hey!! i dont really play here anymore so i totally missed this oof. but im doing alright, just busy mostly. wbu? it's good to hear from you!! hope you're taking care of yourself!!

that's true - for once in my life, things are actually getting a little busy (beyond just having a job, anyways, been in the job market for a couple years and i'm used to it now). we just paid the security deposit on our first apartment, and i'll be moving out to colorado before my next birthday. aaaaa. i'm excited but also kind of anxious about it now.

i'm really glad that you've kept her, even though she has been squashed and rebuilt more times than a tower of legos. i always thought she was a pretty good representation of you in personality and whatnot, so i'm glad she stuck around (same for nov's ole dragon wolf). grimmy is still lurking around in my files somewhere, but i haven't redesigned her or even touched her in months except to show her off to friends when i talk about old characters. bad memory, so i'm sure i mentioned it, but yeah i don't really have a character that represents 'me' anymore. just too complicated for me. i'm still up to my 'can't pick one thing and stick with it' ways. :P

i have characters like that (80x forms), so i know what you mean. drawing with a touchpad is a nightmare lmao so i really don't anymore. eventually i will though, when i get a new tablet, i still love drawing but nothing like i did when we were younger. i don't doodle on everything now - just when i'm motivated to draw/design a character, or when i'm really anxious. i haven't roleplayed in a year or more. i miss it, but for the time being i'm a little burned out on it + mental stuff makes it hard to keep up with 400 word posts anymore.

thank you! that sounds like the plan, imo. unless i suddenly 'find my calling' and need to go back to school for it, i'm not really going to worry too much about schooling. exactly - i've been putting myself out there (i've gotten a lot more confidence and become more outgoing since i was younger) and eventually i'm sure i'll make the right connections when i'm out there. thank you very much - good luck to you two as well! yeah, the hours are a nightmare and he hired on more??? so?? even less hours??? hello... manager.... do you know how to run a business...

no new job yet... and tbh i'm just gonna keep this one if i'm working a month and two weeks on it before i leave. but i'll let you know what i get set up once i'm out there. milo and trixie are my parents dogs (though they are my babies, milo especially since we got him when he was a tiny pupper). they're papillon mixes. much fluff, lots of attitude. that sounds super awesome - i think the backyard shows are the only ones i'd go to anymore. the other ones are too loud, too many people, etc.

that's fucking awesome, aaa, i'm really glad to hear that. and yo?? that's awesome, i really hope things work out so you guys can meet up (you should go visit her and see the squishy keeters)!! and best of luck with the finance stuff, it's a pain in the ass but it's worth figuring out before you do anything - sincerely hoping everything pans out for you so you don't have to deal with any undue stress. moving is ass, it sucks. totally worth it though. ALSO AAA JEALOUS.

not sure if you're still using this again, but it's okay if you're not. i've been out of it again mentally a lot lately, and just haven't felt like talking to people, replying to comments, or being online at all really. but i love what you've done with her - and you've made so many improvements on this program too. everything looks so smooth - the skull and spine especially. her design is awesome as well, truthfully it fits her (and you) so much more than she did in the past. look at that sweet round snout and that leg muscle detail, though. hot stuff.

i'll have to round some art up again and send it to you when i get a chance - i have been in a slump again art wise along with everything else, so i need to get back into the swing of things. i'll try to sketch something up of one of my pets on here, and i'll send that along. not sure if i mentioned in my last comments or not (probably, but i have no short term memory anymore) but i don't have a tablet or scanner or anything right now, so i've been drawing exclusively with touchpad. it's kind of a pain in the ass and takes a lot of concentration and work for a very small turnout.

i wonder if he will! so far he seems to be into programming, designing, building, fixing, and all that, so i'm not sure where he plans to take it as an end game. i know he wants to work as a sysadmin for a while, since that's a pretty lucrative job. i do plan on going back to school, but i'm not sure what i would go for, if i did. i want a degree - for the increase in income and for the job opportunities. but in terms of what to actually study, i don't know. the two things i can see myself going to college for (psychology and animal behavior/zoology), while interesting, don't give me a lot of options.

