I'm feeling really anxious and stir crazy and I fear that if this keeps up, I'll end up having another seizure - my fear once again brought to life by my own inability to control myself. I've tried distractions, meditation, working out, eating/sleeping right, positive thinking, and I've tried all sorts of facing the problem, but it seems like every time I start down this spiral there's no stopping it until another stress-induced seizure eventually just happens.

I'm terrified of these seizures, they are directly connected to my having PTSD as I almost died to a brain malformation causing epilepsy around a decade ago and never managed to get over it. These seizures aren't the same, and they shouldn't be ones that could kill me (even if they were epileptic), but even so my fear of them is absolutely ruining my life.

Because my new seizures are stress-induced, I have ended up fearing stress which only makes it worse. Now I'm having stress because I feel stuck. I've ended up not making any progress for the better part of two weeks and my impatience has taken hold. I'm so damn stir-crazy I've ended up hating everything that doesn't help me make progress, but unfortunately I can't even relax well enough to make the progress I want to. It's stressing me out, which like I said is causing anxiety. I don't know what to do! I can't get the stir craziness to stop and this is really starting to scare me.

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I'm sorry hun that must be so frustrating. I have PTSD as well from being in an abusive marriage and it has manifested in me as anger. I think I kind of know how you feel almost trapped in your fear, because I feel trapped in my anger. It is really suffocating. I don't know what to suggest beyond looking into counseling. I've heard amazing things about EMDR therapy as well but haven't tried it personally.

Well, thank you anyway. I actually probably will be starting EMDR tomorrow, I'm hoping it works. It's just been a matter of trying to get to that point without causing a seizure.

I hope you can find your way out of PTSD as well. The stuff's nasty.

That's awesome, I hope it works well for you! That's something I really want to do once I get insurance. Let me know how it goes. :)