You're welcome! ❤

Hello! Hope you don't mind the random friends request; it just seems like we have loads in common and you seem like someone I'd like to know. :) Have a nice weekend!

Hi, sorry to bother you, but what's the top your HA has got it? I love it c:

Sorry I'm answering this late. I thank you for your message, it was very nice of you. I'm afraid meditation isn't for me. I tried but each time I just end up falling asleep. It must be the fault of narcolepsy (ugh that stupid brain). But sleeping does help. When I came back from my friend's funeral I fell asleep in the car and when I woke up it was as if nothing had happened and I was in quite a neutral mood. It didn't last though. I'm sorry you had to go through something similar, it's something I wouldn't wish to anyone, be they my worst enemy.

Thank you so much for your comment. These past years have been nightmarish. My family on my mother's side (well at least her generation) got wiped out in just 4 years, and the few who aren't dead from cancer have lost their sanity. Their children have cut ties with us, I guess because they didn't realize their parents were senile when saying horrible things about my parents. And then there was my friend who was my age, and this is so unfair because she was so brilliant and such an extraordinary person with an exciting future, I couldn't help feeling guilty for being alive while being a mediocre person compared to her. I sometimes get overwhelmed by all the grief I have tried to suppress over the years, but I'm dealing with it better than before. After all, now they are all dead I can stop worrying about them and have my life paced over encouraging and pessimistic news of treatment efficiency. But to be honest, I am extremely scared about my mother because she is the last one standing healthy and sane. I know she'll have to pass away one day but I don't want to watch her agonize for years or have to see her too forget about me. I've had enough. Sorry for venting, I just can't talk about all of this to my parents and I've already burdened enough my RL friends each time I announced them I would go on hermit-mode because of AGAIN someone died/got diagnosed. Just thank you for listening.