i'm not interested in becoming a therapist/counselor for many reasons, nor a researcher, nor a social worker or anything like that - so the psych degree, while enjoyable to earn, would do little for me in the real world. most other places want to see you have a degree, but you have an upper hand if its for something relevant to them and not just a degree in interior design or creative writing, ya know? and for the latter, good luck getting a zookeeping job in this economy lmao, they're about as in demand as nokia phones. so i'm kind of in a rut in terms of what to do with schooling. my dream job(s) (training service dogs, doing obedience, grooming, designing cute outfits for animals, and other animal related things) are not lucrative and usually seasonal at best. i will likely hemorrhage money early on and i really need income that can support me while i work on that. plus, i especially wanna train service dogs for people without a lot of money/people who need them but can't get them. so i'm literally setting myself up to never make a profit. but it is what i want to do.

anyways, enough rambling! yeah, i was super anxious because we're both really serious about needing our space/time to ourselves, so it was kind of an iffy thing, but it went swimmingly and i know for certain that we will have minimal problems adjusting to a permanent situation. god, honestly. the healthcare field is a mess. it's all about the money, for sure. i actually recently lost my insurance - but we might have found one to go on. so that's been a lot of fun too and i MIGHT have to start the mental health carousel all over again. and unfortunately, monty passed away in the spring. :c but we do have two other smaller puppers named milo and trixie. AND NO. i will treasure the blue book forever. it's god awful but it literally never fails to cheer me up. we thought we were so cool.

glad everyone is alive and well! and that for the most part everyone has been able to stick together, that's really nice. ❤️ and oh man, right? i'm still sad that i was supposed to get to hang out with her and i didn't. the past feels like it's so far away now and everyone is really different from who they used to be. and yeah! music festivals are awesome, or so i've heard. i've never gone to one and probably never will, but i've known people who made a habit of it and they seemed to really enjoy it. it's awesome that you get to go to free ones as well as getting to help out with them! i hope you continue being able to do that, that sounds like a really awesome trade-off. AND LOL, oh man, i bet that was awesome. i'm so glad i'm tall enough to see over a lot of people at concerts. well, the girls anyways. still wish i could have seen trapt perform.

oh man, it's gotten so much worse since this comment. they dropped my hours like the bass and i've been looking for a new job. i literally worked two days this week for ten hours. it's miserable. but that's just how the job market is around here. but yeah, i'm super lucky i don't have to pay most of that shit. it's really just rent, insurance, and phone plan. but still gonna try to get out of here by next year. we've been looking at houses even though it's not even remotely feasible for us to consider a home right now. they're really beautiful down there though. i've fallen in love with a couple and its sucks to know they wont be there by the time we are on the market for a house. oh well. best of luck with the new job and i hope christmas/new years have been treating you and the others well!

if you ever have the chance and it's something you want to do, you definitely should, i would be super interested in seeing her development in the past years. it's nice to hear that she's evolved a lot. i actually don't have grimmy anymore (well, not like i gave her away or anything, i just don't use her at all) and i don't really have a self-insert character these days. i really only have one character who is my most precious, but he's just a bratty demon. i've gone through a lot of characters but he's stuck with me for the past couple of years and i don't see him going anywhere soon. and oh yeah, i can see that being the case. ;o; mobile gaming is still super popular so it might be a good skill to have. but i think high poly would probably be more detailed and nice! i would love to see your newer works. if you're ever interested in where i am art wise, i'd be happy to send you a mail about it.

absolutely. i've dealt with some flaky people and it's not a fun time, haha. while we have had to move the plans around frequently (we had planned to do it in the middle of next year, but school things happened so we pushed it to the end, around december - but then we may be moving it earlier again if we can get another roommate because cheaper rent?) i know this is something that is going to happen and that's enough for me. those kind of conversations are so fun to listen to lmao. 'she's such a flake!! she blew me off twice this week!!!' and it's like bitch you do the same thing you should hear what they say about you. and he's going to school for psychology and computer science. c: so fun/cool stuff. i was going for psychology but ironically my mental illness made me have to drop (well, that and money issues). yeah! i'm so excited, haha. ❤️ i stayed there for a month earlier this year and it was incredible, so i'm hopeful for moving in!

yep, service puppers! if you're talking about training - i know where to go to get the training and i've talked to a few people who are in the business and gotten a lot of tips and recommendations! in terms of that, you just need to have the drive and the resources. i need to wait until i'm moved out and have my own space before i can take a dog in for training, which is why i haven't started doing so while i'm here in TN. but once i get to CO, it's on! if you mean in terms of what i need to do for insurance purposes, i'm not quite there yet. i reckon i need to get in contact with an insurance agent and ask some question. annnnd if you mean in terms of getting one - you need a doctors recommendation (this is both for the training agencies, most of them won't train for you without verification that your disability is serious enough to require a service dog, and for legal reasons if any issues come up) and money for training/a trainer.

