ugh. ive been stuck in a loop where i just live the same day over and over 4 god knows how long and its rly gettin 2 meeee. its been rly bad since i moved my stuff into my living room while i wait 4 the ants in my office 2 die, and i just feel so detached from reality. the only time i feel remotely alive is late at nite and every1 is asleep then so like ugh. i need 2 start doing more things w my day but i dont even kno where 2 start, i tend 2 try 2 take on like 5 new Healthy Habits TM at once n then failing at all of them, so obv thts not working

it would also help if i could stop sleeping til 3pm :/// how do yall get urselves out of ruts like this. its so bad i only shower like once a week bc i dnt even realize its been however many days since ive showered. and when i do consciously realize tht, im like Welp I Dont Have Time then proceed 2 do nothing dkhgfd aaaaaaaaaaa

i read bungus as budgie, im that tired lolll

thats rough dude i wish i knew what 2 tell u but im in a rut this week too, tho i did do some weightlifting n that felt rlly good

rn im staying up late 2 study but i cant focus sighhh

skdjhgf mood

yaaaa i think a lot of it is a matter of disrupting this routine ive allowed myself 2 fall into, but school is making tht rly difficult blah. im glad u found smth 2 make u feel good 4 a lil while!

once again, mood. i have a test due by 11:59, im watching one episode of the simpsons b4 i start it tho. the time limit is 50 mins so its ok if i start at 11

❤️ Can you make plans with ur bf matbe to change things up?

yea maybe, the problem is theres not much 2 do around here, esp stuff thts safe w covid goin on. we r both vaxxed but still less than 50% of my county is so x__x also he works full-time and has 2 get up at like 5am so in the evenings he doesnt often feel like goin n doin smth big ykno. but thinking abt smth we could do at home is a good idea ty

woo just did the multiple choice part of my test and got 100%! thanks every student out there who made quizlets 4 their archaeology classes! now onto the short answer which im a lil more nervous abt lol. at least i have a lil room 2 falter

whew yay my test is over, time 2 commit die

ugh i feel like i need 2 pull an all-nighter 2 get my sleep schedule back in check but idk when a good time 2 do tht is. also i will b bored and lonely probably. if only i could get my ps4 controller 2 connect 2 my computer, itd b very ez 2 stay up all nite playin yakoozer