god i gotta find a therapist but i am le scared

like literally the past few days i have been super paranoid tht my dad is gna come up here (he lives 6 hours away) 2 like force me 2 go back home. theres no reason why he would do that. hes not like mad at me, and its not like hes ever done tht before. yet here i am shitting bricks every time a car pulls in. and a little bit ago he just texted me "i love you" and now im freaking out like oh god is he mad at me? is he just trying 2 get me 2 reply so he can rope me into a ""discussion"" abt how i fucked smth up irreparably? like... damn my logical brain knows its prob just bc i havent talked 2 him in a while, but i am unfortunately a prisoner 2 my paranoia brain

anyways if u read this, thanks, i just needed 2 get this off my chest. ive always had anxiety surrounding my dad but its been rly rly bad lately

hate that for you, dude :( i'm sorry you're going through this! i get dad anxiety too so i can relate, not that that helps D:

i highly recommend therapy if you ever feel comfy enough and able to. it truly does wonders when you get a good therapist that you really click with and can trust.

i hope you're doing ok, friend! don't forget to do something nice for yourself today <3

😔😔sorry it’s so bad rn friendo I know how hard it is to find affordable help that will actually be helpful but it’s so worth it

I also recently started buspar for my anxiety and it’s been doing rly well for me. It’s very subtle…just takes it down a notch or two, very subtle but in a good way

Hey friend I'm sorry you're going through this. I'm glad you shared it here, I think it's helpful to just put it out there in a safe space so it gets out of your head for a little bit.

Therapy can be really helpful if you have access. It's just nice to have someone on your side who can listen and help you sort through your thoughts. I've also had a lot of benefit from medication, if you'd be open to seeing a doctor. Have you done any CBT? I learned a lot of tools in the partial hospitalization program I did a few times. It takes some practice but it can really help you get your brain under control. I hope you find something that works for you!

thanks yall, its been rly consuming lately 😔 tbh theres a therapist ive been meaning 2 email, i actually used 2 see her thru my school but now she works at a diff place, but w school n shit im just like not rly thinkin abt it

ooo i have not done cbt but ik its supposed 2 b pretty helpful. arent there like workbooks u can get

aw dude im so sorry youve been struggling so much lately. :( anxiety is awful. i hope youre feeling a little better now but if u do need to vent or whatever pls always feel free to dm me! im not online that much lately but im hoping during the holidays ill have more free time to be present here