HAPPY 10 YEARS TO ME!

22nd of March 2005. Who knew that 10 years later I would still be here?

I've spend a lot of time this past week or so trying to remember what exactly first brought me to this website and unfortunately I just can't remember much. What I do remember is a friend named Jen, we first met on a message board. Does anyone remember the big message board crazy from back then? I was signed up for so many of those. I know that both myself and Jen joined Subeta roughly about the same time. I don't really know who first found the site but I do remember how addicted I quickly became. I don't know what happened to Jen. I looked up her user name a couple months ago but there was nothing there. For all I know I could be spelling it wrong or she changed it or maybe her account was cleared out back when that sort of thing happened.

At some point my addiction and general interest in the site slowed down and I took a hiatus of about 4 years. I would return every few months or so I make sure that my account was still alive. I would sign up for various wars or bank a single point toward a holiday achievement, I never fully took part in anything. I tried to get into the holiday spirit during Luminarie. 16 days in 2010, 3 days each in 2011 and 2012. Even though my interest wasn't there I knew that one day I'd be back.

June 2014. I'm back!

It was just another day. I was avoiding Tumblr. I was feeling over stimulated and I just needed a distraction. It had been some time since I'd logged in and the next thing I know I'm addicted again. It helped that when I returned I received a large pile of loyalty boxes and I quickly activated a 3 month GA.

Even now I am still trying to get the hang of things. Some days it feels as if I'm a brand new user. I missed so much, so many plots, holidays, events, anything and everything. Oh and don't get me started on the holiday shops, especially the retired currencies. It makes me sad right down inside of me where I keep my feelings hidden. All the items that could have been mine.

Everyone I had listed as a friend when I returned were either all inactive or frozen. Even if they were still active who knows if they would remember me from so long ago. I'm still trying to find my place in the social side of the site. I feel weird sometimes trying to jump into something and ask people to pay attention to me. (see: this post) I have met a small collection of people on here I would be happy to possibly call my friends. There's also a number of people who have helped me with some stupid questions I have. Even something as simple as an anonymous gift or a random sticker being stuck to my album. It's the simple things that make me happy and that's what's going to keep me coming back!

I hope my 10th year on Subeta will be absolutely amazing. The last 9 months have gone by so quickly and I can hardly believe what I've accomplished in that time. My vault alone has increased 1100% !!! ;P

My biggest goal for this year is to establish a wonderful circle of friends. I want to finally be part of the social side of Subeta. I want my time here to be more than just something I quietly do to past the time. I don't want to just read posts I want to be apart of the conversation. I want a group of friends who I can share my Subeta accomplishments with. By the time Luminarie 2015 comes around I want to have a shopping list so big that would spend more sP on others than I would myself. (to be honest I rarely spend anything on myself to begin with)

If you don't know me at all (and even if you do) and you took the time to read this I just want you to know that you're amazing and it means so much to me. I hope the rest of your day, online and off, is full of happiness.

Congratulations on your ten years! :D I really enjoyed reading your post - especially your goal for this year. I hope you can find a wonderful group of friends :)

I don't know how I ended up here but I'm all teary eyed and fuzzy feelings for you and so glad I took the time to read your post<3 You're a Subeta inspiration :D I have a similar story to yours with a long hiatus and now suddenly back with the full addiction and wanting to dive in full force. I wish you the best of luck on your goal, I don't know you but you are a wonderfully sweet person.

Wow, 10 years already! That's amazing regardless of the hiatus. Mega congrats! I hope you will reach your goal by the end of the year. I know I don't appear to be very chatty sometimes, but don't be afraid to send me comments or whatnot :P!