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This might seem like a basic HA but people, especially crowds, are one of my biggest fears. I get horrible anxiety having to interact with other people and always feel as if they're judging every little thing I say/do.

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Simplistic HA to face tough fears...

I got Gismo as a support animal. He's the reason I'm motivated to get up and he's the reason I'm still here. A few times came close to no longer being around but then I think to myself who will be there for him? So I stick it out...

He's almost 12, one day he won't be there anymore... then the question becomes who will be there for me?

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A simple HA, but effective, I feel. My biggest fear is abandonment and isolation. I hate, absolutely despise being left alone for too long. I panic, pace a lot, essentially have a break down if I'm left with no one else for long periods of time.

the fist thing i thought of was when i was at my grandmothers house at night i always felt uneasy and watched in the room the front door leads to and if you had to go to the bathroom at night you would have to walk through it. there was a creepy mask out of bark hanging on the wall but the worst thing was there where 2 big windows whith nothing to cover them so there was just pitch black outside and even if someone would be right at the window you wouldn't be able to see anything, who knows if you are watched or not

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I knew just what to do for this one, I've always been terrified of spiders. Even looking at this gives me the creeps!

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I have a fear of flooding and rising water ever since tropical Allison and Hurricane Harvey! Our house flooded during tropical Allison and almost flooded during Harvey! I go into a panic mode when there is one close!

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I debated a couple of things, a lot of my fears are quite abstract though, I'm not bothered by bugs or heights or anything like that. I wondered if I should post this one, it's super personal to me and I don't want to be seen as being insensitive.

For me, my biggest fear is having to watching someone you love suffer.

Fire. It scares the s**t outta me. Just seeing a smoke plume on the horizon is enough to make me sick with terror. Seriously, physically ill. Cigarette smokers hate me 'cause I'm always crushing on them for dropping or pitching their filthy, fire starting butts around. Outfit Not Found

Outfit Not Found Mixed two big ones for me: fire and blame. Fire is easy enough to understand, blame harder. It isn't deserved blame, but the kind that is twisted into a monster by those who do not understand or have nothing to do with the situation and just want to make noise and pain. This fear has been with me since middle school... some small thing or nothing at all becoming rumor and suddenly accidentally walking into someone in the hall becomes that you stalked and attacked that person out of jealousy and tried to break this nose. Or you hear from a friend you are an evil witch because you didn't fall all over the guy who liked you that you were too busy studying to notice. As I grew older the fear grew bigger. Nothing like this happened to me, but I heard and saw...

Private Outfit A decent representation of my claustrophobia. The clothes are just vaguely representative of my usual sort of outfit.

Private Outfit my biggest fear is life itself... i have many medical conditions that make my life a living hell, all of the pain... not to mention the suffering. that’s my nightmare... my life.

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My fear basically comes down to me. I am afraid of myself. That may sound a bit cliché or whatever, but looking at it from an overview of everything I fear I am the most scared of what I could do or what my mind could do to harm me. I have suffered from depression from quite a while and I've gone through some scary situations in my life where even if I try to resist the depression, it always overcomes my decisions that I make. I think because I've been in difficult situations, I tend to not fear much. I have become a fearless person and I do make risky moves that can get me in scary places because I feel as if I don't have much left to lose.

The HA is in representation of my depression and I. Darkness/ void is a typical description for people suffering from MDD so I thought that placing myself in a dark setting would match. I also choose to use a background that contained a dark forest (may or may not be visible) because I feel as if depression or sadness, in general, can seem like an endless maze. The dark hands also represent my depression holding me back/ onto me, and the red figure is what I decided to make the main "villain" or creator behind my sadness.

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One of my fears is fairly newfounded--There's some thing I can only react by quaking with terror...Tornadoes. Sudden Darkness okay so clouds...that's fine & then...you. hear. it. The Screaming Everything Screaming--even the wind Everything Smashing Around & Into Each Other Except You all you can do is duck for cover and pray that it doesn't get you directly or hurl debris on you Utter Helplessness & the sheer relief of being able to breathe again once it's over...that you were spared...for now...

