(That means fuck in Norwegian for those who don't know)

I shouldn't feel like shit.

But I do :C

My friends haven't been talking to me. I'm the clingy type you see, and I've noticed today that very few of my friends initiate our conversations. It's always me. I'm also the first to say "Hi," when we pass in the hallway or something, always the first to trot towards them to talk because I'm bored, always the first to call, and always the first to propose hanging out after school.

Like, it's surprising how much of a kick I get when someone talks to me first.

That would make my day right now. I'm actually waiting for a friend of mine to call, because I'll feel like I'm cheating myself if I call her.

That's ridiculous. It's after I feel like that that I realize shit like this. I was in a GREAT mood all last week.

i was going to say something similar... but more to the effect that you (know you) have an obsession with others and their perception of you... and i'm almost guessing you have something verging on low self-esteem -- as if the reason your friends don't initiate interaction with you is due to something about you personally.

of course, no one likes someone who is suffocating to be around. if i had to say 'hi' to someone 27 times a day, i'd get really mad, really fast.

Buck up kiddo (and great how old am, I am now saying kiddo to people hits desk)

We need people to socialize, to find love, etc. Yet, we should never have to solely depend on someone/s to be happy.

If they know your having a hard time and they do not reach out and they are not really going through something yourself, than maybe you should question the friendship.

This does not sound like a case like that however.

I do have low self esteem. And the fact that I realize it's probably just me being paranoid somehow makes me feel worse. D: