w/out being made fun of, and much worse that a school counselor blamed HER and said those things to you. What the heck is WRONG with people, I seriously would have trouble controlling myself, it's one reason I stay inside and keep to myself NOW. I just, basically, can't stand people, the world is too messed up now, the priorities are all sideways. A girl wanting a kitten poster is something that is wonderful and all those girls going after Bieber? Well it's just mindless and ridiculous (normal teen stuff??? I don't know cause I'm not out there today, and glad of it) What you said about why she was an easy target is something I never thought of exactly. It's why people target me, cause I'm nice and kind (and anything I have to say that is mean is just vented to someone else, but never to the person's face). Though, I recently lost it with one of my neighbors here, someone who has been a huge thorn in my side, and I said something mean, and I'm 61!! After decades of keeping my mean thoughts to myself, I said one out loud to someone. I guess that's part of being menopausal. I would rather NOT be that way, so I only go out at night when everyone else is inside. I LONG for a place of my own with my OWN backyard, but that is never going to happen! OK, yeah, I hear that. I wanted to do a few more quests and time is running out! Perhaps we'll talk another day.