Hi. free advice is worth what you pay for it. That said, my ex husband managed to cut me off from things I used to love. He kinda broke me. I have severe depression, out of control. I no longer knit, bead, craft, or go out. I no longer talk to my friends. Maybe you should try to set time aside- just 20-30 minutes a week to work on your music or other hobbies? You could check in with me; I'll also try to do my hobbies, In any case, hugs to you,