I'm not sure how to describe what my problem is, but I'm generally very withdrawn when it comes to relationships with other people (social withdrawal), except when it comes to my parents/close family. I take antidepressants daily (I did try to skip taking them this weekend but as soon as I noticed I'm having a "down" again, I decided I'll stick to taking them daily after all..). I lack the motivation to go out all the time. I do work out nearly daily now and it does temporarily help me to feel better and I try to eat quite healthy as well (except on weekends, lol. I just love food too much..). I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia, although I do not take any meds for that anymore (I used to take them) because... I don't have any positive symptoms. My main problem really is I withdraw from relationships with other people ALL THE TIME. I can't keep friendships (alive) that way. It does make me feel terrible when I don't even write anyone or answer anyone, but like at the moment I don't know how to stop doing that. I don't even know why I do it, I just do it... it did not only happen once but it happens every few months. I make friends and lose them again due to that. I spent a lot of time in front of my pc/laptop/tablet. I love to watch asian drama, read manga and watch anime... read books, those kind of things. But it doesn't really help solve my problem(s). One of my friends even wrote me a letter which I still didn't open because I'm so afraid it will be something negative...

Does anyone else have this problem or a similar problem? Or maybe suffers from schizophrenia as well and.. maybe that is the reason for that? Maybe I'm a huge introvert, or a combination of being introverted + schizophrenia, but idk. Even though I really don't have a problem with being alone, I do need SOME kind of contact with people every now and then... like now... I miss my friends but I'm so afraid to contact them again because I've withdrawn for months already...

It is a serious problem, at least for me :(

I'm an introvert by nature, always have been, but I actually became more extroverted as I got older, especially after a friend of mine since I'd known since high school died in a car accident in 2018 and after I left high school when, because, I didn't know anyone, I started reaching out to people just so I'd have some friends in college. I'm still a heavy, heavy introvert though. I was known throughout my high school friend group as the quiet one who never spoke, and my friends, all of which were way more extroverted than I was never had an issue with that. That said, that saying of extroverts adopting introverts, that's mostly how I acquired friends for a great deal of my life.

I don't have schizophrenia, but I have learned that in regards to not contacting for months, friends will understand that as people's lives just get busy in general, and they'll appreciate you at least making some effort to contact them.

I try to contact mine every couple months( a lot of mine after high school, and undergrad college, moved out of state) just to let my friends know I'm alive and haven't forgotten them, but for a great deal of college( undergrad, at least), I'd miss out on friendships because I'd get someone's phone number in a class and then, just forget to keep in contact with them.