So the housing authority recently posted they are renovating inside and out and renaming our apt complex but wont give out info other then a vague letter and a thing saying attend a web conference on the 20th. I am disabled but not on help, and in a lot of pain all the time, and now I have severe anxiety from it the last several years.

My pain is to the point I hardly can do anything. Now I am trying to pack up my house in case we get a sudden eviction notice bc Ive seen similar notices around portland result in people being evicted in a week or a month after rennov starts. Yesterday/ Today they started putting new siding up, and Im having a hard time. I keep disassociating and having panic attacks but Im trying to hide it because it upsets others but Im having a hard time managing putting on this happy hopeful determined face. We potentially will even have to get rid of some pets (4 birds is a lot, to try and get another apt to be ok with, and Im frozen thinking about if I have to get rid of any of them.) Two are like my children especially and I dont know how I could with them if somehow I had to give up them all up I dont think I could handle it.

I feel like its hard to put into words how hard its making things for me mentally, I feel like the sword of Damocles is dangling over my head and I can only brace myself, despite trying to research and find a new place, its so hard to find anything when this WAS the place we could barely afford and soon it will be unaffordable or we wont even have a place, and we will have to scramble to put stuff in storage and find a way out of this. I feel like, if I cant get my head together everything will fall apart, bc Im the one who has to figure this out (my partner is working all the time and we are probably have to make it even more.... I dont know how to make myself feel less like the end of the world, But I keep putting on the positive bc what else can I do....but try to figure it out and try to be positive...