Out of morbid curiosity I decided to dive deep into the recesses of my post history... I made my account when I was about 13, (I'm 22 now) and HOLY MOLY was it bad. Worse than I could have ever imagined. From talking about boys, to complaining about my poor parents who were just doing their best, it was a truly horrific experience. I used to type "UWU" unironically. My whole body had a visceral reaction, I've never wanted to slam my face into my keyboard more than I do right now.

PLEASE PLEASE tell me I'm not the only one. :'(

It's alright, when I was 16 (I'm 22 now as well) and I first joined I posted a lot of cringy stuff as well, mainly about an online friend I had at the time who I was way too attached to, it was unhealthy and my excuses for it while understandable were still just excuses, and even at 17 and 18 I was still going on about wanting people to like me, and also being proud of finally having a boyfriend, that ended up going badly and I don't even know if I ever really wanted a boyfriend or just a best friend, I know I'm Asexual now at least but I have no idea about my romantic orientation.

I just looked at some of those older posts, and wow, I really was such a bratty teenager back then who didn't really know what she wanted or needed. I may not be the best now because of other problems, mainly ones I don't have enough control over, but I am still a better person than I was then.

Its honestly comforting to know I'm not the only one. I think the kicker for me was probably a whole post I made complaining about my father, because I was mad that he was always at work. I understand now how much he did for me and continues to do for me, he's honestly a freakin' legend. He just went skydiving today actually, I saw the video and photos and I SHIT YOU NOT- the man didn't even FLINCH.

It was just a punch in the gut that I was so angry at him and all he wanted was to take care of his family. I deleted it all and had the topic locked, honestly I couldn't bear its existence.

I joined Subeta when I was about... 20-ish, I'd like to go back and delete every single post I made that year because holy shit. I was in a really toxic friendship with someone who was far too old for me at the time (seven year age difference, we met when I was 17. I joined here before that went completely, utterly terrible. Long story.)

So I feel ya. I get ya.

And biggest mood possible.

High five <: Same. I joined when I was 15 and the cringe was real. I also lied about a lot of random things for no reason??? So yeah I no longer dive into those recesses but I feel you.

man lowkey glad my post history seems to be broken because it only goes as back as 2016 even tho i joined............... considerably earlier than that asdfghjkl

but honestly i was kinda?? shy abt these forums when i was a teenager bc i felt everyone was older than me and only started actively posting when i was like 17, when i was an ironic edgelord u w u but honestly?? i was p chill i think lmao a tad cringy at worst

oh man... that too. I didn't really blatantly lie, (at least I didn't see any posts where I did) but I had a tendency to exaggerate to make a story seem more interesting or just to justify the amount of whining I did about things. Hoo boy I just want to travel back in time and punch myself in the face.

Oh god you're so lucky. I'd love it if all of my post history would just break tbh

Ahhhhh same. I was reading my oldest posts the other day (my very oldest were victims of the purge too) but ya I was 16 when I joined and I'm 28 now And like I was mean??? Why was I mean? I don't remember being mean but honestly I did kind of surround myself with mean people IRL so maybe that's where it came from. But ya I guess I thought I was cool or some shit and being mean was cool idk! The regerts are real! I'm glad I'm not the only one and you're definitely not alone!! I hope I'm not the only one who was a Grade A Bitch though pffft.

I've had a Facebook account since 2010, and a YouTube account since 2007. Let me tell you, YouTube was filled with very different people in 2007....

As an older player, I have to admit I don't have this problem. Not that everything I've ever posted is perfect or anything, but I'm really happy that this sort of public posting stuff didn't exist when I was that age.

I do have some old writings from those days, that are very cringe worthy, so I can empathize a little. The only saving grace for me is that its private pain, not public.

Everyone I know has said, thought and felt stuff they regret. You're definitely not alone!

I was 21 when I joined and mostly just posted in my Cult's forum. Most cringe-worthy thing I saw was gushing over my toxic ex, but I don't blame younger me. It's neat to see how much I've changes since then and I'm SO glad that I'm not that gullible anymore, haha.

Oof, same here. I joined when I was about 13 as well, 24 now, and thankfully, I can't see any of my old posts anymore. Though I do remember some of the awful, awful things I posted. Ranting at anyone and everything, harassing an ex who used to use this site, "srry dat was my bro hu hakked me!!!" posting.. I think the bright side of it all is, nobody would (or should, rather) judge you for your past self. I think most people are silly when they're teens :) It doesn't stop the cringe, though!

I joined in 2005 when I was 13 (I'm 28 now), and reading back on old posts is major cringe. I didn't post on the forums for the first few years while I was here, but I was reading posts from back in like... 2010, and there are some things where I'm like, 'okay, that sounds like something I'd still say' and then there's other things where I'm like 'hooooooo gurl, you need to stop.'

“Uwu” brings me way back ?

Saaaaame. I wouldn't even dare to look at my old posts. I joined when I was 16 and I'm 26 now. I did an awful lot of roleplaying in the forums back then and I'm sure most if it is awful and cringey.

Oh wow I just went back and looked at my old posts..I am embarrassed by many of those posts

oh god. my old posts are from like six years ago and they aren't SUPER cringy, but they're full of frightening emoticons and a very persistent kind of cheerful blandness that characterized my internet persona back then. but actually ... i think i still do that d: IT'S HARD TO LET MY INDIVIDUALITY SHINE THROUGH WHEN I WANNA BE NICE

highlights: ending posts with "eh?" <3's everywhere xD more often than should be describing my actions like this

... shit, i still do all of those. fml

While I haven't been on Subeta since my teens, I occasionally look back at my old fanfiction (I still write, but....) and desperately want to scrub my own brain out.