The last 6 months for me have been hell. Long story short my BF(now ex) suddenly stopped talking to me 6 months ago and I still haven't heard from him.

I'm awaiting a hip replacement and have been for 2 years so I'm stuck in the house 24/7. Im in so much pain, my tablets make me dopey and spaced out. I get called Im a liar with my hip so much because I can walk, but just barely. I need a crutch most of the time and now have a wheel chair but I need someone with me and I have no one.

My brother has autism but as a sibling I get no support and I'm expected by the general public to allow him to do what he likes which is not helping me or himself. He is 16 with bad hygiene and does nothing but play the play station all the time or shouts at everyone. I get harassed for venting my frustration and accused that I hate my brother which is a load of cow shit because I try so hard with my brother but there is only so much shouting someone can take.

My mum is stressed with work, my dad has poorly hands and drinks to numb the pain. He isnt a nasty drunk, but its depressing watching him bump into the walls and fall down the stairs. My step mum is coming out of teaching and into early retirement because parents cant discipline their kids right because of all this human rights shit where you cant shout and hit your kid anymore. My step mum has been hit by some of these kids and the parents dont care. (I feel for some of the parents because they are really trying, but kids cant be punished anymore. Some parents are arseholes though that dont care what their kids do)

And then all this shit in the world happening. The shootings in America today/yesterday that according to my news channel is quite common in that area. (I live in the UK) The poor children starving in poor countries despite all this charity work been done, its like no money is going to these poor people. The wars and this fighting in the middle east... I could go on..

Don't get me started on animal abuse...

Im 19.. Im meant to be having the time of my life, but Im spending my nights scared to sleep because of nightmares. Im in agony all the time. Im depressed because I see all this bad stuff happening and all I can do is just sit and cry.

Everyday that comes closer, although I dont believe it, I wish the end of the world would come. Or shall I rephrase that.. I wish the death of humanity would come.

We as a race has destroyed this planet. Either the supposed end of the world happens this December, or in 20, 200, 2000 years from now. It will happen. Because of us. All of these innocent animals (Other than cow because of their poo ehehee) will die because of us. I know death is the only certain thing for every living thing, but death naturally (or been eaten by another animal in some animals cases) is better than dying by been murdered or man slaughtered as the case might be.

I just wish that the human race would be killed off and that nature could take its natural course. I love my pets so much and I care for them the best I can. I know that humans have helped with some animals like the Panda. But did you know pandas used to be meat eaters? They where forced to "evolve" into only eating bamboo which is causing their decline. (this is what I heard on a documentary many years ago, feel free to correct me) This was caused by humans. Extinction is a natural thing. Our friends the dinosaurs for example. If its going to happen, its going to happen sadly :/

Sorry, it turned out to be more of a rant of all sorts. What are your thoughts on anything in my post? I know there are some nice people in the world and some nice things. But right now I feel so alone and so negative. Im scared. Im not seeing these nice things anymore.

aww hugs I wish the end of humanity would come too.. because I really hate people.

for some reason, I really sympathize with you. Some of the other posts on here are ridiculous and people just wanting attention. Yours really caught my eye. (I'm hard to please, it's a compliment)

Maybe this is just me, but I don't see many people having the time of their lives at 18-21 anymore :/ I typically see it in 26 and up O__O But at that age I think that's when you have your career started and you're an "actual" adult.

what's even sadder than starving underweight children is starving overweight/obese children >__>

anyway, I don't usually say this but-chin up, both of them! fat joke just kidding,but really-stay positive :3

Thanks, you made me smile ^.^ But really every one's issues on here are just as valid as the next persons. As an out-sider, we see an unbiased view. We see it for what it is. It might be trivial to us, but to that one person it might be the real end of the world. Some posts are obviously attention seeking, but I dunno about the posts today; Iv not had a look. Thank you. I try to be positive, but it really is hard. hug

Well, I judge people harshly so it's probably me who has the jaded perception of people >__> anyway, it IS really hard but sometimes you just shouldn't dwell too long on things you personally can not change such as the war in the middle east. Try and focus on smaller interactions with people, like your friends or your problems or help with your families problems. Take your mind off war, shootings, suicide bombings and what not. Focus on what you can mend rather than what you can't :D

you and I sound very similar. Our family situation is somewhat the same. My brother's only 10 and he plays computer games constantly. He has no set limit and no strict rules. My parents have him in soccer and he likes to swim so I'm happy he at least gets out sometimes, but he's rarely punished for throwing fits and being downright rude. I'm terrified for him to go to high school because I don't think he has any real social skills. My mom's always been too much of a pushover :( My dad drinks every night, and like yours he isn't a horrible person when he drinks. He gets kind of emotional and it breaks my heart to see him stumbling around. He tried his best to connect with us but he's dealt with depression for most of his life. I feel so guilty and feel the weight of my family on my shoulders constantly. I want everyone to be better. My twin sister and I share the same views. We both love animals and find the human race in general appalling. With the millions of other species relying on the same resources the fact that we're able to take and destroy everything makes me sick. I feel like I'm at least doing my part by not having kids. I don't want to add to the fucking huge human population and I also don't want to bring up a child in such a shitty world. :/

All we can do is enjoy the little things in life that make us happy. For me it's spending time with my sister, having random game nights with friends and baking (especially in the Fall...omg. So stoked for summer to end!) I try not to dwell on things too much, it takes too much energy thinking of things I have very little control over.

