And no, , I don't mean you, lol. :P

I mean this thing we call life. It seems like the past few weeks have just been crap, just one thing after another. It's like I just can't catch a break lately. A couple of weeks ago, I was happy because I thought I was getting a good start on saving up for the computer that I desperately need. I had $300 saved up and was going to put another $100 away when I got the next paycheck. Well, no, I should never think I'm ahead. I should have learned that by now. But no, shit happened and I no longer have that $300 put away. I had to buy flea and tick stuff for my cats because it's supposed to be getting bad in our area, my insurance changed through the state and I had to pay more for my medication than the $0 copay I used to have, and a few other things I had to pay for that I don't care to mention. Anyways, $300 gone. And then a few days ago, I had to take my car in to the dealer because there was a screw in the tire...yeah, a fucking screw. The dealer guy wanted $120 for one damn tire so I said no thank you, I'll look elsewhere. I went to a Discount Tire and the guy checked out my tire and asked me to come and look at them too. He pointed out this super obvious cracking around the sides and his eyes were all freaked out and he's all 'this isn't safe to drive on these tires'. My first thought was 'he's just trying to make money' but when I looked at them, you could see bits of rubber flaking off. So my heart drops and I go in to prices tires. $500 later I'm back on the road, but now I owe my parents $500. Son of a bitch, I did not need this to happen. And then there's this week's paycheck. It's short two days because , I had a day off last week, and , because of the way it works with the holiday, one day will be on next check instead of this one, so it's a very small check. Every single penny of it has to go to bills. So no kayaking, even though the weather's finally cooperating, no movies, even though so many are coming out I really want to see, basically no fucking anything fun or extra at all for at least two weeks. So fuck, I guess I'm eating ramen for dinner for a while. And cereal for lunch. Ugh.

Then, a little while ago, a friend from work invited me to her fourth of july party, and I was all like 'omg I might finally have a social life and make more friends' so I told her I'd be there, and she said I could invite friends too, so I invited my two best friends along so they could meet my work friends, and it's at her parents' house on the lake so we were going to bring a tent and camp and it was going to be awesome...but then I realized that I work tonight (it's tonight not the actual 4th) until 9pm and it's over an hour away sooo...I don't get to go. Now my friends are bummed at me and I have to tell my work friend I can't come. I'm so upset because I can't turn down the work because I need the money and now I have to turn down the party even though I have so few friends and I don't want them to be mad at me, I don't want them to think I don't want to hang with them because I really, really do.

And then today I get a text from my cousin telling me my aunt is in the hospital with pneumonia and a racing heart so I'm freaking out about that. If something happens, God forbid, I can't go down there to Texas (I'm in Michigan) because we can't afford that at all. She's my mom's only sister and one of her only siblings left out of 7. It's going to really hurt my mom and the rest of us if, God forbid, something happens. That's just not something we can handle right now.

Then there's the friend I had to dump last week because of what basically amounts to a giant shitstorm. This girl, we'll call her B, was dating my best friend (A)'s brother (C). So C was getting super into B and A was feeling more and more left out. Then B wants to try and be my friend, which I think is cool, because she seems like a nice girl and fun to be around. We hung out a couple of times and were getting to be friends. Then I talk to A and kind of pay more attention to how C and B are together and I'm noticing how controlling B is of C. And how condescending and just plain mean B is to A. And I don't like that because A is like a sister to me. So the shit finally hits the fan and B and C break up because of a lot of things, but basically because of A getting her brother to realize how controlling and shitty B is being. A and C almost had nervous breakdowns over the whole thing. And I don't blame them. It was getting really stalkerish towards the end. B even wrote 6-7 page letters to A and A/C's mother about how she needs to be a part of their family and how much she adores them and creepy creepy blah blah blah. So C ended things with her and now B is stalking all of us on social media, texting, and won't leave us alone. So I finally lost my shit and texted her to please leave us all alone, that if you hurt my family (A and C) you hurt me, and I don't take kindly to that, so please just cease all contact with us and I blocked her on everything. But that really hurt to do because I don't like being like that.

And then last night I got a phone call from a family friend who had to put his cat down. The cat had been sick for a while, but took a turn for the worse yesterday and they had to do it. This is a kitty I had kitty-sat for, a kitty I'd know since he was a teeny kitten. I used to go swimming at their house and the kitty would sit by the side of the pool and watch me. He was so sweet and loving. Squeek, I will really miss you little buddy and I'll never forget you.

So basically I'm worried about my aunt, worried about money, worried about not having any friends, worried about that girl even though she was being a creepy bitch, my friend's cat had to be put down...and life is basically just shit right now. I just want to curl up and take a nap for maybe, oh...72 hours or so. I'm so done being a responsible adult. It sucks. I want to go back to kindergarten and fingerpaint all damn day.

tl:dr; Money troubles, worried about friends being mad, worried about aunt being really sick, worried about bitch girl, a kitty I was friends with died, etc. etc. etc. FML.

Life has a

Thanks for posting. I agree - life don't give no shits.

Sorry to hear about your bad luck with the recent events...life can be a huge bitch sometimes.

I'm still waiting for my good karma to strike back on me =/

Sounds like my life right now ;-;

I have been having a TERRIBLE year so far.... Im just waiting for things to get better, I feel like everyone has to have their turns of ups and downs, been 7 months now... just waiting for my up xD

My good karma's taking it's sweet ol' time as well. I mean, I'm the kind of person who is kind all the time. Even when I'm feeling shitty myself. I take care of stray cats, I save bugs, I work at a memory care place where I help older people all day, I help my parents with everything because they're older, I help my friends with lots of things, I donate to environmental charities, I do social media stuff for environmental charities, I plant flowers specifically for butterflies (even when I'm allergic to the damn things), I help people on here all the damn time with questions and random free things...I mean, I do so much good...shouldn't it be coming back to me by now?! (Sorry, that totally turned rant-ish.)

Waiting for my 'up' as well. Hopefully it comes soon for both of us.

I'm really sorry that all of these things are happening to you, and I wish I could help! Life is hard right now, and it doesn't care who it hurts, but it's up to you to look at all of the bad things around you, and pick out the one good thing that came out of it. For example, with your car. I know it sucks that you owe your parents $500 now, but at least you know that the new tires you got wont pop and damage your car, or, worst case scenario, you! You had happy memories with that kitty, and it lived a happily life with you, your friend, and lots of love! There will always be other opportunities to hang out with your friends, but it's time to take care of yourself now!
Just remember to always be kind and, like I said, look for that glimmer of light in the darkness before you :) I really hope that things get better for you! Someone as kind as yourself really deserves it :)