Hi! I was wondering if you were interested in trading your scrap fabric patterns book for my BrightEyes Blue Contacts (from your wl)?

I as well, only had one friend and she was only bothered with me when she bored. She was stressing me out, was mean to me and it wasn't a good friendship anyway. So I finally said good-bye after 12 years. I missed her at first, but now I don't. I'm better off without her. I'm 37 and I could NEVER make friends and I still can't, no matter how much I try. I also don't date (hello to a sad life) and I'd rather be and live alone, than settle for the wrong one. I know someone will come for me when the time is right, but that time isn't now.

I know! The fact that my previous employer told me that they're going to be running from the city only and no one can take a bus home-they have to drive in from wherever they're located... all of a sudden, people were able to take a bus home and park it in their driveway after they let me go. Yeah, I have terrible anxiety, but I'm able to control it so much better now. I've been driving a bus for 2.5 years and pretty much nothing phases me, unless my panic attack gets triggerd (I hit something, I get yelled at by teachers and get called out over the radio. True stories). Sometimes a charter will trigger anxiety, but I tell myself "no! We are NOT doing this. We got this! We've been doing well all year!" And it goes away. If I'm having a bad day, it's triggered, but I ignore it.

The world is so FU'ed right now with jobs and apartments being so unaffordable. I called my dad crying. I said the cigarette smoke is so bad in my room, it was all night long she was puffing, and that I woke up with a bad headache, so he put me on speaker phone so my mom could also hear me. I also said I don't sleep on weekends because of the bar and the trains are constant. This is a bad area and this building will take forever to sell because it's falling apart and there's problematic tenants in the basement (smoking and not paying rent and refusing everyone to come into their apartment). I said that I know finding apartments are hard, but if I can move back home for 2-3 years, save some money, I can find a better place. I just can't do it anymore. I can't with the cigarette smoke anymore. My dad said? Yeah, that's fine. You can come back for a bit. I don't have a problem with that. I said that inwas thinking of coming back in the summer, as I'm done work. He said it's fine and we'll talk more about it later.

I was shocked, so inadded "plus, you'll also have some extra help around the house".

I can't stand my dad, but I need to do what I need to do.

A lot of places are probably like that, sadly. Where I work, I don't have benefits because they're a cheap company. The buses are in badly need of repair and they don't keep up with them They're using buses that are 10-13 years old when they're supposed to be pulled off the road. The last company I worked for, I had benefits, but when they lost 100 contracts, mine was one of them, and they said "bye. We can't accommodate you". They had more drivers than routes at that point and they let go of a lot. Now they're complaining they need people and as much as I want to go back (higher pay), they told me I need somewhere to park the bus and I don't have anywhere to park it. Plus I don't have a vehicle and gas is so expensive (so are cars). I can't afford to finance one right now because you need to put a huge chunk as down payment and I only had $980 saved up, and since I didn't work a month and 1 week, I had to use it all to pay my rent (and I still have bills and I can't pay them. I go back to work next week).

When I'm laid off for the summer, I can't find work because I have 2 months off and no one will hire you for 7.5 weeks

So he works for 10 months only? I'm a seasonal worker (school bus driver) and I work for 10 months out of the year and will do charters over the summer if they have something for me. I haven't worked for a month because I had emergency gallbladder surgery, then 10 days layer, I was back in the hospital because I was septic. I'm going back part time (well, it's part time work anyway), but I'm onky doing half my run and that's in the afternoon. Start slow and build up.

That'd so crappy that the US can't pay for things, like basic services (surgeries, hospital stays in a common room). Ontario doesn't pay for counsellors, therapists, chiropractors etc, so I have to pay for that and I can't afford other services. Chiropractor is $46 weekly and that's expensive