Nothing has seem to interest me for awhile.. Ive even tried watching shows I loved growing up. It seemed like it no longer held the joy it used to. I can't find any shows anymore that I like. It's like all recycled plots and predictable endings.. Ive tried re reading books I used to like but whats the point of re reading something you already read. Ive tried playing games but they don't really hold my interest.. I tried to go out in my yard and put stuff in my storage building and all I could hear was my neighbors yelling (nothing new for them). Honestly I don't even talk to them. My mails been vanishing it doesn't even make it to my mail box.. Post office just wants to argue with me. Ive had multiple packages vanish (none had trackers the only ones I get are the ones with trackers). I feel like nothings ever going to change. Ive now made sure everything I order has a tracker on it. So I can't get stuff from china cause they can't put trackers on packages outside the u.s.

I stay to myself cause my town is full of people I would rather not go anywhere near. My neighbors watch my yard like hawks. It creepy. Only 2 neighbors one is on a hill and watches my place like crazy and even tries to force me to sell it to them. (there dog almost killed one of my dogs and caused major damage luckily I got a officer to make my hill neighbor pay the vet bill.) The other neighbor the one thats always yelling likes to blame my cat for things. My cat is not a male its a female. They have had a male cat on there yard. so they threaten my cat. I swear people are stupid. My cat isn't even as big as the cat that's been on there yard and if they stop throwing food out they wouldn't attract strays. (they live across a road from me but I can still hear them yelling)

Feels like i am in a slump or something. maybe it's stress?

No moving isn't a option. No a vacation/spa day is not a option(im on a fixed income never had a vacation/spa day never will).

Is the one trying to get you to sell the place for cheap or would they be offering fair market pricing? Its possible that might be a way into a place not falling apart like you've described in some older posts. It might be a way for a new start or break for you if its something that can work out fairly to you.

If not then all I can suggest is to just stay to yourself as you have been when it comes to your neighbors. Does your town have any book clubs or weekend activity gatherings for summer? Any city festivals or the like you might get to go see and meet people?

I can't sell it even if I wanted to. Im paying off a lean on it.

No my town is basically bars. It's a small town no walmart, no target, they will be closing the hospital soon. Plus I have no transportation and I don't drive. I use a transit for medical things like doctor appointments my insurance pays the transit company for taking me. No walking to places is not a option. Ive had one leg surgery and have to have another one.

I think maybe everything has hit me so much at once that im just overloaded .. financial issues, health issues it all seems to be getting to me. Im not completely on my own someone else lives with me and we share the bills but even with our combined income (less than 1 thousand a month) we still have things disconnected. Such as the tv its under $40.00 a month we do not have any movie channels it's the basic package. I have a cellphone but no bill mine is a government phone.

I coupon when I can. I set a new budget for makeup and skincare of $10.00 a month. which I use for a subscription service that sends me 5 products and a clutch bag. The money is not coming out of the income it comes out of my earnings for watching videos. I use apps and watch videos earn points cash points out for gift cards (I choose a prepaid visa to cover my subscription bag). I get things like lotions, facial scrubs, facial masks, lipsticks, makeup brushes, ect.. I got a firma blush brush that retails for $15.00 in my bag and it was just 1 of the 5 items!

To me it im getting a good deal on my beauty subscription. Im trying to set realistic budgets for other stuff. Im also setting rules for myself like wait till my shampoo is a little over half empty before buying a new bottle. Of course I have rebate apps on my phone and I look for sales. Im hoping to start a stock pile of things that don't expire such as toilet paper im already working on a small toothbrush stockpile(got them all free!).