This hits way too close to home. I grew up in that city, I remember that mall (Cielo Vista) across from the Walmart.
And yet I can't even work up a rage anymore, because this shit keeps happening and fucking NOTHING ever gets done or comes of it. All I feel now is sad and powerless.
My friend works at EPCC, and is worried about how this would affect his job.
And also the calls and texts from friends and family.
Its bad enough living with threats from an uncaring government to have to deal with armed individuals. Faith can run thin here.
Meanwhile, in America... I can't even be upset over it anymore, my quota has been met and exceeded.

This is honestly so sad. I’m sending so much love and prayers for the people who were effected by this tragedy. ?
This is so tragic, and I agree with a lot of the sentiment in here.
But if you want the upside here's a few things I saw on twitter regarding the matter;
Hundreds, possibly thousands of people turning up to the centers to donate blood to help the injured victims
A guy passing out free pizza to people waiting in line to donate blood in case they hadn't eaten so they didn't have to make the choice between being hungry and keeping their place in line
A pair of guys in a pickup truck with a cooler of ice cold water driving around and offering it to people standing in line to donate blood
The black guy (I forgot his name, it wasn't mentioned enough) who saw a kid run into the Foot Locker where he was shopping talking about a shooter, went outside and saw kids running for their lives without their parents, and helped get them to safety
This city came together in the wake of tragedy and helped the victims and those who went out of their way to help the victims as much as they could. It was horrible what happened, but at least it shows the community really cares when something like this happens.
Ugh... I can't even...
And then, about 12 hours later, in Ohio. What is wrong with people?
What is wrong is that the Government hasn't done anything in years to prevent this kind of situations by banning weapons, especially to mentally ill people.
Hope this isn't too political, but let's face it; when a Muslim person causes a mass shooting it's terrorism, when it's a black or Hispanic person it's gang related, and when it's a white guy it's mental illness. There are lots of things wrong, from the government refusing to ban automatic and semi-automatic weapons across the board to refusing to enforce stricter gun control laws, but this is also a big part of it as most mass shooters are white and automatically considered to be mentally ill as opposed to the other options.
Ah yes, forgot for a minute I was sitting among the ban brigade. Welp, I'm out 'cause my opinions would throw it into an against the rules debate (though I admit it was entirely my fault for asking in the first place).
I read that earlier too, and personally I'm happy. But outcomes like that are few and far between, and labeling the El Paso shooter as a domestic terrorist does not fix the larger issue at hand. It's a good step, tho.
I think your response is practically the only response left....
It's not just mental illness. It's radicalization, entitlement, toxic masculinity, lack of background checks, and lack of access to mental health professionals (ie, universal healthcare). More than a 20% of America is mentally ill at any given time. Statistically speaking, people who are mentally ill are vastly more likely to be the victim of crime or violence than the one perpetrating it. Is there some mental illness and/or personality disorder involved? Absolutely. You don't get thinking like that if you're "okay" in the head and a well adjusted individual. But that's only a tiny piece of the puzzle.
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