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One of my worst fears is teachers, all authority figures but teachers especially. I'm autistic, and as a kid was "normal" enough to slip through the system and be in regular classes, but I was always hyperaware of how other people like me were treated, of what treatment I would be subject to if I was slightly less allistic-passing. One time in high school for a psychology class we were made to sit in on an autistic class, like these people were some science experiment or creatures in a zoo. What I saw horrified me: there was one kid, like a seven year old kid, who didn't want to sit still and behave and he was literally restrained by one of the teachers. He was screaming for them to let him go and they just kept trying to teach the class as normal. I was traumatised by that even as an onlooker, I can only imagine what he must have gone through, probably even going through that frequently. There are also even worse programs out there, like ABA therapy, which if you read stories written by autistic people subjected to it, is essentially state and parent-approved torture, repeatedly punishing a child for doing what they need to to function and not mentally break down, just because it doesn't have the appearance of normal behaviour.

I've always been afraid of authority figures just on concept alone, that this arbitrarily selected person can do anything to you and there's nothing you can do to stop them. But teachers in particular started to frighten me after that day. We give our kids to these people, to this system, and let them do what they will. We are legally required to hand them over to be shaped into what our society thinks is good and right. I don't blame my mom for sending me to school because ze didn't really have any other option, even though I hated it and was terrified of it, and it permanently traumitised me being constantly subjected to the fear of what would happen to me. Every day I was ready to kill myself just to make it stop. It even followed me to college and exacerbated to the point where I was certain my instructor was going to kill me for upsetting him. I would spend entire days hiding under my desk (I went to trade school, and it was always open lab, so this was an option.)

The day I made the decision never to go back to school was a day an enormous weight lifted off my shoulders, and one of the best days of my life. But now I can't work because on top of a lot of other reasons, the stress of having a boss would literally kill me.

Anyway I'm all shaky and teary just writing this so I'm gonna stop there and just post this. Enjoy teacher lady who just wants what's best for your child.*

*What's best for your child is at our discretion and possesses no regard for your child's actual needs.

(Also, fun fact: her hair clip is an oleander, which is a poisonous flower. Also, my other option for worst fear was eugenics, but I didn't know how to make that as an obvious HA, or the current administration of the US, but then I would have to look at pictures of them.)

Private Outfit I used to be Astraphobic (fear of thunder and lightning) not by seeing photos of but by being there. As a child, I hated the idea of being outside whenever it happened incase it struck me (despite the UK having relatively low frequencies) it has gradually improved a lot. However, I feel my fears now are more to do with time and losing myself. Thanks to the new CS challenger, it's made me realise how much that time is a scary thing. Time involves a lot of things for me such as adjusting to change, worrying if time is well spent, uncertainty, losing those you love and a terrible anxiety habit of mine: "What If? 's".

From the past year and a half, I had been struggling with time a lot and how well I spent it. Especially as I'm still at uni needing to work hard for my projects. It's been very hard to get my motivation back when my mind wasn't willing to cooperate and my anxieties getting the better of me. I have improved a lot but I still have troubles getting into my work and I do occasionally get pulled by procrastination and mental troubles. There is an interesting video that discusses about time management for creatives and described counting heartbeats and that you won't get the heartbeats back again is how precious time is. It's very deep but it makes sense.

The cracks in my skin represents the fear of losing myself. I appreciate who I am and it's great to be different but my difficulties and anxieties can make it hard for me to appreciate myself more. I am my own harsh critique and I do forget how lovely I am as a person. "Why did I do this?" "Why did I do that?" "I'm an idiot!" and things like that I think about. It's very exhausting fighting with yourself and I now know to appreciate myself more but I do have fears of losing myself completely as I need to put myself in control to be who I am and value.

this has been a tough one. i have ruminated all week on what my biggest fear is, as i tend not to fear that much, maybe i'm a bit apathetic about most things that people are generally afraid of, and probably most of the out-of-the-ordinary things people are afraid of as well. in the end i went with the most constant one, the staggering loneliness that overtakes sometimes, and being afraid that it will continue for a long long time, but which i somehow manage everyday, easier now because of my cats, but it still simmers away under there making me sad and bitter aaand anyway... then i had to figure out how to put that into an outfit, so i went with a white void/white unicorn because solitude. Private Outfit ok. end therapy session

well done everyone, both for the outfits, and sharing your fears, i was super impressed everyone was so brave with their honesty as well ❤

thanks for the raffle prizes! :) also, i love that these MVs just go to show that these idols are just as fabulously dorky as us~ except cuter and better dancers and better singers and with better stylist and hairdressers and makeup artists XD