there's a lot of fake service dogs these days, because there's almost no regulation on them. it sucks. and i thought about dog therapy! that was actually my intention when i was going to college - major in psychology and do dog-assisted therapy. but with college falling through, and a change in my outlook (i decided as much as i love psychology and helping people, i don't really want to be a therapist or a counselor for the rest of my life; my empathy issues wouldn't help me in that department either, haha), i had to look elsewhere. which i'm glad, because training service dogs is what i wanna do, for sure. i get to help people, i get to be involved with psychology (but not have to deal with everyone else's problems all the time), and i get to help puppies too! it's a win-win any way you look at it. but i agree, therapy dogs are great. ❤️

oh, not even remotely, haha. i've been through a lot of therapists since that one. :P i'm kind of complicated to work with i guess because of my disorders. most of the time they wanna put me with a specialist, who has to send me to another specialist, who wants me to work with two of them. and i'm just sitting here like SOMEONE, PLEASE HELP ME FUNCTION. but yeah, i've learned soooo much, and so many things that i did and how i acted when i was younger really make sense now. right?? i tend to avoid reading my own writing. i was angsty as fuckkkk. but some of it does show signs of what was eventually to come. unrelated, but i sometimes i still look in the glittery blue notebook we wrote in together. i can see it from where i'm laying rn, haha. i'm keeping that thing forever.

definitely for the better! i'm not going to go into detail about it because it's in the past and doesn't deserve to be dredged up, but you hit the nail on the head there and i gotta get myself moving on to better things. nobody has time for those kind of situations. and oh wow, i didn't know seth was still around. he stopped coming on subeta, and of course, i don't know the last time i touched furc, haha. but it's good to hear that he's still actually alive. and i was wondering if you still did! the last i saw her was on facebook many years ago. i also had jenna on my fb as i said but i closed it. ;o; we had meant to hang out/she was gonna come down to TN, but it never happened, and i lost contact with her. booo. but ooh, that's awesome! i'm so happy for her. i was honestly surprised when i learned she had a girlfriend. i LITERALLY never would have guessed from when we were kids, and i usually have a knack for that kind of thing (i identify as bisexual but i'm p sure everyone and their mom knows that lmao).

so glad to hear that you guys are safe down there, and that the damage was minimal. i would have expected it to be a lot worse. and so i've heard, haha! i was watching the news and they were interviewing people who were like YEAH. IT'S JUST A STORM!!! I AIN'T LEAVIN EVERYTHING I GOT BEHIND CAUSE OF NO!!! STORM!!! and i'm like already on my way to kansas so i'm in the direct center of the USA and no where near any kind of water. and i went to see mariana's trench. ;u; ❤️ they're my favorite. i'm actually listening to them while i write this comment lmao. i'm probably gonna go see them again when i get a chance. i don't know if they're your style (though they have a mix of types of songs) but you might enjoy them so i would definitely recommend them. astoria has a good selection of styles.

oh shit, that sucks. D: i wish you had been able to see them! have you been to any other concerts? you seem like the person who would be into that, haha. i enjoyed my concert, but it was a really nerve wracking experience because i have panic attacks in public and basically have agoraphobia at this point. i would go out to see them (but only them) again, as long as i have a friend (or my bf) to go with me. i wouldn't go alone. and i wouldn't bring a SD to one, because the music is already too loud, it would be cruel to the poor baby. :c but it was amazing. i just love them so much, i could gush lmao. and yeaaaah, holy shit. good band, but NOT $200+ worth. i almost saw trapt when they came here, but they were performing in some run down piece of shit downtown and i wasn't ready to die for that band, so i changed my mind.

it is super random, but hey, i think it sums us up pretty well, haha. and it's a mix of both - i'm not getting enough hours (the max i get is 23 but it's usually 18-20), and the minimum wage is only $7.25 so that's not getting me anything. and it's too overwhelming for me mentally to have two jobs, i'm p sure i'd have a breakdown. but we'll see how it goes. if i get a decent second job, i might be able to make it work. and yeah, it's helped a lot! i'm paying rent here, but it's no where near what i would be paying somewhere else. i wouldn't be moving for like three years if i had to be paying rent alongside all this crap, haha.

AREN'T going into a disaster zone, that is i'm gonna be honest, i just woke up from a nap lmao