I don't know if this is going to make any sense because I am seriously fucked up right now. The reason will be in here somewhere later.

So about four months ago, I stopped having periods because I started a new birth control pill and I was so happy because I didn't have to deal with that shit anymore. But then around a month ago, I started spotting again, which turned into a month-long period, however light. Two weeks into that crap, I made an appointment with my gyno and we talked and decided an IUD (specifically Mirena) would be the next step since I'd already been on two bc pills, each of which ended the same way. So now with that problem, I'm waiting until October 8th, when I'm scheduled to get it put in. I really, REALLY hope it works. I'm afraid of the side effects, but I'm also sick of having a month-long period, so...I'm getting it.

Then around, let's see...about 3 weeks ago, I started having trouble with a lymph node on the right side of my neck, below and behind my ear. It's seriously puffed up and kind of sore. So I saw my regular doctor and she put me on an antibiotic. That took the pain away, but it didn't do much else. So I went back and she put me on a much stronger antibiotic. In the meantime, I researched ways to 'fix' the lymph system and came up with a few things (all of which I cleared with her first) - dry brushing, alpha lipoic acid, and red clover tea. So I'm doing/taking all of those things as well. But I've been on the new antibiotic for three days now and no change.

I also started taking a higher dosage of my anti-anxiety/anti-depression meds because the other wasn't working anymore (I'd been taking it for years). I know it's a combination of me being stressed over my lymph/female issues, stress over my job, and just my system becoming too used to my older, smaller dose.

For some reason, I've also started having cramps again, just the past few days, and they were bad enough today that I had to take a pill. Here starts the reason why I'm 'fucked up' today. I decided to take one of my menstrual formula pills for the cramps, thinking that would target it quicker. It did, the pain went away...

...BUT HERE'S WHY I'M FUCKED UP. The pain pill I took, which usually makes me tired, I totally forgot that it does that and took it. So now I'm at work and totally fucked up in the head. It's making me even more tired/fucked up than it normally does, probably because of the other pills in my system. But the pain was bad enough that I had to take something. I just wish my stupid, addled brain had chosen something other than the one pill that makes me too tired to function. I really should have called in, but it didn't start affecting me until I was on my drive in. FML, you guys.

tl:dr; On new medication for anxiety/depression AND a lymph problem AND a female problem, and THEN I took a pain pill because I was having awful cramps, PLUS I'm stressed out because of the aforementioned problems. I am SO fucked up and out of my head right now.