i just like. want a break. im soooo sick of spending the whole day checking my lymph nodes or staring at my stomach in the mirror every 10 minutes or being convinced tht every zit is actually a terrible cyst thts gna kill me. hhhghghggghg and the best part is this constant anxiety makes me do an absolute shit job at taking care of myself so then i feel even more like shit and am like SEE I KNEW I WAS DYING. i dont let myself google symptoms bc obviously tht doesnt help, but also not looking them up means my mind can just go wild with whatever possibility. theres no winning hahaha!

uughhhh i'm so sorry you're experiencing this, health anxiety sucks so much

the worst is when you're sure there's something wrong but no doctors or professionals can find anything OR they tell you it's nothing bc they know you have anxiety and so they automatically don't take you seriously 🙃 insert 'guess i'll die' meme here

anyway yeah it's such a horrible cycle to be in and i totally get the thing with not wanting to google symptoms but then your mind jumps to all these catastrophic conclusions anyway ;~; i remember one time i was so sure i had cancer that i started planning my funeral in my head, which is ridiculous looking back but it feels so real in the moment :')

i really hope your mind can calm down a bit soon around all of this, even tho it's ofc way easier said than done! is there anything that you've found helps with distracting yourself even momentarily when the health anxiety is really intense?

i struggle with this too it's awful :(

aw im sorry ur struggling w this marcel :/ my bf has hypochondria too, lately he's been having chest pains which he's had like a dozen appointments for w doctors and even at the hospital a few times, had loads of tests done and all the drs are telling him its most likely just muscle inflammation which will go away on its own but hes been CONVINCED it's a heart issue and that he might die. he just paid £400 for a heart scan in a private clinic (which is a lot since public healthcare is free here) bc he didn't want to wait and they told him the same thing, his heart is totally healthy. apparently his symptoms might be a side effect of the pfizer vaccine? I think having that test has put his mind at ease now but it's really hard to reassure him abt that stuff sometimes and it sucks seeing him get so stressed out 😕 i wish i knew how to help!