Yes — the title is correct, and I’m not changing it for now. Subeta saved my life. It gives me a reason to come here every day: to care for my virtual pet, do quests, chase achievements, and have fun. I say “saved” because I’m the one who shows up — I force myself to open the site, to write, and to be here. But it’s where I can be myself, weirdness and all. It’s where I can tell stories and feel less alone.

If it weren’t for Subeta, I honestly don’t know where I’d be. Trigger warning:

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I might be 6 feet underground

I had a topic before, but locked it because I’m shy and I don’t always know how to ask for help. I did call the crisis line when things felt dark. I’m also deeply interested in mental health and trauma — the brain is a mystery, and I’m trying to learn how to live with mine.

I live with chronic depression, and my self-esteem is small enough to fit in a thimble. It tells me I’m not good enough, that I should run away, that no one besides my boyfriend would notice if I vanished. I’m sorry this message took a heavy turn — I’m being honest, and I know I’m not the only one who feels this way.

Mental health is still judged by many people, which sucks. But please hear me: being different does not make you unworthy of life. I try to practice what I preach, but I’m still a work in progress.

So here’s a big warm hug to everyone, and some very fresh cookies I just baked — they’re still warm (don’t drop them!). Please take care of yourself, not just your body, but also your mind and heart. You matter more than you ever think.

If you’re feeling like you might hurt yourself, please reach out to someone right now — a trusted person, local emergency services, or a crisis line in your area.

Fudge, I make myself cry writing down that message, but remember HOPE is stronger than fear, hope may look small, but sometimes, it's what it takes to have a better life.

So here are some breathing exercises you can do when you feel that life is too much

Inhale through your nose for 4 seconds.

Hold that breath gently for 4 seconds.

Exhale slowly through your mouth for 6 seconds.

Repeat this cycle a few times. If it helps, place one hand on your chest and one on your belly, feeling the air move.

2. 5-4-3-2-1 Grounding

This is less about breathing, more about calming your senses.

5 things you can see

4 things you can feel

3 things you can hear

2 things you can smell

1 thing you can taste It’s like an anchor to pull you back into the present.

Hand Trace Breathing

Hold one hand up like a star ⭐

With the finger of your other hand, slowly trace up a finger as you inhale

Trace down the other side as you exhale

Go finger by finger until you’ve traced your whole hand This one is especially calming if you feel jittery.

Butterfly Hug (self-soothing)

Not exactly breathing, but pairs beautifully with it:

Cross your arms so your hands rest on your upper chest/shoulders.

Tap alternately left-right-left-right, slowly and gently.

Breathe deeply while tapping. This can ease panic and give a sense of safety.