...have been a little crazy.

So I haven't been on Subeta in months. Since...January maybe? A lot has happened. I got a new job. Suffice to say, it didn't work out. So then I was super depressed - the kind of depression where you have to drag your own ass out of bed every day. But that only lasted a couple of weeks and then I found another job. This one has stuck so far (it's where I'm at right now) and has a lot of great benefits - decent pay, health/dental/vision insurance, and it's only 5 minutes from my house. I am going to fight tooth and nail to keep it. And then there's the fact that just like my job I lost to covid, I get to go on Subeta when I'm not doing anything else. So it's basically the perfect fit. I just have to fight my depression and anxiety to make myself believe I can do it, which I know I can, but my brain doesn't sometimes.

This will be my very first 40 hour a week job. The most I've worked before in a week is 32 hours. It's a lot for me, mentally. I sometimes have to talk myself into staying hour by hour. This isn't to say it's going badly - it's not - it's going very, very well actually. But it's been almost a year since I worked and then never this long a day before. So it's a little rough right now.

And then of course, I come back here on the day after fucking Survival ends, so I missed all of that. I probably missed masquerade too, didn't I. Those are my two very favorite holidays on here and I am pissed at myself. My wishlist grew immensely in the last few minutes.

So anyways...I'm back! Anything I should know about the last few months?

[edit] OHMYGOD I DIDN'T MISS MASQ! screams like ass is on fire

I am so proud of you for sticking with your job despite your difficulties. I deal with mental health issues myself. I deal with anxiety and other symptoms. It's so hard sometimes to get out of your own head...I should know.

I have a job where I only work about 12 hours a week. I am on SSI, so I can't work more than that. However, I would love to be able to do this job more than I do. I help staff a drop-in center for those with mental health/substance issues. I also help staff a Warmline, which is available 24/7 to help people who need someone to lend an ear. It is quite a rewarding job, and I get to meet many amazing people.

That sounds really nice, your job that is, not the mental issues lol. I have anxiety and depression mainly, and then other things that stem from those. That's a good way to put it, get out of your own head.