Heyyyy everyone! Man I'm so sorry that I've been largely absent for... well, way too long. I figured I'd pop on here and give you all a short update on my life and kind of where I'm at right now.

I had some big life changes including returning to single status (wee), changing jobs and moving back closer to my family. I wasn't able to get out of my lease early in my previous place which led to me having to pay rent on two places and working my tail off for quite awhile to make up for the slack. Thankfully the student loan repayment got pushed back again so I didn't completely drown ;-; But now I'm kind of back to normal bills, normal life and just... surviving again. My dog, Yuki, has been an amazing lil puppers for me to lean on and I'm kind of convinced that, without her, I wouldn't have made it out of the pandemic. My mental health took a huge hit for a long time. For those of you that deal with anxiety, depression, or any other mental disorders/issues, I'm sure you can empathize that even on a 'normal' day, these can be hard to deal with. But going through the pandemic working in healthcare, being laid off, switching job, moving, etc... it took a huge toll on me. So much so that I decided to start going to therapy. And I'm really glad I did. I'm not usually one to completely open up about issues like this but I know a lot of people in my groups have been around since "the beginning" and I think you deserve to know at least some of the struggles I've been through which led to me being gone for so long.

Anyway, here I am, semi-active again and trying to get myself back into being social online as well as getting back to my art a bit again. I will say that I won't be able to take on much in the way of commissions just because work still is quite busy and that pays my bills more efficiently than art commissions at the moment. So my comms will remain closed for now, but if anything changes in the future I'll definitely ping my group.

I hope everyone has been doing well, I miss you all! And here... enjoy a cute pic of my puppers and me ❤️

It's lovely to see you around, I hope therapy helps and please take all the time you need! I can definitely empathize, holy heck I need to call and schedule therapy again, I just finished school and I have nothing sorted. Mental health is a slog and I hope you excel as much as you possibly can. I'm not sure what else to say here but I just want you to know you are appreciated and missed

So glad to see you around again

I’m so sorry you’ve had a rough go but I’m glad you’re starting to feel better <3

Hey ! It's great to see you again! I'm sorry you've gone through the ringer. At least things sound like they've eased up a bit for you. That is such a cute photo of you and your pupper.

I'm sorry to hear you've had such a tough time hugs I'm glad things are getting better for you, it's good to see you back as well!

- It's nice to be back even if it's in a small capacity at the moment. Therapy has been a great tool honestly. I've been going for over a year (just recently celebrated the year mark, woo!) and I feel like I'm not even the same person that started the journey to feeling better. I appreciate your message and I hope you find time to start therapy up again. It really is a Godsend.

- Thank you, it's nice to be around again. It's all good. Everything just kind of hit all at once and was a lot to deal with, but I've worked through much of it. Now it's more of the mental side and learning how to care for myself. -hugs-

- Thank you, happy to be around. Life certainly crashed for a bit there but I feel like it's on the upswing again. I'm hoping my mental health improves enough that I'll really feel like digging into my art again. I took such a long hiatus from it and it almost feels foreign now. And thank you, my puppers really is my life ❤️

- hugs back Thank you. It's nice to be feeling well enough and have the time to actually be on a little bit and see some of the people I've really been missing.

It's so good to see you back buddy! I hope things continue to get better!

PS: Doggo is adorable! <3

Wishing you only the best in the future and sorry you have had a tough time. Glad to see you semi back <3

Firstly: pupper Yuki is lovely ❤️

Secondly I'm glad you had her to lean on during the massive life changes. I'm glad you're in a better place now than you were and that you're slowly regaining some time for yourself/art/enjoyment of life instead of working just to stay afloat. I hope being closer to family is really helping and that therapy is going well for you ❤️

I am so sorry to hear things have been so rough for you. You're such a strong person to get through it and to take such big steps forward to help yourself and take charge of your health. I wish you all the best! Take it easy, friend!

I hope you can heal soon. <3 Furry family members are nothing but love. :3

, So glad to see you back, even if it's in small amounts! Animals, I am convinced, are some of the best therapists (as well as actually going to therapy). The pandemic hit a lot of us really hard. Take care of yourself!

It was such a happy surprise to see pings from you. I've missed seeing you around ❤️ Sorry to hear that you've had such a rough time. Having all of that happen during such a relatively short time...? All I can say is that I'm glad that you made it out of it. And that you had little Yuki to help you through it all ❤️ I hope things continue to move in the right direction for you, and that therapy continue to help you :)

I am glad you made it through all the trouble, that sounds a lot to deal with, love! Pets are always a great help, my kitties are the same for me, they are the best frriends! Have fun around and don't stress yourself! <3

Welcome back. waves insert obnoxiously sweet voiceHi, Yuki...

Sorry times have been challenging. Glad you're making it through.
Sounds like you have a good support system around you. :)

Glad to hear you're feeling better <3

- hugs so good to see you again friend :)

- Thanks love, nice to be back even at a small capacity!

- Yuki is the cutest. Definitely not biased lol. And thank you, I'm definitely on my way on the up and up. Just took some time to get here.

- Thank you so much. Honestly would suggest therapy for anyone that even thinks they might benefit from it. I'm not sure I'm a strong person, but I'm getting there day by day and I'm glad I have a good support system to lean on.

- Yuki is definitely my leaning post on some days and she's an amazing support ❤️

- I'm definitely trying to take care of myself ❤️ And yes, animals are absolutely incredible and they don't even know how amazing they are most of the time.

- Ah I've missed being around ❤️ Yes everything happened all pretty close to one another, within about 6 months or so. So yeah... it was a tough period in my life. There are other pieces to that as well, my relationship with my mom kind of falling apart and whatnot that I didn't go into depth with, but I hit the main points in my post anyway. I'm happy I made it out too and am on the other side of it all.

- Animals are truly amazing in all honesty. I'm just happy I got Yuki at the start of the pandemic (not even knowing it was the start) and had her through the toughest time of my life. So glad you have your kitties :)

- Heh, Yuki will appreciate your greeting. And it's alright, I'm on the upswing now, feeling better and just happy to be around again.

- Thank you love ❤️

Sometimes our journey is roundabout but I'm glad yours is headed in the right direction for now hugs

I've missed you! I definitely understand literally everything you talked about, more than you probably know. Life hasn't been kind to me either, and I've kinda petered off Subeta most days now. My days are mostly focused on my son and just staying sane so I've not quite been as social as I probably should. If you wanna catch up I'm still on discord and have it on my phone. I'm glad you're doing better! Give Yuki a big ear scritch for me :)

Yes, therapy can be incredibly beneficial. I was really struggling with anxiety and panic last year and I saw a therapist myself for nearly a year. It helped me so much. Support is so important, even if it is just talking to someone who is knowledgeable and compassionate. Bouncing ideas off someone and just getting things off your chest is so liberating.

Please remember to give yourself the credit you deserve, though! Therapists can only make suggestions and help you become aware of unhelpful thought patterns. It is ALWAYS YOU who does the hard work! ❤