I've been working for the same company for almost 9 years and I recently was diagnosed with tendonitis and it has been the worse thing possible for me due to how hands-on my job is. I recently moved to another state and transferred to this particular store at the beginning of the year and have been bullied from the start by individuals and my wrist problems have made it even worse with the managers being very whiney that I'm not able to perform one task in the store due to how aggressive it is to my wrists. The orthopedic I visited said two weeks time, but it is still just as bad as a month ago and can't afford another visit so I was given the choice at work to suck it up or drop down to an insider position at $9 an hour, which to me feels very sad given how long I've been with this company.

The other thing is this has had a strong impact on my mental health which was already bad due to living around toxic family families and suffering some nightmares that they were gonna come after me after I dropped contact with them and moved out of the toxic family house. Even being several states away I get anxious and tear up when I see a vehicle similar to my toxic family members. Having this wrist pain constantly, I can't draw comfortably anymore. Anytime I draw traditionally the pencil gets smeared by the brace and if the brace is off when I'm drawing digitally, it hurts to hold the pen. My grip has been failing as well and it hurts to grab things. I'm afraid it's just never gonna heal right and I'll never be able to comfortably do anything ever again.

I feel so bad because I've been a giant wreck the past few days coming home crying hysterically to my boyfriend about work and just worried over finding another job that can help pay bills. I just generally don't know what to do at this point. I want to see a therapist, but I'm afraid to go. I feel broken as I just moved away from toxicity and right into another situation where I'm dealing with the same thing. Everywhere I go I feel I just get bullied.

I'm sorry I just need a place to talk about this and hopefully some people to talk to about it and what I could maybe do about this and if I should go to a therapist.

I hope you find a good job you can do... i really hope you can find a place where you dont have to be around toxicity. It seems like a lot of changes are going to come for you. Life can be rough and unexpected like that. Its not what you planned but youll have to keep going with the cards you have. I know in time youll find a way to make it better even if it goes slowly. //big hug Try not to take everything the bullies say too close to heart, you will need to care for you now more than ever

What do you about this place you moved to? Take time to browse jobs and companies there. Don't quit the current job because income is important. This said I do say get out of there. Try looking into nursing home/care facilities, gas stations, um garden season is up soon so maube a place with that and a chance to be hired permanently? Check on ideed and snagajob as well. Both these sites allow you to fill in a profile with work and education history and some jobs you can send this I do to apply with one button click.

I second [user= Kore] 's advice. I found my newest job on Indeed and the application process is super easy! I know how you feel about your wrist. I worked as a server for over three years and I developed a ganglion cyst on the side of my wrist and sometimes when I work on it for long amounts of times I have pain as well and have to get off and ice it. Wrist pain sucks. My insurance sucks right now so I'm waiting till I get better insurance and some vacation time before I consult a hand surgeon because the only thing that will make it feel better is surgery and Im poor atm. But yeah, a change in career could take some stress off and help with mental health. If you haven't already, maybe consider getting an associates in something? Having a degree really opened up a lot of doors for me when it came to the job hunt. Good luck!