I can't stand summer anymore, and not just because of the miserable hot, humid weather. This is the worst summer ever. Time to go into rant mode.

First, my boyfriend has been out of the country for over a month now. I thought I would get more used to him being gone as time went on, but I miss him more and more. It's driving me insane! I'm not used to caring about people, so me missing him is throwing me off. I just want him to return, but I have to wait another month before he returns. How can I make the the pain to go away?

Second, I have financial problems. I can barely afford food. One credit card company is harassing me everyday, because I'm a few dollars over the card limit. My job is so slow right now, and I've had no luck getting a second job. My job will pick up next month and I'm getting student loan money for the fall semester of college, but I need financial aid now. I don't know where to go to get help.

Third, one of my classes is so hard right now. It's a bunch of technical stuff, and I don't understand it at all. I'm concerned I won't pass it. There's also another class I may not pass because I got sick during a crucial part of the class and I was working many hours during that time (it was a half-semester class in May). If I don't pass these classes, I wasted money I could have used for food and it'll take me longer to graduate. I want to finish school by next summer, so I can start working and not worry about juggling both school and work.

Last, there's a guy in my community that was trying to get me to cheat on my boyfriend. He had a girlfriend too... He wouldn't stop trying to get me to touch him and go out on a date. I was able to get out of that situation unharmed. I became scared to go take out the trash and go swimming. A week later, I was with a friend when I saw him again. He yelled my name, but my friend and I walked away. Today, I was walking just as he was going to pull out of his parking spot. I hid behind a car, and I don't think he noticed me. I went swimming for the first time since I first met him. I know I could get myself in a dangerous situation, but I'm just fed up with him affecting my life.

The only things keeping me from not spiraling into deep depression are my friends and the internet.

I'm sorry if this is really long, but I wanted to vent.