POSSIBLE TRIGGERS ABOUT SUICIDE

My uncle committed suicide. He was my dads youngest brother who none of us had seen for years and years. He was always in trouble, a drug user and always in and out of prison. We essentially abandoned him. He wasn't a bad person, he had just taken the wrong path and his life spiralled out of control. My dad is devastated and feels guilty because a few times my uncle tried to contact him and he said they would meet up but they never did. I was friends with him on Facebook a couple years ago and I said I'd meet up too but things always happened in my life and I put meeting him in the back burner. I am so wracked with guilt right now. We all could have made an effort. Especially me. I'm his niece. I just want to see him so much right now and tell him that we all love him. But I can't. It's too late and I can't even begin to describe how painful that is right now. My heart is literally aching and there's a hard lump in my throat. I am going to his funeral. I owe him that much.

Sorry for posting such a negative post. I just needed to get this out in the open. I love you Uncle Mick.

You had things going on in life and didn't have the chance to hang out with him, his suicide is not your fault or anyone's. He probably needed professional help :/

Hey.

Hey, it's not your fault. Don't blame yourself for it. It's not your fault.

Even if he had gotten help that's no promise he wouldn't have done this. It's not your fault. None of you knew his total mid set or thoughts. Without that what help would anyone have truly been?

My own sister has battled endlessly with drugs for many years. She has gotten away from the worst of them but alcohol and a couple others still come by in her life. I know when she's back to doing dumb things and I separate myself. She knows I'll do this too despite knowing most of her thinking on it and her process. Is it perfect? Hell no its not. Nobody would wish that sort of life and result on anyone! More so those they care about. My own sister has tried to commit suicide a few times but never is successful. Her tendency for it lessened after getting away from the truly bad ones. They are nothing helpful at all. It's a cycle and the person I it has to want and be will I to work on the help provided.

I'm sorry this has happened. The guilt you feel is normal upon death. I myself felt badly after my dad died. Wishing we had gotten to do this or that with or for them is perfectly normal. Have your family reach out to a local hospice. They usually have connection to grief counsel they can offer. Al, these years later the place my dad was at sends reminder pamphlets that its always an option to use grief counsel.