My best friend since i was 12 has passed away and for context we are both 29. I'm doing well day by day and still working. I have a wonderful supportive boyfriend who also knew her since kindergarten. I'm in constant contact with her fiancee and her parents. We take care of the two cats left at her place while no one is there. I spent last night at her place and it feels weird looking around and not having her there.. I miss her energy and conversations we used to have. I'm not one for making a ton of friends as i'm heavily introverted so now i'm down to one friend. We had this amazing communication where we could talk about any issue that we had with others or each other and we would deal with it and build off of it instead of getting defensive or nowhere with it. We once had a conversation at 5am at one of her sleep overs in grade 8 saying that we both wanted to be better people and continue growing. Together we continued to do just that.. I still have text messages where we would both be grateful and bragging about how we have healthy communication and we can come out better people no matter the issue or problem. We both would get into trouble and cause trouble but we would both vibe with it.. I have a ton of stories we would both laugh at whenever we brought it up. Now, as i bring up stories everyone just kind of nods that they heard me and i'm left silently missing her and her energy. We both knew each other better than we knew ourselves and now i'm missing a piece of that. A month after and it's still terribly hard to grasp that she's gone. She played Subeta with me when we were in grade school and she loved the descriptions that were left on some items and loved playing some of the games. I will always hold our memories and experiences dear.. I just can't believe she's gone..

My one solace is that she went happy. She was swimming up north with her fiancé and she ended up having a seizure in the water. She ended up inhaling a ton of water and from there never regained consciousness. She did end up having her organs donated as those apparently bounced back really well. I was with her as they had wheeled her away for the surgery that would finally take her off of life support. I was with her fiance, and two of her closest friends.

Rest in peace you beautiful soul~ You left an imprint on everyone who you communicated with.. So many people miss you <3 .

I will always remember and cherish the times we spent together~

My condolences to you, her family, friends, and fiancee. It's never easy losing someone that you are close to, especially when you have shared a bond of friendship, no, sisterhood, for such a long time. I can't even imagine what it was like for you guys that tragic day, and the pain never truly goes away. Sure, it will fade to a wisp of itself, but it will never completely fade away. I've never personally lost a human friend to the Great Next Adventure, but I am experiencing losing my 16-year-old cat, whom we have known since he was a day old. He's my fur baby and my closest non-human friend...to watch him wither away from something that we can't help heal (he was diagnosed with a blood clot caused by a heart condition and an inoperable tumor in his small intestine in July)...it makes me feel so helpless. All we can do is make him comfortable and ease his way to the Rainbow Bridge. (I'm sorry to rant about my personal issue right now when you had written such a beautiful description of how she had impacted your life.)

So, in remembrance of your friend, let this candle shine for her.

You guys seemed to have a great connection, your relationship sounds healthy and fun. I'm so sorry for your loss. It's always hard to lose someone like that. I lost my aunt last year and she was my favorite person on earth. It's still hard not having Aunt Ze in my daily life, and losing her made me more aware of my own death. I am also living one day at a time, always bringing a part of her with me.

my heart goes out to you, stranger. it sounds like you had an amazing connection! i've lost a lot of people in my short 26 years of life, and if there's anything i can tell you about grief it is this: grief is not all painful; there is joy and beauty tucked in the folds of it. may you find every nook of love that lives within the longing. sending you love, and wishing your loved one everlasting peace. xx

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