I know what you mean about not planning on having a child. I wouldn't want my child either contributing to the end of the world or been caught up in it. I'm quite envious you have your sister. I feel alone most of the time. When I want to talk about these problems I tend to get told not to think too much. Wish I could be naive again lol. I used to pray to god for immortality lol. I dont even believe in god, I'm not even religious. Autumn and Winter are much better months for me. Im not a fan of the heat that summer brings, but this summer for the UK its been rain rain rain that I actually like to see the blue sky every now and then lol I also try not to dwell on things like that, but I dunno its like my mind wont listen and just randomly these bad things pop into my thoughts.

I know what you mean. I find myself lying awake for hours at night thinking of terrible things that I can't do anything about. It's so hard to get them out of your head once they've started brewing :(

I'm thankful that I have my sister, but we fight more often than not. It's really hard because she's dealing with depression and anxiety (I am too, but it's not nearly at the level hers is at) so I feel like I need to walk on eggshells around her sometimes. I'm sure she feels that way around me too. I kind of wish I was an only child just because I hate how much I care about my siblings. It sounds weird saying that, but I get so paranoid that something horrible is going to happen to them. It eats me up inside. It's nice when there's only "you" to focus on and worry about, you know? Feel free to message me if you ever feel the need to rant about anything! It's good to get these things off your chest

Thank you ^.^ I appreciate it, but if your going through something like me I wouldn't want to rant at you. The eggshell thing is tough, you have to be so careful >__< and the only focusing on you too. I get that. Caring and keeping an eye out for your siblings, family and friends can be very emotionally draining, but we both need to remember to be "selfish" once in a while otherwise we would end up been no good to anyone. I get paranoid about my pets. I'm always worried about them, they are my life. Its nice when one of the cats comes to me for a cuddle because normally shes very angry and loves to stalk the other cats and my mum. But with me its like she knows when I need a cuddle.

I honestly don't mind! We all need someone to talk to and it's much easier when you chat with someone who is going through something similar. Please don't hesitate to message me if you need to talk :) That's very true about the need to take care of yourself. Ultimately, we need to treat ourselves as best we can before we can expect anyone else to give us the same respect.

My cat is my life! I've had her since I was 6. She always hops on my bed and lays beside me when I'm crying. Cats are amazing like that :)

Oh man cats are great. I love my dog when I need a bit of a hyper moment, but when it comes to quiet time and cuddles my cats the best for me <3 And thank you, you also feel free to message me ^.^ I dont mind. Makes me feel better when I can help others, even if its just to listen to them.

I agree with you on many levels. The human race is a disgusting parasite that has drained mother earth of her many resources and killed off many of her other children. We rape, murder, destroy, all without any thought at all what so ever. I don't see other animals out there killing just for shits and giggles, I dont see other animals raping children, I dont see other animals selling their own into sex slavery and so on.... Humanity has dropped so far off the charts its disgusting. I think Money is the biggest thing to blame for humanity being at terrible as it is. Greed is one of the biggest things this planet should be known for, because of our money and greed we have let the planet slip into a state of utter chaos. Mother earth is slowly dying, we aren't quickly killing her either. We are torturing her to death.... It makes me so sick to think about some days.

I'm very sorry for your predicament. I can't lie to you and say "Things will get better!" because things can always get much much worse.... My life right now is a giant cluster fuck of things gone wrong. Right now I am living in a house without gas, without phone connections, without tv, soon to be without electricity within the next week. My mother and I are in deep dept ever since my grandma passed away last year at about this time exactly. We were left a total of 1000 dollars after her death, as well as a house that is worth more in bills then it is to sell. Right now we are still living in the house, paying what bills we can and awaiting foreclosure. We both suffer from mental disorders, hers are much worse then mine. She cannot leave the house without having a panic attack, thus she has issues getting a job and only gets disability checks... She is a manic depressive with extreme anxiety and Agoraphobic tendencies. I on the other hand, am a Clinical depressive with extreme anxiety who is afraid of people....

I guess what I'm trying to say is, things can be REALLY hard.... So hard you feel like you can't find the light at the end of the tunnel....The only thing you can do is keep trekking and hope you find your way out in the end....

-Akuma That sounds so sad ;__; hug hug Today im in a positive mood, so lets keep on chugging. The tunnel is long and dark, and might not end yet, but it has to come out sooner or later right? Is there nothing at all you can do? Im guessing you live in America, it seems so much tougher in America then in the UK in terms of housing. Although I have never been in such a situation before. I wish you all the luck I have that things get better for you.

Thank you for wishing me luck, it means a lot to me. Hopefully things will get better, I really hope they don't get worse.... I wish you luck in your struggles as well. Housing and things like that are VERY tight in America. Everything is, really.