thank you for being so understanding and patient with me - i've felt really awful putting off my reply for so long, but considering the amount of time it would take to write a novel back to you, i just haven't been able to. ;___; job searching, then interviews, now i'm working 29 hour weeks and just??? what's free time? aaa, best of luck with your medication - that's never a fun time. side effects are the absolute worst. i'm for some reason really sensitive to side effects but never the actual purpose of the drug?? so that sucks. i'm kinda pissed they put you on it in the first place without looking up a sleeping disorder... but i've definitely heard of DSPS and while it sucks, it's super great to finally have a name to it, and treatment options that actually work. hope your season finale was awesome! by the way, this is gonna be a HELLA long comment, so feel free to take time replying, or even shorten it/skip things you no longer wanna talk about to keep the conversation to a length of your liking!

now to my much owed reply - aaa, so we're in a similar boat but not exactly the same! those do not sound like a fun combination of disorders at all. i'm hoping someday to find the kind of combo (whether its different medications, medication + a certain kind of therapy, no medication and just therapy, etc) that works for me. the PD i have is generally hard/impossible to treat with drugs, and then most of my other disorders are also more therapy responsive then drug responsive (except the severe anxiety/panic attacks, those could be gotten under control with a good helping of anti-anxiety meds). i'm not in much of a rush in any event; i like to think i'm handling them pretty okay with the resources i have. but once i get proper medication, proper therapy, and my service dog, i know things will be perfect. ;v; then it'll more or less be a battle to REMEMBER to take my medication.

oh man, that sounds like it would be pretty awesome - i'm not much of a traveler myself, though my boyfriend is trying to change that. he wants to take me all sorts of places and i'm like 'thanks... but how about we just stay home?'. i'm so glad it was able to help you develop a sense of self and kick your esteem up! also i'm sorry to hear the boyfriend was a shithead - some of them can turn out that way, unfortunately. :c the place you had me google is ABSOLUTELY STUNNING. that must be such a beautiful and scenic walk with the pups - i am completely jealous! we have some beautiful walking places out here, but wow, nothing like this. it's also nice to have family nearby (assuming they're not also shitheads, haha), as well as friends. upon moving out here, for the first time in my life, i have friends i can hang out with... it's really nice. ❤️ i'm glad life is treating you okay, and it's also nice that the wanderlust has faded. that can get you into quite a bit of trouble early on when you don't have the money to satisfy the need!

he sounds absolutely adorable, if not a bit nippy! i had a pup like that myself, his favorite thing to do when playing was nip - got him into trouble a few times cause he got a little too feisty. so nice that he has pups that don't seem to mind it and go along with him though! like you said, i've had a couple dogs respond with 'what the hell dude??' when he got a little too excited. OH MAN BOERBOEL ARE GIGANTIC. that is an impressive pup friend collection there! his other friends are so young! they'll be big pups soon, too. c: a tired pup is a happy pup. LOL my oldest dog was the same way! we tried taking him to the park so he could have fun and get to meet other dogs, but that's all he did. stand there and bark. and get REALLY MAD when the other dogs ignored him, or when they tried to play and he was like "NO, I DONT WANT TO PLAY, I WANT TO BARK". but it definitely sounds like that might be the case, haha, she just wants lots of love and attention! talespin's dogs are just... the best. ;v;

aww, lili sounds like a sweet girl. i think a lot of people are too aggressive with trying to pet and touch dogs - like, not every dog needs to be trained for you to rub your hands all over it (service dogs and working dogs excluded, they need to show the utmost professionalism). if a dog doesn't want you to touch it, quit touching it. and don't touch peoples dogs without asking. people sincerely frustrate me sometime. i'm so glad she is with someone who loves her and spoils her like you do! having a pup that sleeps in the bed with you and watches things with you is such a great experience; they really are the best friends you could ask for. oh... that poor angel. it really sounds like she is most assuredly traumatized - and due to the barking and weariness of humans, probably not properly socialized as a pup and abused at the same time. all considered, she seems to be very loving, loyal, and great. it's also good that she has a friend, some dogs that have a past like hers never get that. :c

UGH SAME. literally going to the shelter is the worst! i used to hate going to them before i moved, because we only had one and they were always full, and dogs so rarely got adopted out unless they had a certain look. meanwhile, we've been to a couple shelters around here and the adoption rates are sky high. it's such a relief. i love being able to go in and look at the sweet pups and see ADOPTED plastered over nearly every one of their information sheets. oh gosh, see, i would have had no idea LOL. i would have been like 'uh... i know you want out, but that's like? dangerous? for a bunny... like... you're... you're a bunny, you know this right?' and would just be stared and stomped at. an exceptionally lax and well behaved bunny, thats ADORABLE. what a sweetie. ;;

cats are strange, but they are wonderful. ❤️ aww, poor grym! no one likes getting their butt bit. D: it sounds like she was definitely the boss though and it's good he learned it instead of making a lot of trouble. i'm so sorry... thankfully, i've been lucky enough to never lose an animal that way, i cannot imagine the anxiety, helplessness, and finally heartbreak. i truly cannot imagine it. i'm so sorry. but yes, at least he went peacefully and was not in pain at any point. ;; that is the best you can ask for in that situation. cats are wonderful. ❤️ but yes - having a cat that you can only keep outside is always like a dangerous game of roulette. there are so many bad things that can happen to them. so perhaps it is best to focus on other pets for now. i would be happy to check out the FB photos of lotje if you still have them/don't mind sharing! again, it took me way too long to reply to you and for that i am sorry. ;o; she is super, super strong, especially for a bun! i always kind of saw them as fragile, but i suppose they're quite a bit more resilient than i had first anticipated.

ugh, i totally understand that. someday i hope to be able to rescue more animals myself, but i kind of gotta build my own funds to do so - i have help from my bf and friends, of course, but in the end, it comes down to me. i would just keep an eye open for opportunities to rescue - but put yourself and your current pets first. no missing food or rent to save a kitty or anything. even if you really want to. AND YES. I APPROVE OF THE VIDEO IDEA. oh man, our dogs love woodstock from charlie brown, they carry the hideous yellow monstrosity everywhere, too. i always told them they needed to pick a better looking toy if they were going to try to show it off in public. no one wants to see a dirty, drool encrusted woodstock bird LOL. oh no, you have the evil toy serial killer dogs. one of my parent's dogs is like that - he literally FINDS THE SEAMS on toys and destroys them, ripping their insides out before tearing holes in them. he's... he's odd. but yes! thrift stores are like heaven for pup toys and clothes and things like that!

as always, take your time replying and im SO SO SO sorry this took me so long. ❤️ i hope you're okay, and if you need to talk about anything my mailbox and comment box are always open!

Ah I hope it gets better soon!! Hugs!

Oh are you trying to quit taking them? is that what's making you nauseous? Sounds tough ;n;

I am going to send it to you via smail in a blink

Love, you have to shrink your flower link when you want to put it into friend feed like I have. Do you know how to do it? ^-^