Hey. I just realized how long I’ve been on this website and every year I feel like I’m falling off. I loved this website more than anything, it kept me going in the worst of times. At times, this was the place I came to when I was in school, I had no friends, home life was very strict and the only “bad” thing I ever did as a kid was hack the WiFi and sneak onto subeta because it was the place I felt like I had people I could talk to and get away from reality for awhile. Even though I look back on myself and think “wow I was insufferable”

I met one of my greatest friends here, she even became my best friend for over a decade. Wherever life takes us from here I’ll never forget that and I’ll cherish subeta.

Lately I’ve just been here to keep my account going, I want to work on my pets still and continue on with all of the events but life has thrown a huge curveball here recently, the ebbs and flows of life, as it does. Working to pay bills, trying to live as an adult and things I just thought I’d never have to face or deal with. Being here when I was kid, I miss that.

sometimes I think about just getting rid of everything, leaving my account behind along with all of my friends that left here. Only the few that remain keep me here and the memories I don’t want to forget.

Well. I originally had a different direction for this post but now I don’t even know. Just putting it here I suppose. I’m not leaving but I do wonder sometimes

I joined 20 years ago. I left in 2015 and just returned. It's okay to take a break, even for years. Just don't do what I did and get rid of all your items. If it wasn't nailed down, I sold it or gave it away before I left. I saved my favorite pets and 15 mil sp thankfully so I'm not completely starting over.

I come and go like a stray cat myself honestly. Many people I used to talk to all the time aren't around as much or any longer for whatever circumstances. I still play, mostly mobile. I have fun with dressing my HA. I still have story ideas for pets. But same as you started this site before being an adult, then got older and things shift over time. I have times where I have hours to use for anything and other times having time for a shower, food and bed feels near impossible 😭

I felt this post actually, I joined back in 05 with a couple of friends that were rl and we all used to play Neo originally. We came here, and I remember the early days of everyone foaming at the mouth to get their hands on wizard tokens so they could zap their pets. I also remember the days when these forums were so alive that you could get multiple replies in a day. Things really have changed.

I left for several years, came back and I have like...2 or 3 people on my friends list that are active and I doubt they remember me much.

That is the unfortunate side effect of taking off randomly with no notice. Like you said though, life happens and tends to get in the way. I don't often find time to spend on here like I did when I was younger, but I think this is a genuine experience of it's own. A chance to make new friends, and the new site is under way. Things may get very lively here soon. Also, if you didn't already know, there is a discord for Subeta, there seems to be a lot of activity over there if you are feeling a little social.

I loved reading about how much Subeta meant to you as a child, it really resonated with me because I was much the same. I came here after being banned from Neo and Subeta felt like where I was meant to be instead. For me, Subeta was my little safe haven on the internet. I remember doing quests on the computers in college to pass the time. I even briefly became the minimod of the Roleplaying forum, back when it was still standalone and that meant a lot to me. After college though, I went MIA and when I finally came back, I understandably lost that position.

I've been on more regularly the last 3 or so years because my current job parks me in front of a computer screen for 12 hours with a lot of downtime.

It sounds like things have been a little hectic in your life lately. Might I recommend a book? "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck" by Mark Manson. I've worked on my mental health for years sporadically with no actual professional help, but this book truly impacted me and has helped me focus on figuring out my core values. There's even an accompanying guided journal that I also recommend, I'm still working my way through it but it has really helped to put the lessons in the book into context and application.

I don't think you should get rid of your account if for no reason that holding onto a piece of your childhood that was super important to you. I personally don't think I'll ever totally leave Subeta, even if I don't actually DO very much around here anymore. The site certainly isn't what it used to be, but I still love it here.