I feel very insecure about a lot of things at the moment, mainly because there's an online friend that I have confused feelings about, do I like them or just the idea of liking them? I've felt this way about someone in the past but I wasn't sure if I really liked that person or just the idea of liking them and I have no idea how to tell those feelings apart. And I feel like I want them to know but at the same time I don't cause my mind could just be exaggerating it but I also believe in being honest about my feelings but then what if it just makes everything weird?

I just feel like I'm very inferior compared to this person and everyone else I know, I want to talk to them more to become more of a friend so I can work out just how I feel, but of course I'm shy about it, it might seem a bit out of nowhere for them to suddenly be getting private messages from me, and I'm not good at one-on-one conversations because I've had private messages from people before and haven't always been in the mood to reply to them so I don't want to make anyone else feel that way, private messages online was how I ended up in that bad relationship many years ago, I wasn't always in the mood to talk to him online but I did anyway just to make him happy.

Sorry, I'm just at a point where I feel like everything's falling apart because of these confused feelings.

Private messaging is a big step for getting to know someone better. You might just look at it as an opportunity to get to know that person better. You can let it go from there. Take it slow and if you aren't feeling it anymore you are not obligated to take it any further. They may not respond and that's okay too--atleast you know that you tried.

Sorry, I forgot I made this thread.

Well, I did eventually reach out to that person and tell them that I wanted to be more of a friend to them. We talked quite a bit about some things, and I don't regret it. I think I did just want to be friends with this person, I mean, I still like them, but now liking them feels more meaningful than it did before, it's less of an idea now and more enjoying our friendship.

I'm so glad hear that!