Night Red Eyes Fox Companion

Hi, I was wondering if I have anything in my shops here, here, here that interests you for your Nuclear Escalade Beanbag?

well i guess it's because there's no other option? i dunno. i have 3 options, one of which is off limits if you catch my drift, the other is stay going in and out of hospital and the last is to recover... haha i like to think i'm not that bad. but i do get that some people might find me overbearing or whatever, so it's like fair warning? granted i don't tell them if i know/think they're gonna be weird about it after

shrugs

how are you?

yeah, i just dont have anywhere to go and i cant support myself. always seem to end up back in hospital anyway, so i just put up with it. having said that he's better than when i was a kid! like a loooooot better.

nah, i have bipolar disorder type 1, but they think it could potentially be schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. all my paper work still says bipolar 1 though. my psych says it's what they call a "working diagnosis." meaning it's not set in stone or whatever lol but theoretically speaking bipolar 1 can have voice hearing so can bpd. when i was younger i also had a psychotic episode when i was at a similar bmi to now because my brain was so malnourished it just kind of went a bit loopy lol

i dont think my voices are because of being ill but whenever i try to explain my reasons people tell me i'm wrong

nah it's ok i dont mind explaining, i've upset people in the past when i've been "odd" or said something stupid impulsively (even though i try t apologise profusely), so before i get to know people now i tend to let them know about stuff (if it some how comes up). so then if they're freaked out or cant be bothered then they dont have to talk to me. i have a massive fear of abandonment of people i trust/get attached to (bpd thing) so i try and avoid it by making sure people know my flaws and stuff. i know it's tiring and annoying when im in hospital or being impulsive or whatever - i've lost many friends because of being ill so yeah. idk i just feel the need to explain to people if health etc comes up in conversation that i'm not an "easy person" to be friends with.

idk if that makes any sense, but i hope it does?

omg thats super farrrr lmao i bet thats like the length of the uk xD so weird

yeah, the anorexia keeps me up a lot, when i dont eat i tend to get very restless for some reason? the ptsd keeps me up as well because i get nightmares quite a lot. my main issue right now is that i have too much energy to be able to sleep and too much going onin my head, like static. well not static its like indistinguishable voices. but every now andagain i'll hear this one person who tells me what to do (its usually stupid shit). my dad calls me it so i guess now i just insult myself before other people can do it for me lolol. he's not a very nice person you see