I can't even give you an update on what's been happening.

basically... my life blew up in January and it's been a never ending tirade atm (I hope that's the appropriate word).

My toe ended up getting three infections, then the new surgeon said my toe needs to be fixed. The rest of my nail needs to come out and she has to redo the side that's already done (cause the other surgeon botched my ingrown nail surgery) and I'm scheduled for April 1 and my hand still isn't healed.

Then I had more family drama (what the fuck else is new, right?)

I got trigger finger surgery for my right hand on March 9 (I'm right-handed too). Surgeon looked at two days later said everything was good. Well, it was getting redder so I wen't to the clinic on Tuesday to get it checked. ONE: The doctor wasn't sure what kind of stitches those were because they weren't done right TWO: my hand was getting an infection THREE he had to redo the stitches and my hand is super fucking swollen and yeah. I've already been off work for two weeks due to my hand and I had to take another week off. I get the feeling I won't be back for awhile. Plus I'm diabetic, have Reyanud's and I'm a bleeder so all three of those things impact my healing time.

I still can't find an apartment and half of my living room ceiling is water damaged and soft. The ceiling above my shower is about to cave in any day and we're supposed to be getting heavy rain tonight.

OH!! OH!! I was strung along for half the month of January over an apartment that never existed. I was also almost scammed for an apartment, but I caught the whole thing four e-mails later cause it didn't make sense. Any of it.

I also messaged quite a few people regarding apartments and they never gave me the chance to look at it. Some got back to me a day later "Sorry. It's been rented" and others didn't reply. Bastards.

So, how is everyone else? c:

Yikes, I'm so sorry... Not really sure what more I can say.... Sending you positive vibes and hoping things get better...

Thank you.

It'll get better. Soon. Nothing lasts forever c:

Stay string and hang in there!

hi accidental friend! completely coincidental that i just stumbled upon this thread because i never venture onto this forum lmao but oh my sounds like you have quite a bit going on there. when the going's good it's great but when it's bad life really just likes you hit you all at once huh not to be annoyingly optimistic considering everything you have going on - but i've found that things start to work themselves out eventually, for better or worse... deep breaths and don't forget to step back and take care of yourself things have been going decently in my life until i sprained my ankle badly and now i'm bed ridden (but i'm in america and i'm in a city that's quarantined so hey at least i don't have to attempt to drive with a possibly broken foot and hobble around at work!)

You just can't catch a break, can you? I'm so sorry, that sucks. :/ I'm thinking all the good thoughts for you that things will start to look up soon. virtual hugs

As for me, because I am a retail slave I am getting tons of hours at work buuuut that also means I have to be at work among all the germs and the idiots hoarding toilet paper.

I'm usually optimistic and I can also be pessimistic. I know it won't last. It just feels like it's been forever >_>;

Thank you. Send positive vibes my way if you can.

Speaking of toilet paper and paper towels and stuff.... we're empty and I'm in Northern Ontario. I'm not scared of germs. My OCD has gotten a lot better and so, I feel that if I start washing my hands x45826 daily, it'll start up again (and yes, idiots exist everywhere. That is a pandemic in it's self).

Agree with Austria. You just can't catch a freaking break with anything! I'm bleeping all my colorful metaphors that are trying to stream out. OMG all the botched surgery! Like it wasn't painful enough the first time, then they have to fix it AND you got horrible infections. And not going to get started on the scammers for apts! Jeez. But I am hoping it gets better. God knows you deserve it! Careful hugs.

I'm ok except for the toilet paper hoarders not letting anyone else have any. Rude noise.

And it potentially got worse. A person on my dad's work shift came back from a cruise 2 weeks ago and IS WORKING because he "developed a cold" and is not feeling well. They sent him home, did the testing and now my mom, myself and brother have been around my dad.

My mom is bitching me out because I put my fingers in my mouth after I get on and off the bus.

