I have no one to talk to.

I was supposed to be be going to my grandmas, but all I did was make a few comments that irked my family.

I’m having gallbladder and liver problems at the moment (I have a recovered fatty liver and I have slight bile in my gallbladder and I can’t eat fatty/fried foods anymore). My brother never eats breakfast at home when we’re going to my grandmas (or any other time he’s going out). So, we go to a coffee shop and he ordered three breakfast sandwiches. I can’t eat it, so he said “never mind, just the two sandwiches) and he got me a coffee. Mom said “you forgot her hash brown” and I said you can still put last minute request at the window. He says in a low voice he wants the hash brown, says in a louder voice that he wants ketchup and donuts. So when he was handed the bag, my mom said “looks like you didn’t get a hash brown” and I said “Well, if he didn’t talk like this (made a low voice) while placing the order, I could’ve gotten one” and then I went on google and I say I can eat hash browns as it only has 7g of fat in it. My brother let out a deep grumble and said he was bringing me back home as he wasn’t dealing with my shit. My mom yelled can we just pull over and talk? She said “I thought you were going to mow the lawn” and I said “Wellll... loooks like I’m not going now am I?” No.... he didn’t pullover to talk. He drove pretty fast to dump me off and he brought me back home. I was yelling at my mom that “You have the fucking power to say something” and she said “I’m not the driver”. I left my iced coffee in the car (I would’ve thrown it at him), three my phone at the wall and gave them the finger.

The last time I told my brother I’d drop him off at the bus station so he can get a bus home, shit hit the fan with my mom.

I Guess I’m a disappointment. I’ll remember this. I’m no longer doing any favours for anyone and I flat out told her “I’m not doing anything for you guys anymore”.

I feel like old discarded luggage that no one wants. I cried for two and a half hours. My mom was ignoring my phone calls and she picked up once to say “it’s all in your head that you feel like garbage” and that my “behaviour” wasn’t nice. She turned off her phone.

Maybe my behaviour was immature, but I hate being with my brother because she acts like he’s perfect. That he can do no wrong. He’s also really negative and blames all his behaviour on his former work place. Like dude.... I was abused at my workplace too and I still keep on keeping on.

I’m so hurt right now. I feel nothing. I’m just dead inside, but it’s all in my head. I blocked their numbers too, time being. I don’t care. They obviously don’t either.

I just took the liberty to look for apartments again, but there isn’t any in my price range. I was going to apply for one that’s $985/all inc. but that would leave me with no money as I lost my job.

So yeah. I broke my phone case and I have a bruise on my finger because I punched the cupboard.

[edit] I'm also planning on getting help with a resume and with help finding a job. I like to work. I like to keep busy. I'm also still trying to get my severance pay.

Your fucking family pisses me off. I don't have to really deal with mine unless its picking up/dropping off Alice But my family are not cunts like yours... Damn... We actually all get along for the most part.

:/ Find a new Job if you can,. That seems like it would help distract you and provide income.

I am going to find a new job, but I'm trying to get my severance because I'm entitled to it. I've called a lawyer's firm and I'm just waiting to hear back. It's been a week, so I'll call them again on Monday.

I already know what I'm going to do. I'm going to call an employment place and they can help me with a resume and they have this board with job postings (I don't care if I go work in a grocery store).

a jobs a job. I worked at fucking Walmart before my current job. Best wishes girl. I can't stand how people treat each other. You didn't deserve that.

maybe I did? My mom said it was my behaviour. I was told by someone I only think/feel I'm garbage because they've conditioned me to feel that way.

I wasn't there, but it sounds like everyone kind of overreacted. There should have been more communication, that was the issue. You werent really given a chance to communicate.

No I wasn't. My brother flat out "I'm not dealing with you" and made a B line to the apartment. My brothers not a communicator. He also doesn't compromise.

I'm sorry that happened. You're doing the best you can.

It does sound like everyone overreacted, but your brother was an ass. I hope you get your severance pay. Don't wait a week for anyone, esp a lawyer's office, to call you back. You call them every other day at least. They need to consult with you to decide if they can do anything. That said, call someone else if they don't even return your call! That's bullshit. And you should get your severance pay even if you get another job, so do both at once. A new job that's interesting and has friendly people could really help, as well as the money of course. :)

My mom is treating me like a stranger. She's quick to get rid of me because she doesn't want to talk to me. At all. My brother is also quick to anger. He's got a temper like my father donor.

I feel like I'm not good enough and that I'll never be. I get shit on and walked all over no matter what I do.

Getting separated can be difficult and expensive. I've recently put some financial distance between me and my parents. It is was expensive and emotionally hard. But, I've noticed that our relationship is so much easier because money isn't involved any more. I hope you are able to get some distance eventually and that it could help your relationship with your mom/brother.

I have to agree with everyone else on the fact that is sounds like everyone played a part in over reacting. I had a tense relationship with my mother and older brother as well. It took years of picking myself by my bootstraps and learning how to be on my own.

I am sorry that the situation ended for you like it did though, you don't just shut people down and push them out like that. Yeah, you may have lost your temper, but the channel of communication was shut down when you tried, from the sound of it.

Just work on getting out of there, take things one day at a time. Keep your chin up warrior, you got this. Always remember, this too shall pass. Maybe like a kidney stone, but it shall pass.