xD that's okay! i have that with a lot of other sites. i'm happy you have other safe escapes online though! 😊

;W; i'll try to get on fb! (i don't usually fb anymore because i had a bad falling out with my last 2 groups of people i surrounded myself with and they and their friends lurk me 😭 ) i'll send you a holler if i find myself that way though! -nodnod- look up sikky and i'm the shmo with pink hair and falsies in my prof pic (a cosplay i did last year and don't wanna change it lol)

❤ hope the world has been good to you lately! (and in general too, ehehhee ^^) life still has its struggles but a couple of the things that i was down about last time we talked aren't so bad now 😊 -hug-

i didn't either when i came back from my hiatus 😅 using them ironically has me using them regularly BUT I'LL NEVER DO THAT HASHTAG SHIT AND WHATNOT!!! xD // oh and you're okay! i kinda forgot how we ended off. assuming i was really hurt about it and repressed it for my own good-- i did that a lot back then, even denied things that happened just so i wouldn't sulk on them ^^; i'm a lot tougher now than i was too with bad things and relationships, but sometimes things sink into my soft center BUT THIS REALLY ISNT ONE OF THOSE CASES YOU'RE 100% OKAY! ^^ OH AND I DON'T KNOW IF YOU REMEMBER ANDY-ROO FROM WAY BACK WHEN BUT HE IS "ROO" NOW AND HE HAS CHANGED SO MUCH IN A GOOD WAY AND HE IS MY FIANCE' AND HE TAKES WONDERFUL CARE OF ME!! =^u^= things in my life usually find a way back to me after a while, sometimes in better circumstances, other times i just get closure. BTU I HOPE WE CAN BE GOOD FRIENDS AGAIN! I STILL HAVE PICS I DREW OF OUR HUMAN AVATARS BEING GAY LOVERS (when i did male ha's and you did male ha's,) and i remember fond times like when we tried to get me to win the potion lotto and all the dramatic-ness that was that, and the whole december week i spent at my dads and we talked for sooooooo long! ❤ i still have a lot of your gifts either in my wardrobe or my gallery and have your arts either on my pets' pages or in my old photobucket ^^ gosh we had so much fun! and i really REALLY LIKED YOU! ;u; the only thing i didn't like was the lying and yeah, i learned from it too though i remember I'M LIKE BRUTALLY HONEST WITH PEOPLE AND ALWAYS PUT MYSELF OUT THERE AND SOMETIMES IT BACKFIRES BUT I USUALLY KNOW WHO LIKES ME FOR ME AT MY BEST AND WORST TIMES! ❤ i hope you learned that too, because you truly didn't need to lie, and i know this world is superficial, but you had so much talent and could always make me laugh and were there for me so much, no matter what you were offline, you were a very irreplaceable person i could tell! :) and i bet in your circle you have now, they think the same and look out for you too! ❤ oh and you really did end up being a girl? xD YOU REALLY COULD HAVE TOLD ME THAT! NOT IN A MEAN WAY AT ALL, BUT, WHOO CARES!? (and i think i told you i was bisexual? xD) AGAIN: YOU WERE SO AWESOME AND GREAT! i think we both are aware now things can't go back to the way they were, but yes, i'd be very very happy if we could start our friendship over! ❤ my only thing is that i hope you can handle my super late replies ;W; life tho.... i really gotta reiterate on that last part! 😱

TwT things got a little better with time, then a lot worse, then slightly better.... then even worse than the previous bad time. lotta soul searching in the process, went through a lot of friends and a lot of people that were never really my friends, being wronged, being weak, taken advantage of, overwhelmed, lost... and here i am today. probably just about better than i have ever been in the past, but still a lot of crap life is throwing at me. (not nearly as much,) and i get super tuckered out (like right now @ ) i'm equipped better to handle it all now though!! my friends are all here for me and andrew is seriously the best person for me and we tackle life together. you don't have to worry anymore! and i had an ex that is trans. i know in no way that is easy (seeing the whole process from that perspective and all the self loathing and denial and shame they had at first :( ,) but i think that is so great you were able to find people that love you as you are too and that is super important in your situation. i just hope that you love you now too! you should be proud of who you are and your growing and trying to right wrongs!

i'm like, trying really hard to not write novels ;u; or else i feel like i get lost in messages and it only gets harder to reply and i overwhelm people! HNNG! oh BUWHAHAHAHAHA! no need to be formal with little old me, -playful punch- :3 goof off with me... get comfy!