OMG! I hope none of you get the virus! Was he positive, or they don't know yet? Why do you put your fingers in your mouth? Just a habit? Not allowed to die. I will miss you. :)

Habit. I touch my face a lot.

At this point... I think I'd be doing everyone a favour

"Everyone' doesn't matter. But you do.

Damn, I’m really sorry that these obstacles keep piling up one after another. :( First and foremost, I hope you’ll be as safe and healthy as possible despite the current circumstances. <3 Hopefully your hand will heal up soon and the surgery for your toe will go well. And hopefully your apartment will hold up enough to keep you safe and protected. If not, you should get (more) on your landlord’s case about the current state of your apartment. x_x;

As for the family drama… big hugs Hang in there as best as you can! <3

Oh, gracious, love. I'm sorry, I don't know what else to say to all that.

I told him about the ceiling. He said it's just due to "expansion" ROFL. Yeah. So, if it falls... it's on him now :)

Super late to the thread but holy heck you really have been put through the ringer recently, specially with all these updates. I completely understand being on and off the site and just trying to survive. Specially right now, you really gotta do what little you really can do to try and help yourself. Hopefully no one you or your father were exposed to were actually contagious with the plague.

Where I'm at we're likely a few days off hard lockdown, we're already on soft lock and all non essential businesses have closed. I'm trying not to panic but sadly between anxiety and OCD deciding this is what we're hyper focusing on this entire time, I'm just kinda- well- I'm existing, but barely, if that makes sense? Either way, I'm trying to argue with myself to just stay positive because I'm safe, in my house, with food, power, and running water. Key word trying, though.

Please do try and get some rest though, I know you're stressed about so much but your hand and toe will never heal if you can't at the least get some decent sleep. :( <3

Ick. What a time for you. Have you kept a record of telling him about things with the apartment? Any time I send a work request out I take a picture so if I'm told xyz thing wasn't brought up I have proof. The last one I did was because our old as hell AC died. They wrote back they refuse to fix it until summer since it conked out in August. I have all the papers on it so if they refuse again I can bring it all to them.

And can you pursue anything with the first doc stitching things up wrong?

I have pictures, documents and everything. Took him to the board and yet somehow... it's me causing damage. I've already been down that road. He doesn't give a shit. So... I'm gonna let the roof collapse. It'll happen if we get a week of heavy rain. I told him, so it's no longer my problem. I hate this place anyway. There's chain smokers two units down, my place always smells like cigarette smoke (it's in my cpap tube, on my clothes ect) and what's making matters worse is the disgusting people next door to me don't clean. My place reeks. My clothes not only smell of cigarette smoke, but it smells like their awful stentch. When they open the door, I wretch because the smell is so bad. When the smokers open their door, my eyes and nose burn.

I'm constantly stuffed up: mold, smoke, disgusting shit from next door and God knows what else in this place. I'm trying to find an apartment and I'm getting NO WHERE. No point looking now cause of this fucking virus.

Sorry. You someone triggered a mad attack lol and nope. I won't get anywhere with Doctors in this city because our hospital is rated worst in Canada and Ontario. I sure hope they're proud. They rather save an 80 year old than a 20 year old. True story (it was in the paper): A guy rolled his truck into a rock face. He went to our hospital because he was worried about a concussion. They sent him home. He died the next day because of brain hemorrhage. Same story goes for a 20 some. Went to emerge cause he was having chest pain. They told him nothings wrong, sent him home. He died of a heart attack at home.

I haven't been sleeping well because my CPAP machine isn't right for me. There's two other machines I can try, but I'm going to request an appointment out of town at the Sleep Clinic an hour and a half away when majority of this Covid shit blows over. I'm tired ASF.

The virus isn't causing me to be scared, worried or anxious. I'm just living. I'm calm. I can't go anywhere cause places here are closed until the 31 (other than grocery stores). Yeah... like a two week quarantine period will work lol.

[edit] omg. I didn't know a group exists with hashtag 1. Sorry everybody!