Hello all!! For as long as I can remember I have been interested in all things supernatural. Ghosts, magic vampires ect. When I reached highschool I tried to communicate with the dead. I also realized around this time, that I like spells, tarot, and physics.Yet I never truly dabbled in it because my parents never believed. I have been drawn to crystals and stones my whole life, and have been weirdly empathetic to others around me so much so that I feel their pain before I feel my own. Its not just that im interested its that I am drawn to it. Meaning I can forget it and get a stronger urge to see it and be around it. I notice cold flashes ect...

Can someone help?

Have you tried looking into all things Pagan?

I'm not entirely sure the answers you are actually asking for. My fiance is very much into those same things and I myself have been slowly finding my place in this area as well. i would heed a warning to you though, be careful with what you mess with. Messing with things like this if you don't TRULY know what you are doing can get you into trouble with the spirits of all kinds.

One thing for sure, is the more you learn about the supernatural, the more spirits will notice you and be attracted to you. Good and bad, but especially bad such as demons. If you know how to handle them, then great, but be careful.

I don't know a lot about the supernatural myself yet, but I am learning, mostly from my fiance but also from my spirit guardian, Konryu. I would love to try to help you in any way I can, and if I don't know something, I can ask my fiance and see if he knows, he has quite a lot of knowledge in this. He and I are both Wiccan, which is not be be mistaken as "witches" or psychics etc. It is a path of the "wise ones". It's a little hard to explain in words as I am still new to the exact definition of it but I had found that while for a long time I considered myself Christian, my beliefs actually closely followed Wicca far more than Christianity. It is closely related to Pagan beliefs and sounds like it is what you are talking about.

I once read about Wicca.. I really like the supernatural.. Ive been around ghosts before.. But how did you learn to speak to your spirit gaurdian?

(Hoo boy prepare for a wall. I'll try to make this as short as I can initially ^^)

It is not something I learned to do. My spirit guardian was not something I just innately had, he quite literally found me. My fiance and I were browsing an antique shop here in town, they had all sorts of neat little baubles, some old, and some actually newer than they liked to think they were.

Well in one case they had had some swords and knives and the such, one in particular was really more of a newer prop sword so the blade wasn't even sharp. Oddly enough to my surprise I had heard a voice in my head. He said deeply, "My name is Konryu, I have been looking for you. I want to speak more with you but we cannot do so here." I was quite a bit startled yet excited, because I was just learning from my fiance about some of the supernatural things.

RJ knew something was up cause I quickly decided to leave the shop and got back into the car. With him wondering what was going on, I told him what happened and said that I wanted to go home and find my wallet so I could buy the sword, luckily, he was priced at only 41 dollars, so I figured it was a small price to pay to get to speak with a spirit whom seemed very adamant about doing so and if we couldn't talk in the store as he said well the only option was to buy the item he had chosen to bond himself to so we could talk more privately. Not only that, but he is a dragon spirit and that made me even more excited due to my extreme fondness of dragons.

According to him, he has been with me throughout a few of my forgotten past lives and tries to seek me out in each new one but is not always successful. He claims he chose to inhabit the inexpensive prop sword because somehow he knew he would be able to find me in that form. So of course, I went back and bought him, much to his happiness and somehow seemed like some relief was there as well, as though he could finally feel settled or something.

After that, well it would honestly be quite a novel length to write everything that has happened with me and Konryu since then, I've learned a lot from directly meditating with him and meeting him in a "world" in my mind. And honestly, he became my spirit guardian by a process he brought up called "soul binding" where we literally bound us together for a time. I had to ask RJ on that one cause I was a bit wary about something regarding my soul and I didn't want to take chances even if Konryu seemed nice at the time, I didn't know him that well either.

Turns out it was fine, RJ explained it meant he wants to be bound to me so he can protect me wherever I go. Of course at first I actually had to drag Konryu every little place I went as shortly after the procedure I got weaker and felt sicker the farther from Konryu I got. We did stabilize that by a method RJ insisted on doing himself and I can't recall exactly how he did it. Which was good, cause I got so sick at work for over a week because of this and I just can't drag a sword into my workplace.

Konryu is interesting, and now that we have become so comfortable with each other over the past.. Geeze I think it's already been a year now, wow.. Well its hard to explain, but instead of my initial "omg I can talk to a real dragon" and acting incredibly "Worshipy" to a point and whatnot, we are very comfortable with each other and sometimes bicker like small children or best friends.

He makes some demands I find rather silly at times, like insisting I drag him with me to every room I am in. Even if I will be gone just for a second. (He just wants to be as close as possible so he can protect me. He's like a cranky old man at times. aha)

We've come to an agreement on that one though, if I will be gone for more than 10-20 minutes I'll take him with me, if not he'll wait.. But eh. He also REALLY likes being left in sunny areas, which is another thing I don't agree with him on.. the sun. I dislike it so much cause it is so hot and drains me, but he loves it. I'm more of a moon person but I have a sun dragon as a spirit. XD

Sometimes I forget some of our agreements like meditating with him or bringing me into the room with me. He likes to meditate with me to help keep my soul calm (which he is a very soothing spirit when he wants to be) and he also trains me in some "spells" and abilities that help with soothing the soul and healing as well as things that will protect me from evil spirits.

Over the year I've seem some crazy things, more and more so the more aware of them I get. That's why I do caution you, cause some of what I have seen made me temporarily regret learning about any of it especially when apparently it was my job to take care of some of it. Pretty scary when I have so little to work with unlike RJ who is much more knowing.

Buuut yeah! I'll leave that at that for now but I'll happily tell you much more if you like! I just think this is huge already and you might pass out seeing all this. I have so much more I can tell you (and be happy to) about Konryu, and a few of the other spirits that I have encountered and even have following me around. XD

I honestly don't get to talk about these things to anyone but RJ who already knows cause he was there, so I'm actually really excited to share this with someone else who won't think I'm crazy! ^^

Edit: One last thought. Do you have Skype? Perhaps we could discuss this there. That way we could more actively talk and I can explain things a little easier. Though here is fine too if you prefer it. ^^

There are some pretty good Pagan and supernatural subreddits on Reddit! /r/Paganism, /r/Wicca and /r/witchcraft are great. /r/occult can be okay but it's a bit iffy for me.

Tumblr also has a really big witchcraft and supernatural communtiy but there are a lot of people on there who have very strong opinions.

You're definitely not alone though! There are plenty of people out there in the same boat as you. :) I like to read Tarot and work on developing my psychic abilities.

The good thing about pagan religions is that there aren't really any rules about what you believe or how you practice. The Wiccan rede says that you can do whatever you want as long as you don't harm anyone and most pagans I've talked to warn against using magick to do anything against others' will, but it's not like it's a set rule. You can practice however you want and whenever you want. I got into it because I'm really into science and I thought, well, what if "spirit" is like the energy and matter, and you can somehow manipulate that energy. So when you do a spell it's like calling that energy to do your will. And everything is balanced; positive and negative. I thought it made way more sense than other major religions. Also you can pick whichever deities you want to use or none at all. And there are so many branches. Wicca, Shamanism, Satanism (which isn't what most people think it is. I suggest you read about it), and Chaos are just a few of them. Go to your local library or book store and look in the metaphysical section. That's where you'll find the paranormal and supernatural stuff, too.