😱 i got a discord account! haven't joined in the groups i got invited to yet but i know i should get around to it! AND I WILL ADD YOUR CHATTY GROUPY THING AND I WILL GET ON I JUST DONT KNOW WHEN! XuX in the meantime, i also have accounts i'm barely on, but still have and check from time to time if you want me to add you on any of these: gmail, insta, fb, pinterest, etsy, psn, phone, annnd i think that's it? 😱 IDK!?!

uummm wrapping this up for now! (i think!?) subeta has changed! i almost quit, and took a couple hiatuses, but then i got into cws. i'm not an elitist about it or anything, but do i think i have spent too much on them TwT i made a lot of friends though and our relationships aren't revolving around cws mainly.... ummm, forums are dead af, quentin's quests are still around and i still hate them xD i had a new bestie after you but we didn't end so well and it was my fault TwT i don't have enough time for all my friends tho and i feel so bad! Dx there's a lot less scamming and anger than there was way back when. usually everyone takes their salt to tumblr to complain and that's fine with me, more positivity around here and that's what's needed! 😊 /// what have i been up to? uhhhhhhhhh HAHA! losing my mind in retail (but it's like the best job i've had so far,) planning for my wedding is a B, my apartment maintenance main guy won't leave me alone, my cats are sooooo CUUUUTE AND I LOVE TAKING PHOTOS OF THEM TuT i'm currently playing/trying to finish these games all at once (some i enjoy more than others:) persona 5, far cry 4, sims 4, soma, overwatch, witcher 3, killing floor 2, and relplaying warriors orochi on my psn account. also willing be adding n.sane trilogy on june 30th and DID YOU SEE ANY SHOWINGS OF E3!? HIDDEN AGENDA LOOKS SO FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOD!! (pls don't let it be a disappointment!!! 😭 ) oooh, lastly, i had a really bad day at work today so i went home early! 😅 buuuuut, i have a nice supper planned, im getting stuff done on here, and my kitties are being super snuggly and i love it. ❤ i have the most amazing picture of betelgeuse dressed as a spaceman you'd love it (same cat as waaaaay back then! he old and crazy and selfish and doesn't clean himself anymore 😌 but lawdy do i love him so much! )

-friendly waves goodbye- adding you on the thing nao c:

(and i figured it was you, yes, just wanted to make sure for like the .1% it wasn't you it'd wouldn't be awkward! xD)

buwhahaha xD you're fine! ❤ no worries tbh, i was a little hurt back then because you didn't need to lie. i got like, really confused too, but i hope you knew by now over everything it didn't matter how your life was or your gender or preference, i liked you as who you were on the inside C: we had so much fun!!!!!! and you were always looking out for me and teaching me things. 9w9

but you are completely forgiven! :) and if you would like to talk to me on the regular (or as regular as i'm popping on right now. i'm having a lot of stuff in life hit me at once XwX ) but yes, on a regular basis, you can tell me about how it really was more back then and how it really is now. i'm sure a loooooot has happened in the past like, what? 7 years or so? :P

(oh, and i definitely think it was worth a shot typing to me, part of it is like "well, you never know," and if you remember me right, it takes a lot to creep me out xD you're fiiiiine!) take your time replying to me. and if i type back sporadically, that's me trying to juggle online and offline! i actually have a fiance', and a lot of friends 😱 and hobbies, and side projects, and work, and house cleaning, inconvenient stuff that pops up, and still my love for subeta. ❤ but i still cherish my friendships, especially online ones! i still have that weird thing where i feel closer to people who are further away and out of sight and want to take care of them ^_^

hello! :)

hey, sorry i didn't reply sooner; i have been mia for the past few months so i haven't been ignoring anybody, but my commenting/activity was on hold for the time being.

well, it says you are male and i only have had 2 male friends on here (and i think you deleted your comment, which reminds me of what one of them would do sometimes, and your pet naming feels familiar) just to be sure and save myself possible embarrassment; what was the username (or name) you went by? xD (p.s, i'm happy i don't delete anything off my sidebar, until i tend to it, otherwise i would have been stuck only reading it and not remembering your username, naughty naughty naughty!) :P